My Akashic Journey ~ Chapter Eight ~ Multiple Timelines and Simultaneous Lives, Oh MY!!!

November 16, 2013November 16, 2013FreerSpirit Akashic Records, Collective Consciousness, Metaphysical, Multiverse, My Akashic Journey, Parallel Universe, Paranormal, Pleaidians, Reincarnation, Spiritual, Spirituality, Timelines, Twin Flame Soul Mates, Unity Consciousness Tags: 4 Charlesgate East, Akashic Readings, Akashic Records, Charlesgate Hotel, Free Will, FreerSpirit. Multiple Lives, Jen Freer, Matrix, Multiple Timelines, My Akashic Journey, Parallel Universe, Pleiadians, Portals, twin flame soul mates 10 Comments

So I’ve been minding my own business, working on a new teen trilogy idea and entertaining myself with the research when I’m not conducting private Akashic Readings and totally NOT thinking about what the next chapter of My Akashic Journey will entail. Although, I do admit, I did give it a wonder for a brief moment, but I figured I had some learning and growing to do before it would come together, as is usually the case.

I had decided that my young adult novel series will take place in Boston. I’m not even sure why – it was just a given. Didn’t even think twice about it. Which is weird because I have not been to Boston in at least 15 years, and, to be honest, even though I had a great time there in my college days, I don’t miss it much. But I do miss my college buddy and Pleiadian family member who lives there. And thank goodness she does, because she has been very instrumental in helping me decide what Boston high school my main character will attend and which neighborhoods are most ideal for the setting.

It was during our discussion on Thursday, July 11, 2013, that the beginnings of this chapter began to manifest when my Pleiadian sister said: “Forget Fenway. It’s all been rebuilt with high rises and is snotty. You could put them in an upper apartment on Queensbury. They could have tall windows overlooking the Fens out toward Mass College of Art and the Fine Arts Museum.”

Long pause for consideration. I had spent a LOT of time in that neighborhood walking my dog, shooting hoops, running the cinder track around the patchy football field. So close to Boston Latin, the oldest and most famous high school in the city, which was also the first school I thought my main character should attend, until I remembered it’s a private school.

“Wait!” my Pleiadian sister said, “Put them in a condo on the eighth floor of Charlesgate! You know the building and its history, so you can play with that!”

Whaaaaat??? They converted our old college dormitory into condos? Seriously?!

I lived on the eighth floor the first couple months of my freshman year at Emerson College. The place was a total dump with nasty stucco walls that looked like plastered cheese curds and a lethargic elevator that never fully made it to the floor landing. I usually had to step up, or even pull myself up onto the landing from inside the elevator – until I got smart and started taking the stairs.

“I lived on the eighth floor freshman year,” I said. “Totally haunted!”

I wasn’t keen on the idea. The old Charlesgate Hotel is massive. Just… HUGE!!! I had been thinking more of an old factory loft-style apartment with exposed brick walls and majestic windows for my novel. Although I suppose that type of setting has been overdone.

What is really weird, here, is that I mentioned this very building in Chapter Seven of My Akashic Journey as Exhibit C of my guides’ presentation of information regarding multiple lives and timelines:

Then my guides show me Exhibit C, that ornate tile décor I noticed in my dormitory building at 4 Charlesgate East in Boston, Massachusetts, when I was a freshman at Emerson College. I recognized it immediately and realized “I’ve been here before,” with utmost clarity and certainty. Then I frowned. “But I’ve NEVER been here before,” I reminded myself.

I must admit that I didn’t really fully “get it” until Friday, July 12, when I began researching the building. I first started with the present-day stuff for my novel. If you Google 4 Charlesgate East, all kinds of realtor listings for available condo units pop up. And, yes, the eighth floor unit is currently available “again.” Massive renovations have taken place since I lived there in the fall semester of 1989. It’s nice and all, but hardly worth the $790,000 asking price for the 2 bedroom/2 bathroom, 1,003 square-foot condo. Unless you really enjoy living with perverted and temperamental ghosts, that is.

As I continued to scroll through the Google listings, I came upon an interesting link to an article describing the old Charlesgate Hotel as “the most haunted building in Boston.” Built in 1891 by architect J. Pickering Putnam, the building served as a luxury hotel until 1947, then there are conflicting stories about it being a dormitory for female Boston University seminary students (THERE’s a contrast!) or a dorm for male BU students from 1947-1972. Maybe it was both. Twenty-five years is a long time span, so who knows for sure? Over the next nine years the building is said to have been a tenement building for “wayward types” until Emerson College purchased it for use as a dormitory in 1981. The building then sold, again, around 1994/1995 (more conflicting reports) and has since been converted into condominiums.

So I read through a number of articles on these “haunted Boston” type sites. Some of the stories I read about the haunted happenings were familiar. Others were not. Most were far more over-the-top than what I experienced myself (personal items shooting across my dorm room with great force, dead-bolted doors flinging open with a crash at two a.m., caressing and tickling feelings on my calves and thighs while lying in bed, and the clicking sounds of my roommate’s cosmetic cases being opened and closed while I was the only one in the room. She later asked if I had messed with her stuff because it was all out of place!)

When I moved from the very small eighth floor (every article makes a big deal out of the fact that the eighth floor cannot be seen from the street and some go so far as to say that it had been purposely built that way as a secret hideaway for mafia activity, but I always got the feeling the eighth floor was an addition, and not part of the original building) to the larger second floor, I began to hear more and more student accounts of ghostly encounters. One resident assistant spent most of her time sitting in the hallway because the negative energy in her room was too much for her to bear. Just telling me about it made the hairs on her arms stand up, and she showed me her goose bumps. Right around that time a story appeared in our school newspaper stating that several female students had reported a male ghostly figure dressed in black and wearing a black hat and cape getting fresh with them while lying in their beds. I believed it since I had felt the mysterious caressing and tickling nonsense when I was on the eighth floor, but it never occurred to me to report it to anyone, especially after my roommate looked at me like I had three heads when I told her I felt our room was haunted.

Even though I was only eighteen and from a small, rural area where I’d lived in a fairly new, one-owner home with no spooky history, I was pretty chill about all the spirit activity I suddenly encountered without warning. As I sat and thought about it on July 12, Scarborough (my higher self) communicated to me that Charlesgate was, actually, a portal.

Wait? What? A portal?!!

Yes, a portal to other dimensions and timelines.

Okay, weird. The first time I had ever encountered that word was when a psychic friend came over to my house to investigate all the wild spirit activity I had been experiencing at my current home in southwest Michigan. She told me she felt a “magic gateway” in my basement that dug down way deep into the ground and shot way high up into the sky, but also curved out, northward, toward the fireplace, and vibrated like a giant tuning fork.

“The spirits are attracted to it,” she told me.

Hmm. And all this time I thought I was on some kind of Native American spiritual site or burial ground. (Not in a “Poltergeist” (the movie) kind of way, but in a far more sacred feeling sort of way that is peaceful until a disturbed soul wanders in seeking my assistance.)

Another portal, I thought to myself as I stared at a photo of Charlesgate on my laptop screen. Some of the articles were going so far as to say that the architect, J. Pickering Putnam, had been rumored to dabble in the occult and that he had purposely designed the building with materials to attract dark energies. The movie Ghostbusters suddenly came to mind, and it all seemed so crazy. I searched for more information on the architect, who was a Boston Latin alumna (coincidence?) and a Harvard graduate who traveled to France to further his studies at The School of Fine Arts in Paris.

Paris? Really? Coincidence again, I wondered as I stood and stretched. Suddenly a vision of the ornate decorative tile I recognized as an 18-year old flashed in front of my eyes. I shook it away and glanced at my laptop screen again. Architect. The word was the only clear thing on the page.

“Architect!” I realized.

Oh. My. God.

I felt the instant connection. My twin flame’s Akashic Records said she had been an architect who designed the grand staircase on the Titanic. Was it possible she had also been this J. Pickering Putnam guy as well? And, if so… how is that possible if the Titanic sank in 1912 and her architect self was on the ship? How could she also be an architect in Boston designing and building the Charlesgate Hotel in 1891?

Ohh, here we go with the parallel universe, multiple timelines and simultaneous lives mindfuck again!!! Am I right?

Well, you know exactly what time it is now! Time for a My Akashic Journey reading!

Okay, so, I know you are trying to help me make a connection to another life by showing me the ornate wall tile at Charlesgate right when I was reading the word Architect on my laptop screen. I feel a correlation, so what are you trying to tell me, exactly?

The reason you recognized the tile and felt you had been there before was because you had been there many, many times with your husband who was, yes, the architect of that building. And, yes, the higher self of that individual, J. Pickering Putnam, or JP Putnam as he preferred to be called, was Ulron, the twin-flame soul mate of your higher self, Scarborough.

Okay, so, in an Akashic reading I conducted for her last summer, my twin-flame was told that she had been an architect who designed the grand staircase of the Titanic, of which she was supposedly a passenger when it sunk in April of 1912. So, how is it possible that she was incarnated as an architect in Belfast, Ireland, working on the Titanic while, at the same time, incarnated as JP Putnam, another architect designing and building the Charlesgate Hotel?

They were on two different timelines. Parallel, yes, and happening simultaneously, yes, but on completely different timelines.

How is that possible?

Well, there are many, many different parallel worlds, dear. We could try to explain it, but it would boggle your brain too much. So, for the sake of your sanity, just know that it is possible and happening on so many different levels with so many different fractals of your higher self that you could not even begin to imagine how it is all kept organized, but it is.

Okay, so, is it a computer program? Like, in The Matrix? Are we a bunch of Sims-type characters? How can you explain
it better?

We just told you that we can’t. It would fry your brain. And most humans don’t want to know. They are too busy being occupied by the system. Too interested in their own Sims-type games to realize they could really be living real lives if they could just unplug. But, what they are doing is very much like what your higher selves are doing. Running programs. Experimenting with different characters. But, actually feeling through these characters who are in physical bodies. But the idea was not to become so mind-centered that you stop living and experiencing. Yes, it is part of the program… to experiment to see how deeply rooted fear can immobilize an entire race. You remember the days when you, as a kid, used to go outside and roam and play for hours and hours with no parental supervision. You were free to explore your world. There were no simulated, computer programmed games to play. And your parents weren’t worried too much about your safety until you started driving their car. And really, then, they were more worried about their car or “the other guy on the road,” than they were worried about you. Not that they didn’t love you, but that their fears and worries were more about financial issues or you being a victim than you actually causing a problem on the road. Regardless, if you sat around in your room on your computer all the time, they would have been more worried about you than they were when you were outside roaming and exploring, and, yes, even driving their car. Because, just 30 years ago, life was very, very different. You were still expected to be socially engaging… or engaged… with people face to face. Not in chat rooms or through simulated online games. The whole idea of incarnating into physical bodies is to fully experience life through all or most of the senses. Many are no longer doing this for they have become so enslaved by the system that even their free time is consumed by the system.

It sounds to me like we are being treated like lab rats. What is the point?

To see if the lab rat cares enough about itself to free itself… and the other lab rats.

Seriously? That is totally fucked up. And you wonder why so many of us are depressed and suicidal?

We know why you are. We understand fully. But we also know that you all have the power to change it. The question is, do you want to? And, if you want to, how are you going to go about it? Are you going to continue killing each other for power? Are you going to continue to allow a flawed system run by a few elite control you? Your lives? Your loved ones lives?

The problem is that we don’t know how to change it. We’ve got people channeling ETs who are telling us they are coming to save us. We’ve got these other groups telling us that there are some benevolent trusts that are about to gift us with prosperity packets so we, too, can experience wealth and abundance and finally live again. The problem is that this has been going on for years and nothing ever happens. Peaceful protests have been going on and on and on, but nothing changes much. We’re still enslaved by the system. How do we change it?

How do you stop abuse? You walk away from it. You have this power. All of you. Together. You have to disengage. You have stop lending your energy to the system. That is the only way out.

How do you end a game you can never win? You simply stop playing.

How do you starve a system that starves you? Easy. You cut them off. Collectively.

How do you disengage? You have to detach. Detach yourself from fear. Detach yourself from worry. Detach yourself from the lower vibrations that keep you dependent on their system.

We’ve heard all of this before. The majority of the collective does not listen or follow this advice. It seems like the majority of the collective is still deeply asleep. How is it the same or different on other timelines and the parallel worlds?

Each one is slightly different, since variance of outcomes are being explored and recorded. For example, right now, in a parallel universe on the very same timeline as yours, the Trayvon Martin case/Zimmerman trial has seen Zimmerman convicted to a twenty year sentence. Basically, some outcomes are the opposite of what you are currently experiencing regarding human rights cases while some remain the same.

Okay, so are all the people in that parallel universe exactly the same over there as they are here? With the same higher selves?

Some are participating while some are not. Some are the exact same identity “there” as “here” while others are different, but whether they are the same or different, yes, they all have the same higher selves. That is, IF they are participating in that particular universe on that particular timeline.

Okay, so, how does it work – the universe and timeline I am currently working from – are there more than one timeline within this “universe?”

Yes. There are several. We know it’s confusing. Which is why we don’t try to explain it too much.

It seems chaotic. How is it possible to keep it all straight?

The Akashic Records keep it all documented. If you want to keep going with the “lab” metaphor, think of the different timelines as “batches” or “groups” that were started at different times. So, your first group of rats started their testing six weeks ago. Your second group started five weeks ago. Your third group started four weeks ago. So, even though they are all going through a six-month test, they are slightly staggered and the circumstances are changed a bit despite running through the exact same program for the exact same amount of time.

What is the possibility of July 15, 1971 happening on another timeline right now in the same universe with me being born again as the same exact person while I am still alive?

It’s very possible. Or you could be someone different on a different timeline in the same universe, too. Or the same in a different universe on a different timeline… or the same timeline. The possibilities are endless.

What is the point of being the exact same person on the exact same timeline in a parallel universe?

Some higher selves would like to try the same “character” throughout the same time period with slightly different circumstances. It’s kind of like your video game analogy – using the same character to explore a new difficulty level within the same game.

Please explain to me again what the purpose is for higher selves to be living vicariously through so many physical beings on so many timelines all at once. What are they hoping to accomplish by doing this?

There are so many analogies we could use to explain this and none would be completely accurate, but we will do the best we can with the seedling analogy (although no one gets eaten in the end, so, again, like we say, not the best analogy).

When you plan a garden, you plant many seeds, right? Four or five at a time within one hole. And you will plant several rows of the same kind of seed, right? Because just planting four or five watermelon seeds in one hole may only give you one plant. And that one plant may not even weather the storms long enough to bear fruit.

As you know, even with the same amount of water and sunlight and care, not all seedlings will sprout. The ones that do sprout may not mature. The ones that mature may not flower. The ones that flower may not bear fruit. The ones that bear fruit may not bear enough fruit. Or quality fruit. But the hearty, plentiful ones that bear plenty of quality fruit, those are the ones that truly nourish, right? And nourishment is what every soul needs. So, you know you need to plant a lot of seeds in order to actually nourish yourself. And this is exactly what the higher selves are doing, although they are nourishing themselves with experience – physical experience. They try to nourish you as much as they can so that you will grow and mature and bear quality fruit so that you, in turn, can nourish them. But they know all too well that in order to get the plentiful quality fruit, they have to plant many, many seeds all at the same time.

Ah, so, there you have it. They are not timeline whores after all. They are farmers!!! All kidding aside, no wonder we hear so much of this “harvesting” language all the time. Now my question is, should we really consider it such a negative thing? I mean, we’re here participating for the highest good of our higher selves. Shouldn’t we want to be the tallest and strongest vine or stalk bearing the most plentiful, nourishing sustenance for our souls? Shouldn’t we just follow the Divine guidance of our higher selves rather than constantly fight against the flow of the current just to satisfy the ego’s insistence for “free will?” Isn’t that, after all, what causes all the complications and drama in our lives? Or is that what makes it “interesting?”

I know some would argue that not exercising free will would make us “puppets,” but, at the same time, isn’t the whole idea of this “game” to ascend INTO our higher selves by becoming ONE with them? Would that really be such a BAD thing? To actually WIN the game by ascending into our higher selves with the Ego setting on DIFFICULT?

Let your HEART answer that question.

My Akashic Journey – Chapter Seven – Timeline Whores of the Multiverse

May 29, 2013May 29, 2013FreerSpirit Akash, Akashic Reading, Akashic Records, Collective Akash, Collective Consciousness, Multiverse, My Akashic Journey, Parallel Universe, Pleaidians, Reincarnation, Relationships, Spiritual, Spirituality, Timelines, Twin Flame Soul Mates, Unity Consciousness Tags: Akashic Readings, Akashic Records, Butterfly Effect, Chaos Theory, freerspirit, Grandpa James, Jen Freer, Multiverse, My Akashic Journey, Parallel Universe, Pleiadian Ring of 500, reincarnation, Scarborough Glastonbury, Timelines 12 Comments

Yeah, I said it. When I asked my higher self just how many different timeline lives she was living, she replied, “Oh, about 150.” And so, I admit it, I called her a Timeline Whore. She laughed, of course. And you are probably laughing, too, but, at the time I said it, I was really kind of pissed, to be honest. For about a day or so, it made me feel like I didn’t even have a soul. Like I’m just a pawn. An experiment on a timeline. A fucking GAME to her. I mean, seriously??? One hundred and fifty???!!! All at ONCE? C’mon!!! Who has time for that? Who can keep TRACK of all that drama?

“Don’t even try to comprehend it from where you sit,” she said.

So I didn’t. Whatever, right? It took a couple of days for me trust her assurance that she is with me, always, for every short and long breath.

The conversation happened after I wrote chapter seven of My Akashic Journey, which presented me with more information than I could process in one day about multiple timelines within the multiverse. It has taken me a couple weeks and a bit of consultation with my trusted advanced-consciousness cronies to actually make the decision to publish this mind-bender. Hold onto your hats. I kept seeing 555 codes everywhere before I conducted this reading and wrote this chapter…

On May 10^th I was thinking about a reading I had just given and how it is interesting the way soul groups tend to surround a particular issue and weave in and out of it, playing all the different roles surrounding the issue in order to help one another come to terms with it. I realized it was a lot like higher education, in a way. As undergrads, we pick a major and we study all the components necessary to get a degree in that field. In that major we may feel drawn to a more particular sector, so we go on to investigate further and obtain a master’s degree. We may even decide to then take it one step further and get that doctorate in order to gain the expertise to help others. And once we are helping others, we know we have truly evolved, right? As I was pondering this metaphor, a tidal wave of information crashed down on me about my own life… and reincarnation… and timelines… and… how to finally explain, once and for all… that we are living ALL of these lives simultaneously. WHOA. Talk about drowning in TMI all at once! Damn. I feel like I have a concussion as I write this, but I know I have to, or I will forget everything as quickly as it hit me.

Okay, so I have been shown a few things in a matter of MINUTES, but I know it is going to take hours to explain it all, since the flashes of “Remember this? And that? And THIS? See how they’re all connected?” is going to actually take time for me to explain to everyone who does not live inside my head. Keep in mind, these are pieces of a puzzle that have shown up over several years of time in my own personal life in this particular timeline we are currently sharing. I will present them chronologically and as concisely as possible (sort of like Exhibit A, B and C in a courtroom drama, if you follow).

All my life, in my heart I have known about reincarnation. I have known of my roots and bloodlines, even, that connect me directly to who most know as Jesus Christ. Yes, crazy, I know. That is why I never, EVER talk about it… until recently, of course. As the puzzle pieces begin to come together and I am awakening to who I am – several fractals of one light being who is living many, many timelines all at once – it is starting to (very slowly) make more and more sense. I don’t have all of the answers yet because there is no photo to compare the puzzle pieces to, if you know what I mean. I am just blindly fitting these pieces together, unsure of what “big picture” they will ultimately create actually looks like. When I think about this stuff, I am reminded of the Terminator movies and Butterfly Effect.

Why Terminator you ask? Well, as I see it, what is actually going on is that we are living all these lives at once on different timelines and looking to our “future” selves to be the masters or the experts, if you will, who have the ability to look back or travel back into other timelines to share information or expertise that will enable our other fractal selves to solve problems and issues that could otherwise harm us or the planet in one way shape or form. And, like Butterfly Effect, we are even living some of the same lives during the same timelines over again to fix or repair mistakes that cost us in the future lives. WHEW!! Okay. Crazy, I know. Hard to follow? You bet! But, I finally GET IT!!! This is the way my guides explained it to me:

Imagine yourself at a BINGO Hall playing several cards at the same time. Say you have five cards. (Each represents a different life on a different timeline.) Now, it is unlikely that any two of those five cards will be exactly the same, but, while rare, it IS possible. (Meaning that you can live the same exact life as the same person during the same time period… BUT, the difference being that it’s a different timeline, so in that life the history can be completely different. Now we’re getting into Groundhog Day kind of stuff: do it over until you finally get it right). While the BINGO card metaphor doesn’t quite bring it home, it sort of helped make sense of how our higher selves are playing out several lives all at once… and sometimes even two versions (maybe even more) of the SAME life during the SAME time period on different timelines.

You’re probably wondering how this crazy stuff even came into my mind. Well, as I explained before, it arrived in pieces, over several years, which were all just presented to me in reminder flash fashion about 90 minutes ago in that tidal wave of TMI.

These flashes did NOT come in chronological order, so try to follow.

A few weeks ago I had a dream about my twin flame soul mate and I. I could tell by the songs on the radio, our clothes and our hairstyles and simply by the way we looked that this was the early 90s, back when we were just out of high school. We were sitting in her car in her parents’ garage listening to the radio. I had just told her something about some guy who had date raped me, and I leaned my head on her shoulder. There was so much love and trust between us, I could feel it. She then invited me into the folded down backseat as her dad’s silhouette appeared in the doorway that led into their house. We managed to duck just in time to escape his attention.

We curled up on the flat surface in the back seat and laid there in the dim lighting of the garage contently looking at each other.

“My parents think I’m a lesbian,” she finally whispered to me.

I felt myself gasp as the dream came to a screeching halt.

I woke up going, “Whaaat the FUCK???”

Primarily because it felt so REAL. Like I had actually BEEN there with her, in that very place, at that very time, in that very moment. What I mean is that it felt a lot more like a memory than a dream.

Holy crap, I thought to myself. It was real? It was real, wasn’t it? Scarborough? We didn’t know each other back then. Not at all. How can this be real?

“It was another life on the same timeline,” Scarborough, my higher self explained.

WHAT???

I scrambled out of bed and immediately went to my computer and wrote to Ariel Deangelis:

Hey… got a question for you regarding the concept that we live all our lives at once vs. the one-life-at-a-time-but-not-necessarily-in chronological-order philosophy…

Since we can hop into any timeline… is it possible for us to hop into the SAME timeline and live the same lives over and over again, but switching things up to get different results? (Sort of like Butterfly Effect, but it being an entire lifetime rather than just several time jumps?)

I had this weird dream this morning that is prompting this question. Just wondering what you think.

Ariel’s response:

Yes… have you sensed this happening… you are not alone.

My reply:

So what IS this? Groundhog Day? We keep doing it over until we get it right?

Ariel’s response:

Yes, interesting isn’t it? [Arch Angel] Michael likened it to me the other day as us being at a point which we’re ALL going to Ascend – those of us who have chosen to, anyway… as you might have deduced, we’re not all exactly ready to do that… lots of unfinished business, both here and “there”… so, in effect, we have the “ability” (if you want to call it that) to hit “rewind,” go back (or forward – cuz even if you go back, you’re still moving forward) to a previous (and/or slightly different) “timeline” (or “point of experience”) which enables us to “have another go” at it… yeah, that’s a kind of a “Michael-y” sort of explanation, but nevertheless, pretty close to what we are experiencing now… so you see, we really DO have ALL of ETERNITY to get it “right” … the fun is just beginning…

WOW.

Okay, so there is Exhibit A. The dream. There were other dreams I had about that timeline, too, that I don’t want to get into because they involve the one with the negative energy who threw the “curse” on my father’s grandfather and how my twin-flame soul mate became entangled with her. At first, my thought was that life had already been lived out and that we failed our mission, so we are doing it over, but now as I write this, I realize we are probably living that exact same life RIGHT NOW and perhaps we have not failed… YET… or perhaps, even, THIS is the life in which we could either succeed or fail. Or maybe everything… every OTHER life being lived at this very moment that we are tapping into through dreams or “memories” is actually CONTINGENT upon THIS life, THIS now. WOW. No pressure or anything. I’m not saying I’m right about this, because there is still a LOT that doesn’t add up or make sense. And no, I am not on a mushroom trip or any other “trip,” for that matter.

After they remind me of the dream, my guides show me Exhibit B. The photo. A few months ago, my twin-flame soul mate sent me a photo of herself when she was probably in fifth or sixth grade. She sent me several, actually, from grade school. She looked boyish, and very, very cute in all of them. There was the one photo, from fifth or sixth grade (she couldn’t remember which) that kept coming back to me over and over again for days and weeks after she’d sent it. I felt a deep connection with that one photo for some reason. I told her my feelings about it. Her only response was: “Weird.”

Yeah. Weird. Now I feel that maybe that is when we made our first connection with each other in this other life we are living on that “slightly different timeline” as Ariel describes it. You see, in “this life,” my twin flame and I did not even meet until May 5, 2007, when we were both 36 years old. But I am now beginning to have strong feelings that we met much earlier on this other timeline I have been dreaming about. And, this may sound really weird, but I almost miss that life and find myself longing to go back to it, even though I am not at all familiar with it.

I’m standing at the dishwasher loading dirty plates as this feeling comes over me about the photo again… the same place I’ve been standing and same chore I have been doing when the photo connection feeling has come up several times over the past few months. So maybe the dishwasher is some kind of link? It’s possible. We DID have dishwashers way back then – when I was in grade school and middle school – believe it or not. Perhaps loading and unloading it was one of my chores at that time when I often found myself thinking about her? I suppose my Akashic Records could tell me.

Then my guides show me Exhibit C, that ornate tile décor I noticed in my dormitory building at 4 Charlesgate East in Boston, Massachusetts, when I was a freshman at Emerson College. I recognized it immediately and realized “I’ve been here before,” with utmost clarity and certainty. Then I frowned. “But I’ve NEVER been here before,” I reminded myself. I later told my friend Wil (yes the Emerson shuttle bus driver I had a crush on for years) about it.

I remember how he stared straight ahead and said to me, “You’ve been there before.”

It gave me goose bumps.

“Fuckin’ Wil the bus driver,” I chuckled to myself. That dude and my attraction to him was always such a mystery to me. But I realized this morning that he served a purpose far greater than I ever imagined until… well… this morning. He was the very first person I talked to about reincarnation who actually affirmed it. Holy crap. That was 24 years ago! Wil the bus driver is now 68 years old. Sorry. I digress. But you get the idea of how long it has taken to put these pieces together.

And Exhibit C reminds me of the fact that my twin-flame soul mate was out there, in Massachusetts, around the same time as me (on this timeline, in this life). When I was out doing yard work the other day, her higher self Ulron told me that he wanted SO badly for us to meet out there. He tried so HARD to nudge her to go to Boston.

“I would have found you,” he said. “And she would have talked to you. Just imagine what it would have been like…”

“Dude, I thought I was straight then,” I reminded him. “Nothing would have happened.”

That led me to wonder, though… about this slightly different timeline… did I go out to Boston to college in that timeline or not?

So many things to ask my Akashic Records! Here I go…

I had this dream about me and my twin-flame soul mate sitting in her car together talking when we were in our late teens or early twenties, but I did not know her at that time in this life. Scarborough says we have lived this life as the same people during the same time period before. How is this possible? What can you tell me about timelines and simultaneous lives?

Jen, this is Christopher, a loved one and member of the Ring of 500. I will attempt to answer this question for you as best I can, me being in spirit world and you being in 3D. I have been there before, myself, so I know how difficult it is to grasp this concept since your entire life and world is run by a clock and timelines other than the one in which you currently live are also incomprehensible.

First, let’s be clear: You, Jen Freer, have not lived ANY other lives other than the one you are currently living. Your higher self, however (the REAL you — Scarborough) has lived many. Or created many, I should say. Some will call these many lives (or characters, if you will) “fractals.” Or, as we say over here in spirit world: “experiments.”

Remember when you were younger and you played with your Barbie dolls and Adventure People? You created story lines for them, right? And, as a writer, when you write your fictitious stories, you do the same thing, don’t you? You create characters and story lines. Well, higher selves do the same thing. They are the creators, or the authors, so to speak. And, just as you may have three or four different story ideas, all with completely different characters living in completely different places during different time periods that are in varied states of completion, your higher self has a lot of the same kind of thing going on. Now remember, higher selves are Masters. They are able to be in several places all at once. They can have many fractals (lives) going on simultaneously. And, just as an author can pick any time period for which their story takes place, master higher selves can do the same thing.

Okay, Christopher, if I may interject? I would like to ask, then, why am I having memories or dreams of other lives my higher self has lived?

Because you are connected. You keep reading and hearing the phrase “we are all one.” And that is true. Because every higher self is a fractal of source energy (or GOD energy). Your higher self is trying to share with you your connection to her and all the other creations she has made. You are an extension of her, just as all these other storylines and characters are extensions of her.

What about the twin-flame soul mate?

Also an extension of her. The masculine energy. Okay, see, Ulron and Scarborough are a pair that were split from one fractal into two. And they, together, can decide if they are going to co-create or not. So, while they mostly DO co-create together, sometimes they do not. For you, Jen, they have co-created, meaning that you and the person you feel is your twin flame will come together on your timeline to clear up old energy and move into oneness together to create healing projects. The exact details of these creative projects are pretty much unwritten because Scarborough and Ulron want to leave the creativity up to the two of you, once your vibrations are equal and the two of you are once again in harmony.

Okay, so, if we are ONLY us, then why is it we are affected by other lives our higher selves have lived? Like, why are we purging LIFETIMES of “past traumas” and fears and other general suckiness?

Because we’re all one. Think about it. When you’re writing a story, are the characters in your story influenced by your own emotions?

Sometimes, yes. But not always. Because sometimes I am writing as an escape.

Ah. But, still, the characters are an extension of you. So, whatever you are feeling or have experienced or imagine, they are essentially going to experience, too, at some time or another within the storyline. Because YOU are the creator. Right?

Yes. But I thought higher selves were supposed to be Masters.

Yes. They are masters. But they are not necessarily fully ascended masters. Do you understand?

No. I thought Masters meant fully ascended.

No. Not necessarily. Just like those with a master’s degree from grad school don’t yet have their doctorates, you see? It’s much like that, OR, Karate. You cannot get the black belt until you have all the other colored belts first.

So it’s another hierarchical system?

If you want to see it that way. But this is more about energy – vibration and frequency – more than it is about rank and power and authority. In a way, you are like the “feeler” for your higher self. Your higher self experiences energy through you and gains knowledge and wisdom from your experiences much the same way you as an author learn from your own characters in your stories, right? Not to be crude, but it is almost like the scientists who put mice in a maze and move the cheese around and change up the patterns of the maze to see how the mouse will react and respond. But that is more beginner level stuff.

So what is the higher self hoping to gain from all of this?

Understanding. Wisdom. And, ultimately, ascension into a higher vibration.

For what, exactly?

The opportunity to explore the higher dimensions. One must achieve a higher vibration in order to access the higher dimensions.

So it IS like a video game?

In some ways, yes. But far more exciting and rewarding.

How so?

Because it’s the multiverse. It is infinite.

Okay, so, explain to me again why a fractal like myself has to feel the pain and suffering of other lives (fractals) being lived by my higher self.

Well, it did not used to be that way. Because levels of consciousness are higher now, more and more fractals are becoming aware of their connections. Unity consciousness is beginning to connect more and more of these fractals to their source energy and all of its other fractals. Everything is energy, my dear. You know that whole deal about E-motion being energy in motion? How no emotion is good or bad, it’s just energy? That is exactly true. And it is exactly why fractals are tapping into their higher selves and the other fractals being lived by your higher self. So, WERE you on the Titanic with your twin-flame soul mate when it went down? No. JEN was not. But Scarborough was. And Ulron was. And they are the REAL you. So you feel the energy and emotion attached to that incident. Or as much as your higher self feels it, anyway.

I do not feel as affected by it as much as my twin-flame soul mate does, but let me ask you a couple of questions about that, since you, Christopher, were the one who came through when we did her reading about the Titanic. You said she was an architect and a designer who worked on that ship, but she went to another psychic and asked him if that was true, and he said no, that she was some sort of crew member who reported the iceberg and was dismissed and then was the first to die in a wall of water. Why are we getting conflicting stories about this?

First, let me ask you this… did the psychic open her Akashic records?

I don’t think so, but I don’t know for sure. I don’t believe it was an Akashic reading. Just an intuitive reading as far as I know.

Did the psychic speak directly with her higher self, Ulron?

I don’t know. Is it possible Ulron created two fractals of himself who were on the ship at the same time?

It’s possible, but I cannot say without her records being open.

What do my records say?

Your records say only one fractal on the Titanic with Ulron’s fractal. But that doesn’t mean he did not have another fractal on that timeline or a slightly altered timeline.

How would you describe a “slightly altered timeline?”

Staggered. One that is slightly behind. A do-over timeline, basically. You know how things are always being revised? Consider it something like that. It’s usually a fail. If you remember the movie you mentioned earlier – Butterfly Effect – it’s a lot like that. You know how he keeps going back and trying to “fix” or “repair” the past to create a better or more ideal present for the girl he loves, but everything he does only seems to make matters worse? Yeah. It’s a lot like that. Again, like I said, it’s all experimental. Nothing is actually made better or worse… just different.

But, with the Titanic, the ship goes down and 1500 people die. And JP Morgan gets away with it all.

On your timeline it does, anyway.

What does that mean?

It means… what you perceive as reality isn’t necessarily so. It all depends on which timeline you are living.

So there is possibly a timeline where the Titanic doesn’t sink?

There are many timelines where the Titanic is a success.

Seriously?

It’s all about energy, my dear. Collective consciousness energy. Remember the Matrix? Which pill will you choose? Red or blue? Which pill did your higher self choose? You see, this is why not ALL higher selves are “ascended Masters.”

What if I want a different timeline?

Well, I am afraid that isn’t possible from your vantage point. Although everything CAN be changed collectively… through collective consciousness. Or you can always merge and become one with your higher self.

Okay, what about this other “slightly altered” timeline in which my twin-flame soul mate and I are living (or lived)? What can you tell me about that life? Where did we first meet? How old were we?

On that timeline, you met in grade school. You transferred in to her school in Elkhart, Indiana when your dad got a job on the police force there. You were about 10. You were both little tomboys, although you were the more feminine and she was the more masculine. You got along swimmingly from the get-go. Dirt bikes, skateboards, basketball, baseball, fishing. You actually lived pretty close to each other, near the river, so you had plenty of adventures together. Until you went your separate ways after high school. You went away to college. Boston. She stayed in Elkhart. You got married. She explored same-sex relationships.

Scarborough said we failed our mission in that life.

Yes. The third party – the girl with lupus – bailed.

Bailed?

Expired.

So what happens on that timeline, then?

It has already dissolved.

So is this the only timeline we have left to complete the mission?

Looks like it, yes.

Why did the other timeline dissolve? I mean, if only one person died?

Everyone eventually died, dear.

So it’s a past life, then? Not currently being lived simultaneously?

As I said before, timelines are staggered, so not every single fractal of your higher self is happening simultaneously. So, as your perception goes, from your current vantage point, yes, this could be considered a “past life,” since everyone on that timeline has expired.

So this life for us IS a “do over?”

You could consider it that, yes.

What happens if we fail in this one, too?

Why would you let that happen? You’re both consciously aware of why you’re here and what needs to happen. Your higher selves put you here in this particular timeline of heightened awareness so you would not fail.

Why is it so important that we “reverse the curse,” anyway? Can’t we just cancel the contracts?

Sure, you can cancel the contracts. But that doesn’t clean up the mess. That’s just calling quitting time before the job is done, you see. And it is important to fulfill the contract because your father’s grandfather’s family is a direct descendent bloodline of Sarah (higher self Scarborough), the daughter of Jesus and her twin-flame soul mate Luke. And Jesus likes to keep a tidy bloodline, you see. Not to mention that this dark energy has affected a LOT of people. Not just the families, but everyone the descendents of these two families come in contact with on a daily basis. All in all, that is a LOT of people.

Well, I feel like there is nothing I can do. I did the best I could, and it wasn’t good enough. What more can I do?

You’ve done all you can. The rest is up to the other two parties of the contract. Send love and light and keep the faith. The truth is out, and it is accessible. Other parties willing to lend their light and positive energy to the situation are welcome to assist at any time, should they find it in their hearts to do so. You did not fail. And this is far from over. Stay positive. Raise your vibration in faith and love. You have a good number of angels and ascended masters on your side.

I already know what they will say. They will say this is my ego talking, and that I am just trying to manipulate the situation to my favor.

What does Grandpa James always tell you? Hearts don’t change. Only minds change. Hearts stay true. Forever.Your heart is true. Your love is unconditional. It always has been. That is why you were chosen.

Thank you, Christopher.

Chosen. That is a word I heard a lot as a kid. In my head, when I was riding my bike alone or wandering through the woods. A gentle man’s voice told me over and over: “You are a golden child, Jen. A chosen one.” I do believe I asked my mom once what it meant to be a “chosen one.” Her answer sounded like a lot of pressure. I just wanted to play and be carefree. Needless to say, I ignored those messages as I moved into middle school and blocked out the voice. No wonder it is taking so long to put all the jigsaw pieces back together. If I had only listened…

But that is what free will does for us. Our egos want all this independence. Ego says: This is MY life! I’ll do as I please!

And, of course, ego never wants us to believe anything good about ourselves. No wonder our higher selves have to create so many fractals. So very few are willing to listen to them.

So now we know. We have a choice. We can follow the guidance of our higher selves, stick to our contracts, and ascend with them. Or we can be another junk fractal that didn’t work out. A used bingo card. An experiment. Or a failure requiring a “do over.”

Which will YOU choose?

My Akashic Journey – Chapter Six – The Unexpected One

March 15, 2013FreerSpirit Akash, Akashic Reading, Akashic Records, Collective Consciousness, My Akashic Journey, Reincarnation, Spiritual, Spirituality, Twin Flame Soul Mates, Unity Consciousness Tags: Akashic Records, Ariel DeAngelis, ascension, collective consciousness, DaVinci Code, Freer Spirit, freerspirit, freerspirit.com, Gnostic Gospel of Thomas, Jen Freer, Jesus Christ, John Smallman, Lost Gospel of Thomas, Luke, Mary Magdalene, My Akashic Journey, Resurrection, Rosslyn Chapel, Sarah, The Keepers, twin flame soul mates, Twin Flames, Twin-flame soulmates, Unity Consciousness 15 Comments

Not to be pious or anything, but I’m going to open this chapter with a quote. No, it’s not a Biblical quote, but as informal as my work has been up until now, this might feel a little… awkward. It came across my screen while I was pondering exactly how I was going to lay this out for you all, (and worrying about the ramifications) and it just felt like it was a bit of encouragement. So here it is…

“One of the most important of life´s lessons is to learn independence, to understand freedom. This means independence from attachments, from results, from opinions, and from expectations. Breaking attachments leads to freedom, but breaking attachments does not mean abandoning a loving and meaningful relationship, a relationship that nourishes your soul. It means ending dependency on any person or thing. Love is never a dependency.” ~ Brian L. Weiss

Breaking this down, the very first thing that stuck out as a message for me personally is the bit that says:

“This means independence from attachments, from results, from opinions, and from expectations.”

The first person I shared my 2006 DaVinci Code experience with was Ariel DeAngelis. I shared it with her on January 10^th, 2013. Seven years later. Yes, for seven years I kept a secret about myself. I know that is hard to believe. Probably because it is still hard for me to believe, even thought I KNOW it to be true. This is a perfect example of the mind/ego ruling the heart and denying truth. We do this all the time, don’t we?

I can tell you right now why I never told a soul. Because NO ONE would believe me. Ever. And I figured if I told anyone, I’d find myself locked up in a padded cell for life. No need to sacrifice my “freedom” for truth. But this quote here reminded me that freedom is independence from results and opinions.

Now part of me is still wondering why it is even necessary to divulge this information. In service to self, it is small. There is nothing to gain from it personally. In service to others, it is huge. If only I could prove it, this information would free a LOT of people from the deception the church has held over them for the past 2013 years. (I don’t know why I was just prompted to write 2016, but I corrected it to 2013. I’m sure there is a reason.) If they wanted a reason to NOT believe anymore, that is. And that is where the rest of this quote really becomes powerful in persuading me to tell my truth…

“Breaking attachments leads to freedom, but breaking attachments does not mean abandoning a loving and meaningful relationship, a relationship that nourishes your soul. It means ending dependency on any person or thing. Love is never a dependency.”

This has SO MANY meanings, without a doubt. It is completely open for interpretation. But, because it rolled out in front of me on the screen of my laptop WHILE I was contemplating how… and why I should come out with this information, this is how I interpreted this particular message for myself…

So many people are attached to their religion. To the doctrine and the rhetoric of their religion. SO MANY people believe that Christ died for their sins. And that he resurrected. These people had a FIT when DaVinci Code came out and suggested that Christ was (ermagerd!!!) MARRIED and that his WIFE Mary Magdalene had a baby girl named Sarah. (Blasphemous!!!)

Is it, though? We can all agree that Jesus was born into Jewish culture, correct? And, in Jewish culture, it is pretty common for a man to have a wife (and sexual intercourse) and child, correct?

I’m not so sure why it is so unfathomable to some Christians that Jesus Christ possibly had sex with a woman he was married to and produced offspring, but it is perfectly okay to believe that he ran around in a robe and sandals with a bunch of dudes who professed their love for him, healed a blind man, walked on water and turned water into wine. Seriously???

Okay, it’s 2013… can we be a tiny bit realistic about this for once? Does having a wife really make Jesus less magical? Does it make him less likely to have been such a great teacher or prophet? What if he never really walked on water? Or turned water into wine? Or, how about this… what if he never resurrected? What if… he never even died on that cross? Does that negate the lessons he tried to teach us wayyyyy back then?

Isn’t it the message that’s important? That we’re ALL ONE? That we should love our neighbor and not judge others?

Ohh… THAT was the message?

You see, so many people are ATTACHED to the MAGIC and the GLORY. Especially the bit about him coming back to life for three days before ascending. Hmm. Really?

I was sort of digging the message much more. But, then again, most people remember Ozzy Osbourne more for biting the head off of a bat on stage than the lyrics to his music. Did he have anything profound to say? You see, I just don’t know, because the bat-beheading-with-teeth bit just turned me off so much I never bothered to listen. Now the guy is pretty much impossible to understand, anyway, so it just seems pointless to pay him any attention. And that’s probably not fair, given that it is an attachment opinion that I have to Ozzy, who I’m sure must be a decent guy if he could hook a woman as wonderful as Sharon. Just sayin’. Plus he has millions of fans who adore him. (In all fairness, the bat was thrown onstage by a fan who insisted it was dead. Ozzy thought it was a rubber bat, but when he bit it, the bat bit back, and Ozzy had to be treated for rabies. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ozzy_Osbourne.)

So where am I going with all of this? Well, it has a bit to do with service to others, although I don’t really know exactly how reliable my information can possibly be given that I am currently incarnate as a simple spiritualist with absolutely zero credibility in the religious and even spiritualist sector. I read Akashic Records for people. Sometimes I am dead-on accurate. Other times… maybe not so much. I humbly channel the wisdom of a Pleiadian being who calls himself Peter on occasion. Although I have been told by my Akashic Records that my purpose in this life is to reunite with my twin-flame soul mate and become post 2012 healers through “the vision plus the word,” and that the work I will be most known for is “Unity Consciousness,” I still have no real concept for what it all means. I can’t even successfully reunite with my twin-flame soul mate, so… obviously there is still a LOT of work to be done. And I don’t even know where to begin. It feels like it is all out of my hands. Everything is. I have no job. No income, other than unemployment benefits which are due to decrease soon and eventually run out. I can’t pay my mortgage this month. I know I can OPPT in to OPPT out of that, but it still feels like a bit of a tightrope walk. I keep saying out loud several times a day, “I don’t know what to do.”

All this time on my hands with nowhere to go and hardly anyone to talk to has forced me to remember who I am. To rewind and replay all the memories that led up to the DaVinci Code moment in 2006 that may help some people detach from the deceptive power and control the “church” has had over them all their lives. (And I say “lives” meaning more than ONE, although I know many Christians do not believe in reincarnation. Most believe they live only once and then go to either Heaven or Hell based on how well they allowed the church to control them and shake out every loose bit of change they had tucked away before they died.)

I feel like the little drummer boy. With no gift fit for a king, all he could offer was the beat of his drum to honor the baby Jesus. Well, to honor Jesus, the man and the teacher, and all of his TRUE followers who offer love and compassion and service to others WITHOUT tithing to ANY church, I offer my truth.

Notice I did not say STORY. Because STORY would imply FICTION. This is NOT fiction. This is the truth. And I offer it without any attachment to results or the opinions of others. I do this out of love. Love for the man and teacher who tried to tell us so many years ago that God/Source is not found in a church… that God is everywhere, in everything: “I am the light that shines over all things. I am everything. From me all came forth, and to me all return. Split a piece of wood, and I am there. Lift a stone, and you will find me there.” (Lost Gospel of Thomas.) And I do this out of love for myself, so that I can be free and independent from attachment. For it is true that love is not attachment. Love is a vibration. And the only way we can raise our vibrations is to free ourselves by sharing our truth and love through service to others. I tell this truth so that you, too, can be free from all of the deception and power and control of the very religions that took the teachings of Jesus Christ and twisted them into a reversal that had you believing the opposite of what he taught in order to gain profit for themselves and their cults.

Rewind.

November 2006. DaVinci Code had just been released on DVD. At the time, I was living with my life partner of six years, a United Church of Christ pastor who had taught me more about religion, the Bible and Christianity than I ever cared to know.

I grew up unchurched. No one taught me anything about God or Jesus. I started reading Genesis in our family Bible at the age of eight. After reading three different creation stories I told my mom, “This book is too contradictory! I’m done reading this crap!”

Why I even picked it up to read it is beyond me. Maybe it was because a long-haired bearded man kept appearing to me when I was exploring the woods alone. I never told anyone about him because he was kind of huge and floated up near the tree tops and no one would believe me.

Anyway… DaVinci Code. Yeah. The book had caused a major uproar all across the country. My life-partner hosted a book study on it at our church, but those things always turned out to be a bunch of drama if I attended because I had some very stiff opinions about “The Bible” that I was not afraid to voice, and I always ended up getting lambasted for my “comments.” So, needless to say, I declined the invitation to attend. I also refused to read the book. We had already watched every docudrama produced about it. I really didn’t need to waste time reading it. So, when the life-partner brought home the DVD and asked if I would watch it with her I yawned and said “sure.” I could always accidentally fall asleep.

Surprisingly, that didn’t happen. Even more surprisingly, as the story came to a close at the Rosslyn Chapel in Scotland, I felt the presence of an enormous energy in the room. My own “keepers” had entered my space with a message delivered by a warm, gentle man’s voice who told me “Yes, Jesus really did have a wife named Mary Magdalene, and yes, they really had a baby named Sarah. And YOU were that baby, Jennifer.”

But, before he even said it, I already knew it. And, as quickly as I knew it, I shoved it all away and denied it. “That’s a bunch of shit,” I found myself telepathically telling this huge, loving energy that had entered my living room.

And I never thought about it again. Until 2008, when I watched the movie with my friend Alex. Again, I got the same feeling, although the energy present was nowhere near as enormous. It was just a “friendly reminder” presence. To which I just simply said, “No!”

Fast Forward.

I never thought about it again until January 10, 2013 when it popped up out of the blue as a possible topic to take up telepathically with Ariel DeAngelis. But I didn’t. Instead, I wrote to her about it. And, like I said before, she is the first person I ever told. Her response to me was:

“Well, Sarah 😉 (in case you hadn’t guessed I’m getting a VERY strong affirmative on that one too!!)”

After reading this, I felt as if my heart had leaped right out of my chest, I was so overjoyed with the affirmation. I felt a tremendous upsurge of energy that felt like I could almost fly. And then there was this enormous presence in the room. I mean, huger than huge. The largest, warmest, most loving presence I have ever felt in my entire life. My dogs began stirring and whining to go outside, so I got up from the couch and walked through the dark kitchen. The overhead lights and countertop outlets had mysteriously stopped working and had been dead for at least two weeks. My tenant John and I had checked all the breakers and reset every single one – three times – in effort to restore power, but to no avail. As I was walking through, I flipped the overhead switch out of habit, AND… the lights mysteriously came ON for the first time in two weeks. I was startled at first, and then elated. And then it came… as predictable and cliché as ever… the familiar male voice from my childhood woods stomping grounds… “Let there be light!” and then a warm chuckle.

I laughed. And laughed. And laughed some more. What else can you do in a moment like this? Okay, maybe I cried, too. A little. His energy was like nothing I have ever felt before in my life. It’s indescribable. It’s like being swaddled in the warmest, softest blanket imaginable and gently and lovingly rocked into your deepest relaxed state before sleep. Not that you’d want to sleep, of course, because his energy is just too cheerful and charming to snooze through.

We had a nice father/daughter chat. I asked him many, many questions. One of my most favorite things about him is his sense of humor. Yes. Jesus has an amazing sense of humor! I bet you didn’t know that. I bet you never even DREAMED that. Neither did I. Of course, I am sure that with me he feels he can be far more candid than he can with someone like John Smallman. Which was one of my questions.

“Are you really talking to Smallman?”

“Yes, dear. I am.”

Good. So there you go. Naysayers begone.

One of my favorite things that he said to me was, “So… how did you like me when I was John Lennon?”

I KNEW IT!!!

My other favorite was when I asked, “Soo… should I call you dad?”

“Nah. Too stuffy. How about Jesus Daddy-O? Far more hip, dontcha think?”

So Jesus Daddy-O it is. But that is just between me and him. I really probably shouldn’t be sharing this, but… after 2013 (16?) years… it’s about time you knew that he DOES have a lighter side.

Now, unless instructed, I am NOT going to start channeling Jesus. That is John Smallman’s gig. I am also not going to answer questions about Jesus. Or ask him questions for you. This is not why I am sharing any of this with you. I am sharing this simply to allow people to free themselves from the deception of the church.

I asked him if he died on the cross. He said no, he did not. I asked him if he was ever ON a cross. Again, NO, he was never nailed to a cross. He was exiled and moved with Mary Magdalene and a number of others (disciples – more than just the 12) to France where he lived another 30 years and died in his late 60s of natural causes. This is as detailed as I am going to get with this. That is all I feel (at this time) anyone needs to know.

I just asked him if there is anything he wants to say to the people in his own words in this chapter. He said no. I asked him if he wants people to be free from the church. He said yes. And I do believe that is the only message I am here to carry out, other than whatever it is I am supposed to do in the future with my post-2012 healing work with my twin-flame soul mate and Unity Consciousness. When I figure it out, hopefully with the help of my higher guidance, I will let you all know.

Until then, I wish all of you joy, love, freedom and independence from attachment!

As promised, here is my Akashic Reading on this subject:

In 2006, while watching the movie DaVinci Code, I felt a presence of several friendly beings fill the room. I was told that it is true that Jesus and Mary Magdalene were married and had a baby named Sarah and that I (my higher self) was that baby. What can you tell me about this?

Welcome, brave soul. We applaud and admire your courage. We thought this day would never come, but we are very happy that it has. Yes, it is true that Jesus and Mary Magdalene were married and that your higher self (soul/light being) incarnated as their daughter, Sarah. You grew up in France, surrounded by very highly spiritual people under very loving influences. It was a happy life, although very sheltered. Jesus had been exiled for his teachings, and there were some who truly did want to kill him. So you lived a very quiet life in France. As you grew older, Luke, your twin-flame soul mate (yes, the one in the Bible who wrote the letters to Paul) made you his wife, and you had two children. The history books tell many different tales about Luke, and, as you can research for yourself, the details are all over the map. He was an artist and a disciple (follower) and apostle (teacher) of Jesus, even though history writes him as an apostle of Paul. It’s all far more simple than “history” makes it out to be, you see. Yes, you had a sort of commune-type living in France, but for good reason. It was more about lying low for survival’s sake, but it was pleasant and serene.

I feel part of my purpose in this life is to share this truth – that Jesus and Mary Magdalene WERE married and did have a child and that Jesus was never crucified on the cross. I know this will cause me a great deal of trouble and more grief than I have already experienced, but I feel it is important to share this truth to help free those who have been taken advantage of by the church for so many centuries. I don’t wish to cause trouble. Only to help heal. How can I do this with the least amount of harm and harassment to myself?

You’re doing it. You’ve written your truth. Now you publish it, and you move on. The next big thing is around the corner. (Word count at the end of this sentence: 3,333.)

My Akashic Journey – Chapter Five – Kicking and Screaming

March 14, 2013March 30, 2015FreerSpirit Akash, Akashic Reading, Akashic Records, My Akashic Journey, Pleaidians, Relationships, Spiritual, Spirituality, Star Family, Twin Flame Soul Mates Tags: Akashic Readings, Akashic Records, Ariel DeAngelis, DaVinci Code, freerspirit, Jen Freer, My Akashic Journey, Pleaidians, Pleiadian Ring of 500, twin flame reuniting, twin-flame reunion, twin-flame runner, Twin-flame soulmates 2 Comments

A Reunion Broken.

So last summer my dream came true; I reunited with my twin-flame (sacred-union) soul mate. We enjoyed a blissful few months together. She proposed to me on the beach in front of a circle of our closest Pleiadian friends currently incarnate with us from the Pleiadian Ring of 500 the night before my birthday. What I thought was a birthday cake was actually a proposal. Written on the cake in orange (my favorite color) lettering was the question: “Will you marry me?”

Of course I said yes. We had a beautiful evening with music, fireworks, dancing and late-night dipping in Lake Michigan. It was the best night of my life, to be with the one I love with all of my heart and soul and all of our closest, dearest friends and Pleiadian family members. It was also the best birthday of my life, as she agreed to move in with me. We had a wonderful two months of bliss, but then, of course, fear set in and my twin-flame ran again.

My Akashic Records and other sources say that we will reunite again one day. I trust this is true because no matter how hard I try to move on without her, nothing works. Even if I want it to. I met someone recently I was pretty excited to spend the rest of my life with, but, no sooner than I got my hopes up, I received a barrage of text messages from HER fiancé. Yeah. Nice.

Doom and Gloom.

I see that I am doomed to sit in misery while I continue to WAIT, stalled out in this ridiculous holding pattern because someone is too scared to be happy. Some days, I honestly would rather slit my throat to end this nightmare. I never really even wanted to be here in the first place. I’m sure this is true because I constantly have this feeling that I was dragged into this life. Or pushed. Or coerced. That is just how it feels. NOTHING is ever enjoyable for me. Even when I am happy, it can only be for a few minutes at a time because someone is ALWAYS fucking it up for me. Yeah, I said it! The F-word. Come on, you know this would not be a true heart-felt chapter of my journey without it!

So, I could go on and on here and tell you how it’s all bullshit – this theory or philosophy that “love heals everything” and that twin flames or sacred-union soul mates don’t ever really reunite in harmonious bliss (that we’re just here to push each other’s buttons and make each other LEARN, LEARN, LEARN all the difficult lessons in life.) Okay, that’s crap, too. Well, maybe it’s not. Maybe it’s true. But what I mean by “that’s crap” is that it is the stupidest fucking shit EVER.

Yeah, it WOULD be nice if we could all just LOVE each other and get along. It WOULD be nice if on December 21, 2012 all of our egos had dove to their deaths like suicidal lemmings so it COULD be possible to truly love without fear or doubt. But that didn’t happen, did it? Nope. Ego’s still here. Alive and kickin’ like a tenacious wild stallion. Annnd it still sucks. Big time.

As you can tell, I am having some major issues that I am wrestling with. And it is more than just losing my twin flame (AGAIN). I also lost my job. Which, at first, I thought was a blessing in disguise because I thought I could finally do Akashic Readings for a living, but, as things continued to get worse with my twin flame and the county kept threatening to take my house from me, I really lost faith. I mean… BAD.

YES, I am depressed. YES, I am a suicidal lemming in search of a nice, tall cliff with lots of jagged rocks and a pounding sea below. NO, I DON’T FUCKING CARE WHAT THE GOD DAMN LESSON IS IN THIS. FUCK IT!!! FUCK EVERYTHING. Let me GO HOME. NOW!!!!!

Sound familiar? I bet it does. I KNOW it does. I have had PLENTY of talks with people feeling exactly the same way I do. LOTS of people are feeling suicidal, believe it or not. Worthless. Hopeless. And helpless.

But, oddly enough, there is this inner calm in the middle of the storm. All of these thoughts raging, swirling, spiraling, and desperately trying to pull me (us?) downward into the deep, dark abyss of nothingness. But it fails every time because there is this deep inner peace with it all. What IS that? It’s… it’s like… do you remember those turtle floats we had as kids? Those dense expanded foam turtle shells they used to strap around our chests that stayed on our backs to help keep us afloat as we learned to swim? Yeah. It’s like one of those. Right in the center of my chest. And its message is perfectly clear:

Cry and whine all you want. Kick and scream, even. We’re NOT going down.

Faith Restored.

Somewhere in the middle of all of this, back in early January of 2013, I sought solace in my friend Ariel DeAngelis, who I consider to be a twin-flame expert. I told her how losing my twin flame again had made me second guess myself. My abilities as an Akashic Reader, actually. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I just made the whole thing up? If not, then why did we split again?

I know what most of you are thinking. Why didn’t I just ask my Akashic Records? Well, as I just said, I was afraid I was just plain wrong. That I had made it all up in my head. And that the concept of twin-flame soul mates is just bunk.

Well, of course Ariel had a lot of great answers and even some intuitive information about my twin flame that was pretty dead-on accurate despite the fact that she has never met either of us in person, nor does she know my twin flame at all, not even by a social networking connection. So she made me feel somewhat better with the old, “as twin flame soul mates, we’re always together, even when we’re NOT together.” Yep. Whether we like it or not. And I say that because I am really just tired of the ego bullshit that sends us meandering down the wayward idiot paths only to wind up back where we belong… TOGETHER. Being the higher spiritual (and extremely impatient) half, I honestly don’t see the “need” to be apart. BUT (I admit I DID ask my Akashic Records when she moved out WHY this was happening) the records revealed that my twin flame’s higher self had requested one last separation before oneness so he could better appreciate coming into oneness. I, of course, told him he’s an ass, and he had just better hurry up with that nonsense. (We really do make a phenomenal pair… WHEN we’re TOGETHER.)

Love is patient. Love is kind. What a bunch of bullshit! Get your scaredy-cat ass on this train. NOW!!!

Okay, you all get my drift. I’m SUPER impatient. EXTREMELY. Not to mention that I am just completely BORED with fear and its ill-effects on society in general and as a whole. Fear is stupid. It makes you think stupid things that manifest into crazy shit far worse than the Stay-Puft Marshmallow Man. Did we seriously NOT learn ANYTHING from Ghostbusters? And why can we still not comprehend that worrying is like praying for what we DON’T want? CRIMINY!!!

Okay, done ranting. For a minute. Long enough to tell you what a genius Ariel DeAngelis truly is. When I thanked her for her comforting perspective, she told me to feel free to contact her any time. Even “the other way,” if I wished. I said that would be interesting, for certain. So she said, “let’s try it!” So we ran an experiment. I said I would telepathically contact her sometime that afternoon, but would not tell her what time, exactly. I would have a mental conversation with her, and then, later that evening, I would contact her and ask her what we talked about. She agreed to my terms and conditions.

Not to get all Mark Twain or anything, but I must digress for a moment, because this is what I do. Try to follow. I bundled up the Chihuahuas and took them for a nice, long, 90-minute power walk down to the golf course, around the 13^th hole and back. It was on the way back that a random memory from 2006 popped into my head. Yes. 2006. I know. Just follow. It’s really significant to My Akashic Journey – Chapter Six – The Unexpected One. But it all started here. In this moment. On this walk before my telepathic conversation with Ariel DeAngelis. I don’t know WHY it came to me at that very moment that I was power walking the very steep winding hill on my way home, but it occurred to me that I needed to ask Ariel about the super weird thing that happened to me while watching DaVinci Code. I had not even thought about it since 2008 when I saw DaVinci Code the second time. But there it was, popping into my head, random as an ADHD Gen Y comedian. Stay tuned.

So when I got home, I sat on my exercise ball and began stretching. It was about 1:30ish. While stretching, I contacted Peter. You know, the Pleaidian being I sometimes channel. I said, “Hey, Peter, I am supposed to have a telepathic conversation with Ariel DeAngelis this afternoon. Let’s surprise her with a three-way call!”

Of course Peter was all for that! So we patched Ariel in and had a little conference call that was pretty lighthearted and full of laughter. After Peter “hung up,” Ariel and I continued our conversation with a topic she told me to ask her about. I won’t get into the details here, as that is all private and whatnot, but I will say that the details were… very detailed. And no, it wasn’t about Arch Angel Michael.

While we were talking, I got up to make lunch, so there were a couple of lulls in the conversation as I concentrated on cooking instructions and timing and whatnot. Yeah, I’m lame. I read the directions and follow them. Anyway, what I found interesting is that when our conversation was over and my lunch was finished, I wrote to Ariel and said, “Okay. What did we talk about?” she had the time of the conversation (between 1:30 and 2:00 PM EST) accurate as well as the two lulls in conversation I just described. Although she did not recall talking with Peter, she did remember the gusto with which our conversation began, and she also told me our three different topics exactly. Then she asked me, “Okay, so what did YOU hear ME say?”

I wrote her back with the very detailed details and she. was. FLOORED.

“Wow,” she told me. “You are the REAL DEAL.”

Of course, she never had a doubt.

And then she said, “If I don’t doubt you, then why do YOU doubt you?”

That was a very good question, indeed.

And that brought me the courage to share with her that memory I mentioned from 2006. Something I refused to accept about myself that I knew in my heart was true for a very long time. It was a knowing I believe I was born with, but never, EVER shared with anyone. It was the kind of knowing that is so certain that when this bit of craziness was sprung upon me in 2006 while watching DaVinci Code, I was not even surprised by it. But there was no way in hell I was going to accept it. Or admit it, for that matter. Stay tuned. I am about to open my Akashic Records and ask about it. ALL of it. And I guarantee you that the information I receive will knot up a bunch of Christian panties into an excruciatingly uncomfortable wad. Not that it’s my intention to do so. Like I said… I never wanted to know this information, let alone share it. Primarily because I know I will be attacked, damned to hell and shamed for it. But I figure, hey, my life already sucks. I might as well tell the truth since that is what I came here to do. Kicking and screaming.

My Akashic Journey – Chapter Two – The Family Feud

December 26, 2011January 11, 2012FreerSpirit Akashic Records, Karma, Metaphysical, My Akashic Journey, Reincarnation Tags: Akashic Records, curses, duality, hexes, My Akashic Journey, polarity, spells, spirituality, twin flame soul mates 3 Comments

Awakening to purpose

I quickly discovered that opening the spiritual door is like opening a dam. Holy shit! Talk about a floodgate of information. I’ve always had a very strong sense of clairaudience, which Merriam-Webster defines as: the power or faculty of hearing something not present to the ear but regarded as having objective reality.

I’ve been hearing spirits, guides, angels, etc., all my life. Kind of creepy at times, but I’m used to it these days, and I’ve learned it’s usually just a spirit asking for acknowledgment or help. Sometimes I acknowledge them. Sometimes I don’t. It all depends on their attitude. If they are dark or negative, I burn a little white copal, and call in Archangel Michael to assist. If it’s something I feel I can handle on my own, I engage in conversation. After all, it’s what I’m here to do, and I accept that now, with a sense of duty.

Despite being used to “hearing the call,” so to speak, I was still surprised on January 20, 2010, when the Akashic Records summoned ME.

Hearing the call

It was a day like too many before it. I woke sometime around 9 AM, and leisurely surfed the ‘net while I sipped my morning coffee until I was motivated to make myself breakfast. Ah, the life of being unemployed. While standing at the kitchen sink, a thought crossed my mind about the hometown of my twin flame’s new girlfriend. It was the same as my father’s, and most people usually claimed the closest larger city as their hometown rather than this tiny little burg. It made me wonder…and as soon as I started to, I heard the clippity-clop of horseshoes and the rattle of the antique wheels of a horse-drawn wagon. Black and white images of a pre-automobile era flooded my minds eye. What the — ?

“Open your records, and we will fill you in,” a familiar voice of the Akashic Records said.

Wow, I thought. They don’t mess around!

Disclaimer

I could go on and on here about my beliefs and doubts regarding spells and curses and black magic to try to save face and credibility and all that, but, you know what? After years of being made fun of and laughed at…I really don’t give a fuck what anyone thinks of me anymore. I’ve experienced enough darkness in my life to know that negative energy DOES exist, and whether it was created by a spell, hex, curse, or powerful ill wishing doesn’t matter. The simple truth is that we are ALL made up of both light and dark energy. We may gravitate toward one or the other from life to life, depending on the circumstances and our soul contracts before we incarnated. It’s almost like choosing your character before starting one of those quest games — whether it’s a video or board game, they’re all kind of similar. You choose your characteristics — strengths, weaknesses, powers — and you play a role. And, once you’re in the game…shit happens, right? So let’s just look at it that way.

We all know that the current era we’ve been living in is one of polarity. Duality. Light versus dark. And some may even say positive versus negative. Fine. There are others out there who say there is neither good nor bad, only light or dark, love or fear. That’s a nice, neutral way of looking at it. If you can stay neutral in the density of duality, that is. Most of us living in the 3D world find this difficult. We want to take sides. Let me say this right now: I’m not asking you to. I am simply sharing the information provided to me by my Akashic records regarding these two families my soul group and I came here to assist. Not so much to save the families from the darkness that plagues them, but more so to clean up the negative energy emanating from them that is polluting the planet. There are huge crews of lightworkers here on Earth at the moment who have committed to do just that — transmute dark energy to light. The key point to remember here is that no one is going to do it for us. WE have to remember who we are, why we’re here, and follow through in cleaning up the manmade messes we promised, as light beings, to purify so that we can move into the new era all shiny and squeaky clean.

Okay, hopping off my soapbox now. On with My Akashic Journey…

Forgive them; they know not what they do

Here is how the reading began (I have replaced the name of the actual black magic family with “spell casters” and the name of my twin flame with “twin flame”)…

Akashic Records journal entry date: January 20, 2010

Okay, so you have summoned me to open my records today. Can you please tell me why?

There is nothing to fear. You are a seeker of truth. We know you can handle this, as you have always KNOWN the truth. Yes, the Freer side of your family has been under a curse. A curse that goes back to your great grandfather on the Freer side of the family. Your mother mentioned this curse to your empath coach Michael.

[Author’s note: In the summer of 2009, I began working with an empath coach. Before our sessions he would go into deep trance to access information about what energies I needed to clear. In one particular session, he surprised me by saying that my mother (in spirit at the time) contacted him and told him about this dark, negative energy that had plagued my father’s side of the family for generations and caused great depression among all the descendants of that particular couple. It was unknown, at that time, where the energy originated, but Michael said it was through no fault of their own.]

The Freer family had great pride in themselves. The spell-caster family did not. They go back with roots and ties in and around your father’s hometown. This is a Pagan/Christian war, yes. But it’s deeper than that. There was conflict between the two families. The great grandfathers. Over land and horses. The Freers spit on the spell casters for their refusal to believe in God. The spell casters did not believe in God. They believed in witchcraft. The dark kind. How do you think they got their name? This is why we told you that your twin flame’s girlfriend was dark. She comes from a long line of darkness. Black magic. Your twin flame is in danger.

How do I help her?

You can’t. This is NOT YOUR FIGHT. This is your twin flame’s fight.

You will win because you believe in God, a higher power, and the light. You are OF the light. You have battled your family curse and won. You have broken the spell against you cast by the dark family through the help of Michael. Be grateful for Michael. He DID help you. He will continue to help you by holding you in prayer.

A psychic friend recently told me “Things are not as they seem regarding your beliefs.” What did that mean, exactly?

It meant that she doesn’t know anything about you. You were shielded by the light so she could not look inside. You are a tough one for psychics to read because you are so guarded. By royalty. AS royalty. Light royalty. A long line of lightworker descendants. Your Uncle Clare, he recognized himself as a lightworker. He was the only one who got close to breaking the spell. He recognized it in you, too. Your Uncle Jim saw it, too, at your mom’s funeral. The ones in the Freer family who mock are still afflicted by the curse and the darkness.

So what does ANY of this have to do with my twin flame being with this spell-caster descendant? I mean, if the curse was broken…why would my twin flame get into a relationship with her?

This is Universal Karmic payback to the spell-caster family.

Something doesn’t feel right about this.

The records are open, and this is truth.

Why am I feeling discomfort in my heart chakra?

It’s a lot to take in. That is why we are trying to simplify it; to avoid the massive discomfort information like this can sometimes create. It is never fun to learn of family disputes, feuds, wars, and curses. There is some residual negativity floating around — hooks in your aura from the pain the curse has caused and also the pain of your twin flame being with the dark one. For now. It’s not forever; it will only last as long as your twin flame allows darkness to overcome her.

Does my twin flame’s girlfriend know about this feud/”curse?”

No. It died with her great grandmother. The spell casters were younger than your great grandparents. A foolish young couple playing with witchcraft fire. They did not understand how their actions would affect generations of descendants with this powerful curse. You’ve known about the curse for quite some time now. You joked, but deep down, you knew it was true. The spell casters hold a powerful dark energy. Freers were of the light, but shrouded in darkness until now. Your willingness to be born into and fight for this family has brought great light. First you fought the battle withIN the family. Then you fought the battle AGAINST the family — with the help of your mother and Michael. Saint Paul. Look him up. He once was on the dark side and moved to the light. Saint Paul is not a reference to your brother — it’s you. You moved the family from the dark to the light by lifting the curse. With the assistance of your mom and Michael. You’re a lightworker soul who accepted this challenge for the greater good. Not just for your own soul, but for the family. This is why you are light royalty. You will be rewarded for it — after Karmic Justice is served.

Your twin flame accepted this challenge, too, because she, too, is a lightworker soul. She knows her assignment, and it is a safe one for her to complete now that the Karmic energy has been released. She will not incur Karmic debt.

This could have been accomplished as early as January of 2000 — ten years ago [when Archangel Zadkiel said Karma had been lifted from the planet].

There was still too much residual Karma floating around. It wasn’t safe or wise at the time.

So will my twin flame hurt the spell-caster descendant?

No. She will learn her last lesson FROM the spell-caster descendant.

I guess I don’t understand how that will serve Karmic Justice. Can you explain it to me?

All souls are working together to push each other closer to the light. The spell-caster family owes you. The spell-caster descendant will teach your twin flame her last lesson that will send her home to you. Remember, this is not your fight. Just hold the light.

Wrestling with the dark

As you can see, it’s been nearly a year since that reading. While I’ve been trying my damnedest to “just hold the light,” it hasn’t been easy. Not in this dense, 3D environment where it seems darkness is growing ever more vicious as we lightworkers wrestle in vain to illuminate the planet with love and light through forgiveness, prayer, faith, hope and optimistic affirmations.

Many times I have felt like just giving up. My twin flame is still stuck in her patterns, and I cannot break through due to the rule that I am not allowed to contact her. It feels much like being bound and gagged while I watch her being tortured. I am powerless, and I often wonder, WHY did I choose this? I came here with a Karmic balance of zero. No debt at all. She came with a heavy load. I did not have to incarnate, but we chose to do this thing together, to allow her the chance to pay her Karmic debts and to assist in the cleansing of the planet and reuniting our twin-flame soul-mate energy to help raise the vibrations for the new era and help heal those who find this awakening painful.

New age spiritualists and channelers say that, with this flood of new energy that has showered our planet through the 11.11.11 and 12.12.11 portals, we will ALL begin to awaken and remember who we are, who we’ve been, and why we are here. I have awakened early to be a “wayshower” for those who are just now beginning to rouse. Don’t hate. It’s no easy job. But I chose to do it, before I ever incarnated, and I am a keeper of my word, so I will honor it by holding light and love and faith that we will ALL follow through with our promises.

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