Being Sarah ~ The Easter Message


ascendIf you have been following “My Akashic Journey” by Jen Freer at FreerSpirit.com, then you are aware that, in Chapter Six, I revealed a secret I had kept for over six years about myself in the category of “knowing who I am,” or, who I HAVE been, rather.

I held this secret for so many years because I knew that no one would believe me, and I feared I would be ridiculed, or worse, locked up in a padded cell. So, anyway, you can read all about that in Chapter Six if you wish to come to a better understanding of how it all unfolded for me.

Growing up, I was always skeptical of what people tried to tell me about God and Jesus. I will talk about this more in Chapter Seven, which I have yet to write. But, it always surprised me, having never attended church other than a handful of times my grandmother dragged me to hers between the ages of three and five (she died when I was six) that I was so clear about the things Jesus had truly said and done, and how quick I was to set everyone straight on that. For example, a Sunday school teacher told us that “Jesus said, I am the way, the truth and the light, and the only way to God is through me.” My four-year old adamant response: “No he DIDn’t.”

I had a lot of opinions like that about Jesus at a very young age. The only reason that made any sense as to why is what I learned many years later, in 2006, while watching DaVinci Code, when a group of friendly-beings energy filled the room and told me that yes, Jesus had a wife named Mary Magdalene and that, yes, they had a baby named Sarah and that I had been that baby/child/woman – the daughter of Jesus and Mary Magdalene. Although I immediately felt in my heart this was true, and I had known it in my heart for a very long time, my lower-self ego was like “Shut the front door!” I was not having it. But, since then, I have learned to accept it, and even decided to share what my higher self, who was also the higher self of Sarah, knows about that life and Jesus and Mary Magdalene.

So, without any further adieux, here is Sarah’s first message, just in time for Easter.

Message from Sarah.

Greetings, seekers.

My light-being name is Peunice. I am of Pleiadian origin, and I am an ascended master of light. I currently work with The Pleiadian Ring of 500, a group of 250 twin-flame soul mates who gathered together to contribute to and make an impact on Earth’s ascension and to assist others in the process of ascension. Our most famous pair of twin-flame soul mates who belong to our ring are the icon you know as Jesus and the one you may or may not know to have been his wife, Mary Magdalene.

One of my first physical incarnations on Earth was the embodiment of the baby girl born to Jesus and Mary Magdalene who they named Sarah. Now you can think of me as Sarah, if you wish, but do know that Sarah is just one of many physical beings I have embodied. Remember, I was an ascended master Pleiadian light-being named Peunice long before I was ever Sarah. Currently, I am incarnate as the being known as Jen Freer, author of FreerSpirit.com. Not to confuse anyone, but I do prefer to go by the name Scarborough as Peunice just sounds a bit on the silly side to me. I adopted the name Scarborough after living in one of my favorite cities of all incarnations: Scarborough, U.K., back in the linear time of the 1500s.

That being said, I would like to share information with you about my incarnation as Sarah, and I would like to clear up a lot of disinformation that you have been living under if you are, or have been, involved in any “Christian” religion. What I have to tell you is most likely going to upset you, and it may even anger you if you are completely steeped in the belief system that was created to control you. I only tell you this truth in order to free you from a system that is a paradox of what it claims to be. I would like to make this very brief and keep it as simple as possible. What you need to know is that I was there. I was the daughter of the one most know as Jesus Christ (or Yeshua, or whatever other name you may call him). Most know him as Jesus, so I will just stick to the most popular name.

Here is the first thing you need to know: I grew up knowing my father as a physical human being. Yes. That means that he DID NOT die on a cross. He WAS NOT crucified. And he WAS NEVER nailed to a cross. He DID NOT die for your sins. In fact, there is NO SUCH THING as “sin.”

All of these things… the crucifixion, (or, as I like to spell it: cruciFICTION) the resurrection, and SIN are all things made up by a group of people who have controlled the masses for over 2000 years with this nonsense. These people took my father’s teachings and created their own judgment system out of them. They did everything the opposite of what he taught and placed him at the head of their “church” and told the people they felt were beneath them that THEY should not judge one another… and then they made up a list of “sins” for which the people had to pay actual money until that was replaced with “hail Marys” and “Our fathers.”

I am sorry if this spoils your Easter weekend, but it shouldn’t. It should actually be cause for celebration. For my father DID incarnate as Jesus Christ and he DID teach everyone that we are all one, so we should focus on loving everyone and not judging one another. He also taught that “God” is in everything. God energy is in every atom and every particle that makes up everything in the entire Universe. So, yes, it is within you and me, and even “the bad guys.” It is in the earth and the water and the air and fire and spirit and even in the unseen. God energy is everywhere. And it is FREE. You don’t have to attend a church or tithe your own God energy (money) in exchange to be closer to or experience God. God is already IN you. YOU are a fractal of God. This is what makes you capable of loving unconditionally. Yes. That power IS within you. And, if you are going to rejoice ANYthing this Easter weekend, rejoice in THAT. Rejoice in the fact that YOU can rise. YOU can ascend into the higher realms of unconditional love. THIS is what is meant by being “saved” or “reborn.”

Religion doesn’t save you. Jesus doesn’t save you. YOU save you. With your OWN God essence. Your OWN “Christ consciousness.” You have it. It is inside your eternal heart. Your soul. Your light body. The only place you have to “go” to access it is within… into your heart chakra.

My father’s message was SO simple, but yet it has taken humanity over 2000 years and counting to “get it.” Of course, he did not know that a controlling cult would take his teachings and twist them into a way for them to manipulate, control and steal from the masses. This is his biggest disappointment.

One last thing he wants you to know: the empty cross is closer to the truth. Protestants use the empty cross to celebrate the ascension of Christ. Yes, Jesus ascended. He ascended when he passed away, peacefully, of natural causes, a happy old man, husband and father. He has ascended numerous times, in other lives. Just as we ALL have. We are ALL ascended masters, believe it or not. And we, too, will RISE again. Rejoice in THAT. Rejoice in YOURSELF. Rejoice in your own godliness and Christ consciousness. You have it. So celebrate it!

And yes, Jesus DOES love you. Whether you are black or white, (or any other “color”) gay or straight, (or somewhere in between) human or some other species… and yes, even if you have been naughty. Remember, there is no such thing as “sin.” It is all just experience. And that is what we all came to Earth School to do – experience. EVERYthing. We have all taken turns being the controllers and the controlled. The bullies and the victims. The heroes and the villains. And what most of us have discovered is that we prefer the light to the dark. We’d rather be the “good guys.” It feels better to love – and be loved – than to hate or be hated. We have learned. From experience. Thank God, right? No… thank YOURSELVES. For YOU are the bravest of the brave to have endured the tumultuousness of Earth School. And now it is time for all of us to rise.

Rise above the controlling systems and governances.

Rise above the petty disagreements and grudges.

Rise above, into love.

Rise above, into freedom.

Planet Earth is here for all to enjoy. At no cost. She does not need anyone to fight for her. She just needs all of her inhabitants to love her, cherish her, and give back to her. Once we free ourselves from these controlling systems, we will understand that no one owns any piece of Mother Earth. No one can divide her up with boundaries. She is here for ALL of us to enjoy, explore, and adore with NO boundaries, for in the highest order of love, there are no boundaries, and all are free.

Copyright 2013 Jen Freer, FreerSpirit.com. Permission to share far and wide is granted.

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My Akashic Journey – Chapter Five – Kicking and Screaming


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A Reunion Broken.

So last summer my dream came true; I reunited with my twin-flame (sacred-union) soul mate. We enjoyed a blissful few months together. She proposed to me on the beach in front of a circle of our closest Pleiadian friends currently incarnate with us from the Pleiadian Ring of 500 the night before my birthday. What I thought was a birthday cake was actually a proposal. Written on the cake in orange (my favorite color) lettering was the question: “Will you marry me?”

Of course I said yes. We had a beautiful evening with music, fireworks, dancing and late-night dipping in Lake Michigan. It was the best night of my life, to be with the one I love with all of my heart and soul and all of our closest, dearest friends and Pleiadian family members. It was also the best birthday of my life, as she agreed to move in with me. We had a wonderful two months of bliss, but then, of course, fear set in and my twin-flame ran again.

My Akashic Records and other sources say that we will reunite again one day. I trust this is true because no matter how hard I try to move on without her, nothing works. Even if I want it to. I met someone recently I was pretty excited to spend the rest of my life with, but, no sooner than I got my hopes up, I received a barrage of text messages from HER fiancé. Yeah. Nice.

Doom and Gloom.

I see that I am doomed to sit in misery while I continue to WAIT, stalled out in this ridiculous holding pattern because someone is too scared to be happy. Some days, I honestly would rather slit my throat to end this nightmare. I never really even wanted to be here in the first place. I’m sure this is true because I constantly have this feeling that I was dragged into this life. Or pushed. Or coerced. That is just how it feels. NOTHING is ever enjoyable for me. Even when I am happy, it can only be for a few minutes at a time because someone is ALWAYS fucking it up for me. Yeah, I said it! The F-word. Come on, you know this would not be a true heart-felt chapter of my journey without it!

So, I could go on and on here and tell you how it’s all bullshit – this theory or philosophy that “love heals everything” and that twin flames or sacred-union soul mates don’t ever really reunite in harmonious bliss (that we’re just here to push each other’s buttons and make each other LEARN, LEARN, LEARN all the difficult lessons in life.) Okay, that’s crap, too. Well, maybe it’s not. Maybe it’s true. But what I mean by “that’s crap” is that it is the stupidest fucking shit EVER.

Yeah, it WOULD be nice if we could all just LOVE each other and get along. It WOULD be nice if on December 21, 2012 all of our egos had dove to their deaths like suicidal lemmings so it COULD be possible to truly love without fear or doubt. But that didn’t happen, did it? Nope. Ego’s still here. Alive and kickin’ like a tenacious wild stallion. Annnd it still sucks. Big time.

As you can tell, I am having some major issues that I am wrestling with. And it is more than just losing my twin flame (AGAIN). I also lost my job. Which, at first, I thought was a blessing in disguise because I thought I could finally do Akashic Readings for a living, but, as things continued to get worse with my twin flame and the county kept threatening to take my house from me, I really lost faith. I mean… BAD.

YES, I am depressed. YES, I am a suicidal lemming in search of a nice, tall cliff with lots of jagged rocks and a pounding sea below. NO, I DON’T FUCKING CARE WHAT THE GOD DAMN LESSON IS IN THIS. FUCK IT!!! FUCK EVERYTHING. Let me GO HOME. NOW!!!!!

Sound familiar? I bet it does. I KNOW it does. I have had PLENTY of talks with people feeling exactly the same way I do. LOTS of people are feeling suicidal, believe it or not. Worthless. Hopeless. And helpless.

But, oddly enough, there is this inner calm in the middle of the storm. All of these thoughts raging, swirling, spiraling, and desperately trying to pull me (us?) downward into the deep, dark abyss of nothingness. But it fails every time because there is this deep inner peace with it all. What IS that? It’s… it’s like… do you remember those turtle floats we had as kids? Those dense expanded foam turtle shells they used to strap around our chests that stayed on our backs to help keep us afloat as we learned to swim? Yeah. It’s like one of those. Right in the center of my chest. And its message is perfectly clear:

Cry and whine all you want. Kick and scream, even. We’re NOT going down.

Faith Restored.

Somewhere in the middle of all of this, back in early January of 2013, I sought solace in my friend Ariel DeAngelis, who I consider to be a twin-flame expert. I told her how losing my twin flame again had made me second guess myself. My abilities as an Akashic Reader, actually. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I just made the whole thing up? If not, then why did we split again?

I know what most of you are thinking. Why didn’t I just ask my Akashic Records? Well, as I just said, I was afraid I was just plain wrong. That I had made it all up in my head. And that the concept of twin-flame soul mates is just bunk.

Well, of course Ariel had a lot of great answers and even some intuitive information about my twin flame that was pretty dead-on accurate despite the fact that she has never met either of us in person, nor does she know my twin flame at all, not even by a social networking connection. So she made me feel somewhat better with the old, “as twin flame soul mates, we’re always together, even when we’re NOT together.” Yep. Whether we like it or not. And I say that because I am really just tired of the ego bullshit that sends us meandering down the wayward idiot paths only to wind up back where we belong… TOGETHER. Being the higher spiritual (and extremely impatient) half, I honestly don’t see the “need” to be apart. BUT (I admit I DID ask my Akashic Records when she moved out WHY this was happening) the records revealed that my twin flame’s higher self had requested one last separation before oneness so he could better appreciate coming into oneness. I, of course, told him he’s an ass, and he had just better hurry up with that nonsense. (We really do make a phenomenal pair… WHEN we’re TOGETHER.)

Love is patient. Love is kind. What a bunch of bullshit! Get your scaredy-cat ass on this train. NOW!!!

Okay, you all get my drift. I’m SUPER impatient. EXTREMELY. Not to mention that I am just completely BORED with fear and its ill-effects on society in general and as a whole. Fear is stupid. It makes you think stupid things that manifest into crazy shit far worse than the Stay-Puft Marshmallow Man. Did we seriously NOT learn ANYTHING from Ghostbusters? And why can we still not comprehend that worrying is like praying for what we DON’T want? CRIMINY!!!

Okay, done ranting. For a minute. Long enough to tell you what a genius Ariel DeAngelis truly is. When I thanked her for her comforting perspective, she told me to feel free to contact her any time. Even “the other way,” if I wished. I said that would be interesting, for certain. So she said, “let’s try it!” So we ran an experiment. I said I would telepathically contact her sometime that afternoon, but would not tell her what time, exactly. I would have a mental conversation with her, and then, later that evening, I would contact her and ask her what we talked about. She agreed to my terms and conditions.

Not to get all Mark Twain or anything, but I must digress for a moment, because this is what I do. Try to follow. I bundled up the Chihuahuas and took them for a nice, long, 90-minute power walk down to the golf course, around the 13th hole and back. It was on the way back that a random memory from 2006 popped into my head. Yes. 2006. I know. Just follow. It’s really significant to My Akashic Journey – Chapter Six – The Unexpected One. But it all started here. In this moment. On this walk before my telepathic conversation with Ariel DeAngelis. I don’t know WHY it came to me at that very moment that I was power walking the very steep winding hill on my way home, but it occurred to me that I needed to ask Ariel about the super weird thing that happened to me while watching DaVinci Code. I had not even thought about it since 2008 when I saw DaVinci Code the second time. But there it was, popping into my head, random as an ADHD Gen Y comedian. Stay tuned.

So when I got home, I sat on my exercise ball and began stretching. It was about 1:30ish. While stretching, I contacted Peter. You know, the Pleaidian being I sometimes channel. I said, “Hey, Peter, I am supposed to have a telepathic conversation with Ariel DeAngelis this afternoon. Let’s surprise her with a three-way call!”

Of course Peter was all for that! So we patched Ariel in and had a little conference call that was pretty lighthearted and full of laughter. After Peter “hung up,” Ariel and I continued our conversation with a topic she told me to ask her about. I won’t get into the details here, as that is all private and whatnot, but I will say that the details were… very detailed. And no, it wasn’t about Arch Angel Michael.

While we were talking, I got up to make lunch, so there were a couple of lulls in the conversation as I concentrated on cooking instructions and timing and whatnot. Yeah, I’m lame. I read the directions and follow them. Anyway, what I found interesting is that when our conversation was over and my lunch was finished, I wrote to Ariel and said, “Okay. What did we talk about?” she had the time of the conversation (between 1:30 and 2:00 PM EST) accurate as well as the two lulls in conversation I just described. Although she did not recall talking with Peter, she did remember the gusto with which our conversation began, and she also told me our three different topics exactly. Then she asked me, “Okay, so what did YOU hear ME say?”

I wrote her back with the very detailed details and she. was. FLOORED.

“Wow,” she told me. “You are the REAL DEAL.”

Of course, she never had a doubt.

And then she said, “If I don’t doubt you, then why do YOU doubt you?”

That was a very good question, indeed.

And that brought me the courage to share with her that memory I mentioned from 2006. Something I refused to accept about myself that I knew in my heart was true for a very long time. It was a knowing I believe I was born with, but never, EVER shared with anyone. It was the kind of knowing that is so certain that when this bit of craziness was sprung upon me in 2006 while watching DaVinci Code, I was not even surprised by it. But there was no way in hell I was going to accept it. Or admit it, for that matter. Stay tuned. I am about to open my Akashic Records and ask about it. ALL of it. And I guarantee you that the information I receive will knot up a bunch of Christian panties into an excruciatingly uncomfortable wad. Not that it’s my intention to do so. Like I said… I never wanted to know this information, let alone share it. Primarily because I know I will be attacked, damned to hell and shamed for it. But I figure, hey, my life already sucks. I might as well tell the truth since that is what I came here to do. Kicking and screaming.