Now TRENDing: #Twin-Flame #SoulMates# ~ Debunking the Myths (Part One)


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Have you noticed lately that some of the most non-spiritual people in your life – or on your “friends list” – are suddenly posting esoteric memes or using phrases like, “soul mate” or “twin-flame soul mate,” even? I mean, I’m talking about people who don’t even believe in reincarnation. When I started to witness this, I thought, “Oh, boy, here we go. #Twin-flame will soon be trending on Twitter. Time to consult with my Akashic Records and create a list of Frequently Asked Questions (FAQ).”

Because, let’s face it, we THINK we know what twin flames are and all that. But, when it’s all said and done, we really don’t. Some are still stuck spinning their wheels thinking their twin-flame soul mate is the ONLY one for them and that, even though they are estranged now, that is the person they will be with one day. And, until that day, they will drown in a sea of sorrow. This is the kind of mentality we need to nip in the bud, for it serves NO ONE. Trust me. I waited five years for my twin-flame to come back around, and even though we did reunite “one more time,” it did not last and was nothing but a huge disappointment. What I learned from it: I deserve MUCH better. And so do you. And this is why I challenged my Akashic team to set the record straight and get the truth about all these human-ego ideas we read about twin-flame soul mates when everything comes crashing down – even after we loved without conditions and took every exhausting “test” and “challenge” our twin flames threw at us, accepted every “mirrored reflection” they showed us and integrated it into our own unconditional self love and it still wasn’t good enough.

Most twin-flame gurus will tell you that you’re estranged from your twin flame because you “still have work to do,” or that you “need to work on yourself more; love yourself more.” Even after you’ve done all the therapy and loved yourself raw and you’re still finding yourself alone, you’re still thinking, because THE GURUS said so, that you can’t make it to 5D without a harmonious reunion with your twin-flame soul mate. You believe without this unconditional love for yourself and each other, you simply cannot ascend. Some may even try to tell you that the one you believe to be your twin-flame was actually a “false twin” or a “catalyst,” leaving you even more confused than ever before. That’s the last thing you need when you feel like you can’t breathe… can’t function… can’t even LIVE anymore.

So I decided it’s time for us to really dig for the truth about this twin-flame business. (See what I did there?) Using some of the “information” found around the internet that never resonated with me about twin-flame soul mates as well as some questions from my clients, I created the following list and asked for my Akashic team to please reveal the truth for all of us.

I asked my Akashic Records:

What are twin-flame soul mates?

Twin-flame soul mates are two souls that have split from one light being, much like identical twin humans have split into two beings from one egg.

Does every light being split into twin-flame soul mates?

No, not every light being does this.

Why do some beings split into twin-flame soul mates?

This is often done by beings who incarnate into a physical embodiment on a physical planet, such as Earth. The main reason is to have two aspects of the one soul – either both incarnated or only one incarnated while the other stays in spirit – to assist in the evolution of the soul.

Let’s focus on those who incarnate together for a moment. What is their purpose together? Why do they incarnate together?

Ultimately, twin-flame soul mates incarnate together to push each other onto the path of unconditional self love and to harmoniously reunite in unconditional love for each other. As far as mission or purpose to serve together once harmoniously reunited, it all depends on the contracts they make together before incarnation. They may also be in contract with other soul mates to help teach lessons to them. For example: the twin-flame soul mates incarnate on Earth as an interracial couple to help teach their respective families tolerance and love for other races. It can be as simple and complicated as that. At the same time, they may be in contract with one another to teach each other the same lesson and so many more that come along with cultural differences and learned prejudices. In short, the missions are usually to help teach unconditional love and bring peace to Earth.

Do twin-flame soul mates always incarnate with the intention of being romantic partners or sexual partners, and if so, why?

Mostly, yes. But some may choose to change it up and create some very challenging situations by being born to the same bloodline. Twin-flame soul mates mostly incarnate with the intention of being romantic sexual partners because there is a bond and a trust there like no other. The sharing of Kundalini energy is also very powerful, especially between twin-flame soul mates because of the sacred, spiritual bond that exists between them.

But wouldn’t this be much like having sex with yourself, in a way? Or your twin sibling?

With yourself, yes. Twin sibling, no.

Why would we want to have sex with ourselves, though? That seems a bit narcissistic.

Who do you trust most when it comes to such intimacy?

Why, then, if there is this sacred trust, is it so hard for twin-flame soul mates to stay together? Why is there always a runner and a chaser?

There’s not always a runner and a chaser. It seems that way, but that is not always the case. What creates the difficulty is the human ego entertaining the lower, fear-based energies. Each life experience is different. The difficulties and hardships faced in every life are what form and shape the ego-learned fears. It is possible to have two runners, just as it is possible to have two highly spiritual beings who are committed and willing to stay together through thick and thin. To have a constant game of chase in every life would be madness, and that is not every twin-flame story. We know that this is a common philosophy regarding twin-flame soul mates, and we would like to state that this is not the absolute truth; this is an ego-based philosophy based on a sampling or case-study of human experiences in your current now. It is not completely accurate.

Since we are on the subject of twin-flame myths, there is one floating out there that twin flames always incarnate as the same gender. What is the truth regarding this belief?

Not true. Although a specific gender may be preferred, all souls have incarnated as both genders numerous times.

So that brings us to a few more twin-flame myths. Some believe that the one soul splits into a masculine energy and a feminine energy. What is the truth regarding this belief, and, do the twin souls share one higher self, or do they each have their own?

When we talk of souls, what we are talking about is conscious energy known as light beings. They are genderless when not incarnated in physical bodies, and they have an equal balance of masculine and feminine energy. That is not to say that they don’t favor or project more of one energy than the other, however, which is the same for human beings. Each twin soul has its own higher self identity.

What about twin-flame soul mates who incarnate as the same gender together? Is their intention also to be romantic or sexual partners?

Yes, most of the time. These are usually more experienced and evolved souls who have learned that love transcends gender, and it is their mission to teach the younger souls incarnated on Earth this lesson – that love is love – regardless of gender, race, religion or culture. These souls are the strongest and bravest, and they usually incarnate with their twin-flame soul mate knowing they will need to rely on each other in such courageous efforts.

What about those twin-flame soul mates who cannot succeed in their union with each other? What happens to their “mission” they agreed to serve together?

They cannot complete their mission if they cannot overcome their issues to unite and serve together. Contracts can be rewritten, however, by the higher selves.

There is another myth out there that twin-flame soul mates must reunite in order for the souls to ascend into the 5D vibration. What is the truth regarding this belief?

It is not true. First of all, most souls are already of 5D vibration. Twin-flame soul mates incarnate together to assist one another in their individual soul evolution as human beings. The secret to achieving the 5D Christ Consciousness vibration while incarnated as a human being is self mastery and self love. Once the ego is tamed and the need to compare, judge and criticize (self or others) no longer exists, then it is time to move into unconditional love and complete and total acceptance of the self. Self love must be achieved by both individuals before unconditional love for each other can thrive. Unconditional love does not necessarily mean that the two marry or live together or even remain a couple; it means that they are able to love and accept one another as they are, and they are able to let go of old ego attachments to allow one another to be free and happy. For most twins, this does mean that they stay together as a couple. For others, it means that they lovingly let each other go and truly wish them well for the remainder of their journey without feeling longing or need for one another.

In the Twin Flame “guru” world here on Earth, some terms are being thrown around that only add confusion. The first is: catalyst. The second is: false twin flame. Sometimes the terms are being presented as interchangeable; other times they are presented as two different things. What can you tell us about catalysts and false twin flames?

There is no such thing as a “false” twin flame. There are some soul mates who will serve as “near” twin flames, to prepare individuals for their real twin-flame. The near twin will challenge those hang ups that may arise with your twin flame and help you hurdle some of the smaller issues to clear the way. The difference here is that you will feel this near twin is your soul mate until you discover your twin-flame soul mate and discover how much deeper you can go into love. A catalyst could be anyone, really, but usually is a member of your soul group who comes along to shake up your soul mate relationship so that you can move onto your twin-flame, but this really only occurs in extreme cases. Catalysts are not always necessary. Most go directly from the near-twin soul mate experience to the twin-flame soul mate. Some may confuse the actual twin-flame as a catalyst if the first reunion attempt is fast and furious and a failure (which is common if the near twin did not fully accomplish its mission). Catalysts are a one-time thing. There is always a sense of rockiness with a catalyst, so when the relationship is over, it’s over. There’s no going back, and both parties strongly feel this way. With a twin-flame separation, a constant longing is always felt by both parties and it cannot be shaken, despite the hurt they may have caused one another in their first reunion attempt.

There is still another myth out there that we have more than one twin-flame soul mate. What can you tell us about this belief?

It is true that higher selves create many aspects of themselves in physical bodies, so, in theory, there are individuals walking Earth (and other planets) who share the same higher self. Although it is rare, there are special cases in which an incarnate being wishes to discontinue its life, but the higher self wants to continue, so contracts are rearranged and that individual encounters another aspect of its twin-flame counterpart in the same life. We want to reiterate that this is extremely rare, but it is possible. For the most part, higher selves have already decided in advance which aspects will be paired together.

Why do so many people have problems with their twin-flame soul mates hurting them?

Sometimes it is contracted; most of the time, however, it is not intentional, but, rather a result of a lack of self love which can be manifested in many different ways, including addictions, (substance or alcohol, prescription drugs, tobacco, sex, pornography, pedophilia, food… the list goes on and on) low self-esteem, self-mutilation, self-deprecation/sabotage, mental illness, physical dis-ease and illness, anxiety, depression and more.

Some suggest that there are negative beings on Earth who want to prevent twin-flame soul mates from reuniting. What is the truth in this regard?

It is true. They are the ones who create obstacles we just mentioned to keep the human ego in lower vibration.

What happens when a twin-flame couple fails and separates and one is able to raise vibration into self love while the other is unable to rise and stays in lower vibration? Does this mean that the one who achieves unconditional self-love never gets the opportunity to reunite with his/her twin-flame for that incarnation?

In this case it is possible for those other aspects of the higher selves of the twin-flames to reshuffle and begin attracting to those who are of similar vibration. So those aspects who achieve unconditional self love begin pairing up, while those who choose to stay in lower vibration either find another aspect who matches their vibration, or they remain alone or settle for someone else who is not a twin-flame who is of equal vibration.

What if there is no match for the higher vibrating aspect to reunite with? What happens to that aspect?

This is where walk-in situations will occur. These contracts are usually in place before incarnation with soul group mates who are willing to “trade higher selves” if their own twin-flame union fails or if they have incarnated without their twin-flame (which is usually the case). The other option is for a twin-soul attract once unconditional self-love is achieved because this 5D vibration is the same as harmoniously reuniting with a twin-flame soul mate. Or the higher vibrating aspect will most likely be perfectly happy flying solo since there is really no need for a partner once unconditional self love is achieved.

What is a twin soul? How is a twin-soul different than a twin-flame?

This is the whole-soul twin of your higher self. One who is of higher vibration who has also achieved unconditional self love. You will find you have more in common with your twin soul than you do with your twin-flame and that your differences don’t matter at all; unconditional love is free-flowing and drama is at an all-time low.

So what is better, a harmoniously reunited pair of twin-flame souls or a reunited pair of twin souls?

If the twin-flame souls have each achieved unconditional self-love (which is the only way for them to be harmoniously reunited) then there really is no difference. It is about vibration. Soul mates will only attract to one another when they share a similar vibration; they repel when they are discordant in vibration. If one half of a twin-flame pair achieves the 5D vibration alone, that half automatically becomes a whole – with or without a partner who is an aspect of the other half. All are one, you see. So whether the 5D vibration is achieved with or without the other half, it is still a successful union into a whole for the half who achieved unconditional self love. It’s the vibration that counts. Not the union.

What happens to the lower vibrating twin, then, if the higher vibrating twin moves into union with a higher vibrating aspect or twin-soul?

The lower vibrating twin may move into union with another aspect who is a match in vibration or the higher-self may opt out and a walk-in situation may occur for that individual.

So what the heck is the twin-flame union even FOR then?

Twin flames serve as mirrors to one another, to show where there is an imbalance (between masculine and feminine energy) or to reflect those issues of self-esteem that need work for unconditional self-love to be achieved. The union is also usually a lesson in what unconditional love really is – as opposed to conditional or emotional attachments. Twin flame unions – whether successful or not – help awaken and guide each half toward the path to unconditional self love. Unconditional self love is what is necessary in order for the collective to rise and ultimately bring and maintain peace on Earth. When humans achieve unconditional self love, they no longer feel a need to judge, criticize, compare or compete. Instead they prefer to express compassion and compliment and help one another. And this is what Earth needs in order to heal and thrive.

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So there you have it, friends. Straight from the Akashic Records. For those of you ambitious enough to change your ways and raise your vibration, there’s not “just one” possibility in the twin-flame arena. There are higher vibrating options if you feel you need a partner to help “get you there.” For those of you flying solo, isn’t it nice to know that you can achieve the 5D vibration on your own by mastering human ego and achieving unconditional self love? And isn’t it nice to know there are those accomplished whole-soul, twin-soul counterparts awaiting you when you reach the summit if you go it alone? So why waste another day pining for someone stuck in low gear? Start loving yourself and raise your vibration so you can attract a healthier, happier life partner (who just happens to have the same higher self as that original twin-flame). Or why not just fly solo? You already have everything you need inside you, and once you achieve unconditional self love, you complete yourself and the 5D vibration. Who better to love you without conditions than YOU? Trust. Fly!

My Akashic Journey ~ Chapter Eight ~ Multiple Timelines and Simultaneous Lives, Oh MY!!!


So I’ve been minding my own business, working on a new teen trilogy idea and entertaining myself with the research when I’m not conducting private Akashic Readings and totally NOT thinking about what the next chapter of My Akashic Journey will entail. Although, I do admit, I did give it a wonder for a brief moment, but I figured I had some learning and growing to do before it would come together, as is usually the case.

I had decided that my young adult novel series will take place in Boston. I’m not even sure why – it was just a given. Didn’t even think twice about it. Which is weird because I have not been to Boston in at least 15 years, and, to be honest, even though I had a great time there in my college days, I don’t miss it much. But I do miss my college buddy and Pleiadian family member who lives there. And thank goodness she does, because she has been very instrumental in helping me decide what Boston high school my main character will attend and which neighborhoods are most ideal for the setting.

It was during our discussion on Thursday, July 11, 2013, that the beginnings of this chapter began to manifest when my Pleiadian sister said: “Forget Fenway. It’s all been rebuilt with high rises and is snotty. You could put them in an upper apartment on Queensbury. They could have tall windows overlooking the Fens out toward Mass College of Art and the Fine Arts Museum.”

Long pause for consideration. I had spent a LOT of time in that neighborhood walking my dog, shooting hoops, running the cinder track around the patchy football field. So close to Boston Latin, the oldest and most famous high school in the city, which was also the first school I thought my main character should attend, until I remembered it’s a private school.

“Wait!” my Pleiadian sister said, “Put them in a condo on the eighth floor of Charlesgate! You know the building and its history, so you can play with that!”

Whaaaaat??? They converted our old college dormitory into condos? Seriously?!

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I lived on the eighth floor the first couple months of my freshman year at Emerson College. The place was a total dump with nasty stucco walls that looked like plastered cheese curds and a lethargic elevator that never fully made it to the floor landing. I usually had to step up, or even pull myself up onto the landing from inside the elevator – until I got smart and started taking the stairs.

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“I lived on the eighth floor freshman year,” I said. “Totally haunted!”

I wasn’t keen on the idea. The old Charlesgate Hotel is massive. Just… HUGE!!!  I had been thinking more of an old factory loft-style apartment with exposed brick walls and majestic windows for my novel. Although I suppose that type of setting has been overdone.

What is really weird, here, is that I mentioned this very building in Chapter Seven of My Akashic Journey as Exhibit C of my guides’ presentation of information regarding multiple lives and timelines:

Then my guides show me Exhibit C, that ornate tile décor I noticed in my dormitory building at 4 Charlesgate East in Boston, Massachusetts, when I was a freshman at Emerson College. I recognized it immediately and realized “I’ve been here before,” with utmost clarity and certainty. Then I frowned. “But I’ve NEVER been here before,” I reminded myself.

I must admit that I didn’t really fully “get it” until Friday, July 12, when I began researching the building. I first started with the present-day stuff for my novel. If you Google 4 Charlesgate East, all kinds of realtor listings for available condo units pop up. And, yes, the eighth floor unit is currently available “again.” Massive renovations have taken place since I lived there in the fall semester of 1989. It’s nice and all, but hardly worth the $790,000 asking price for the 2 bedroom/2 bathroom,  1,003 square-foot condo. Unless you really enjoy living with perverted and temperamental ghosts, that is.

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As I continued to scroll through the Google listings, I came upon an interesting link to an article describing the old Charlesgate Hotel as “the most haunted building in Boston.” Built in 1891 by architect J. Pickering Putnam, the building served as a luxury hotel until 1947, then there are conflicting stories about it being a dormitory for female Boston University seminary students (THERE’s a contrast!) or a dorm for male BU students from 1947-1972. Maybe it was both. Twenty-five years is a long time span, so who knows for sure? Over the next nine years the building is said to have been a tenement building for “wayward types” until Emerson College purchased it for use as a dormitory in 1981. The building then sold, again, around 1994/1995 (more conflicting reports) and has since been converted into condominiums.

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So I read through a number of articles on these “haunted Boston” type sites. Some of the stories I read about the haunted happenings were familiar. Others were not. Most were far more over-the-top  than what I experienced myself (personal items shooting across my dorm room with great force, dead-bolted doors flinging open with a crash at two a.m., caressing and tickling feelings on my calves and thighs while lying in bed, and the clicking sounds of my roommate’s cosmetic cases being opened and closed while I was the only one in the room. She later asked if I had messed with her stuff because it was all out of place!)

When I moved from the very small eighth floor (every article makes a big deal out of the fact that the eighth floor cannot be seen from the street and some go so far as to say that it had been purposely built that way as a secret hideaway for mafia activity, but I always got the feeling the eighth floor was an addition, and not part of the original building) to the larger second floor, I began to hear more and more student accounts of ghostly encounters. One resident assistant spent most of her time sitting in the hallway because the negative energy in her room was too much for her to bear. Just telling me about it made the hairs on her arms stand up, and she showed me her goose bumps. Right around that time a story appeared in our school newspaper stating that several female students had reported a male ghostly figure dressed in black and wearing a black hat and cape getting fresh with them while lying in their beds. I believed it since I had felt the mysterious caressing and tickling nonsense when I was on the eighth floor, but it never occurred to me to report it to anyone, especially after my roommate looked at me like I had three heads when I told her I felt our room was haunted.

Even though I was only eighteen and from a small, rural area where I’d lived in a fairly new, one-owner home with no spooky history, I was pretty chill about all the spirit activity I suddenly encountered without warning. As I sat and thought about it on July 12, Scarborough (my higher self) communicated to me that Charlesgate was, actually, a portal.

Wait? What? A portal?!!

Yes, a portal to other dimensions and timelines.

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Okay, weird. The first time I had ever encountered that word  was when a psychic friend came over to my house to investigate all the wild spirit activity I had been experiencing at my current home in southwest Michigan. She told me she felt a “magic gateway” in my basement that dug down way deep into the ground and shot way high up into the sky, but also curved out, northward, toward the fireplace, and vibrated like a giant tuning fork.

“The spirits are attracted to it,” she told me.

Hmm. And all this time I thought I was on some kind of Native American spiritual site or burial ground. (Not in a “Poltergeist” (the movie) kind of way, but in a far more sacred feeling sort of way that is peaceful until a disturbed soul wanders in seeking my assistance.)

Another portal, I thought to myself as I stared at a photo of Charlesgate on my laptop screen. Some of the articles were going so far as to say that the architect, J. Pickering Putnam, had been rumored to dabble in the occult and that he had purposely designed the building with materials to attract dark energies. The movie Ghostbusters suddenly came to mind, and it all seemed so crazy. I searched for more information on the architect, who was a Boston Latin alumna (coincidence?) and a Harvard graduate who traveled to France to further his studies at The School of Fine Arts in Paris.

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Paris? Really? Coincidence again, I wondered as I stood and stretched. Suddenly a vision of the ornate decorative tile I recognized as an 18-year old flashed in front of my eyes. I shook it away and glanced at my laptop screen again. Architect. The word was the only clear thing on the page.

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“Architect!” I realized.

Oh. My. God.

I felt the instant connection. My twin flame’s Akashic Records said she had been an architect who designed the grand staircase on the Titanic. Was it possible she had also been this J. Pickering Putnam guy as well? And, if so… how is that possible if the Titanic sank in 1912 and her architect self was on the ship? How could she also be an architect in Boston designing and building the Charlesgate Hotel in 1891?

Ohh, here we go with the parallel universe, multiple timelines and simultaneous lives mindfuck again!!! Am I right?

Well, you know exactly what time it is now! Time for a My Akashic Journey reading!

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Okay, so, I know you are trying to help me make a connection to another life by showing me the ornate wall tile at Charlesgate right when I was reading the word Architect on my laptop screen. I feel  a correlation, so what are you trying to tell me, exactly?

The reason you recognized the tile and felt you had been there before was because you had been there many, many times with your husband who was, yes, the architect of that building. And, yes, the higher self of that individual, J. Pickering Putnam, or JP Putnam as he preferred to be called, was Ulron, the twin-flame soul mate of your higher self, Scarborough.

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Okay, so, in an Akashic reading I conducted for her last summer, my twin-flame was told that she had been an architect who designed the grand staircase of the Titanic, of which she was supposedly a passenger when it sunk in April of 1912. So, how is it possible that she was incarnated as an architect in Belfast, Ireland, working on the Titanic while, at the same time, incarnated as JP Putnam, another architect designing and building the Charlesgate Hotel?

They were on two different timelines. Parallel, yes, and happening simultaneously, yes, but on completely different timelines.

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How is that possible?

Well, there are many, many different parallel worlds, dear. We could try to explain it, but it would boggle your brain too much. So, for the sake of your sanity, just know that it is possible and happening on so many different levels with so many different fractals of your higher self that you could not even begin to imagine how it is all kept organized, but it is.

Okay, so, is it a computer program? Like, in The Matrix? Are we a bunch of Sims-type characters? How can you explain
it better?

We just told you that we can’t. It would fry your brain. And most humans don’t want to know. They are too busy being occupied by the system. Too interested in their own Sims-type games to realize they could really be living real lives if they could just unplug. But, what they are doing is very much like what your higher selves are doing. Running programs. Experimenting with different characters. But, actually feeling through these characters who are in physical bodies. But the idea was not to become so mind-centered that you stop living and experiencing. Yes, it is part of the program… to experiment to see how deeply rooted fear can immobilize an entire race. You remember the days when you, as a kid, used to go outside and roam and play for hours and hours with no parental supervision. You were free to explore your world. There were no simulated, computer programmed games to play. And your parents weren’t worried too much about your safety until you started driving their car. And really, then, they were more worried about their car or “the other guy on the road,” than they were worried about you. Not that they didn’t love you, but that their fears and worries were more about financial issues or you being a victim than you actually causing a problem on the road. Regardless, if you sat around in your room on your computer all the time, they would have been more worried about you than they were when you were outside roaming and exploring, and, yes, even driving their car. Because, just 30 years ago, life was very, very different. You were still expected to be socially engaging… or engaged… with people face to face. Not in chat rooms or through simulated online games. The whole idea of incarnating into physical bodies is to fully experience life through all or most of the senses. Many are no longer doing this for they have become so enslaved by the system that even their free time is consumed by the system.

It sounds to me like we are being treated like lab rats. What is the point?

To see if the lab rat cares enough about itself to free itself…  and the other lab rats.

Seriously? That is totally fucked up. And you wonder why so many of us are depressed and suicidal?

We know why you are. We understand fully. But we also know that you all have the power to change it. The question is, do you want to? And, if you want to, how are you going to go about it? Are you going to continue killing each other for power? Are you going to continue to allow a flawed system run by a few elite control you? Your lives? Your loved ones lives?

The problem is that we don’t know how to change it. We’ve got people channeling ETs who are telling us they are coming to save us. We’ve got these other groups telling us that there are some benevolent trusts that are about to gift us with prosperity packets so we, too, can experience wealth and abundance and finally live again. The problem is that this has been going on for years and nothing ever happens. Peaceful protests have been going on and on and on, but nothing changes much. We’re still enslaved by the system. How do we change it?

How do you stop abuse? You walk away from it. You have this power. All of you. Together. You have to disengage. You have stop lending your energy to the system. That is the only way out.

How do you end a game you can never win? You simply stop playing.

How do you starve a system that starves you? Easy. You cut them off. Collectively.

How do you disengage? You have to detach. Detach yourself from fear. Detach yourself from worry. Detach yourself from the lower vibrations that keep you dependent on their system.

We’ve heard all of this before. The majority of the collective does not listen or follow this advice. It seems like the majority of the collective is still deeply asleep. How is it the same or different on other timelines and the parallel worlds?

Each one is slightly different, since variance of outcomes are being explored and recorded. For example, right now, in a parallel universe on the very same timeline as yours, the Trayvon Martin case/Zimmerman trial has seen Zimmerman convicted to a twenty year sentence. Basically, some outcomes are the opposite of what you are currently experiencing regarding human rights cases while some remain the same.

Okay, so are all the people in that parallel universe exactly the same over there as they are here? With the same higher selves?

Some are participating while some are not. Some are the exact same identity “there” as “here” while others are different, but whether they are the same or different, yes, they all have the same higher selves. That is, IF they are participating in that particular universe on that particular timeline.

Okay, so, how does it work – the universe and timeline I am currently working from – are there more than one timeline within this “universe?”

Yes. There are several. We know it’s confusing. Which is why we don’t try to explain it too much.

It seems chaotic. How is it possible to keep it all straight?

The Akashic Records keep it all documented. If you want to keep going with the “lab” metaphor, think of the different timelines as “batches” or “groups” that were started at different times. So, your first group of rats started their testing six weeks ago. Your second group started five weeks ago. Your third group started four weeks ago. So, even though they are all going through a six-month test, they are slightly staggered and the circumstances are changed a bit despite running through the exact same program for the exact same amount of time.

What is the possibility of July 15, 1971 happening on another timeline right now in the same universe with me being born again as the same exact person while I am still alive?

It’s very possible. Or you could be someone different on a different timeline in the same universe, too. Or the same in a different universe on a different timeline… or the same timeline. The possibilities are endless.

What is the point of being the exact same person on the exact same timeline in a parallel universe?

Some higher selves would like to try the same “character” throughout the same time period with slightly different circumstances. It’s kind of like your video game analogy – using the same character to explore a new difficulty level within the same game.

Please explain to me again what the purpose is for higher selves to be living vicariously through so many physical beings on so many timelines all at once. What are they hoping to accomplish by doing this?

There are so many analogies we could use to explain this and none would be completely accurate, but we will do the best we can with the seedling analogy (although no one gets eaten in the end, so, again, like we say, not the best analogy).

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When you plan a garden, you plant many seeds, right? Four or five at a time within one hole. And you will plant several rows of the same kind of seed, right? Because just planting four or five watermelon seeds in one hole may only give you one plant. And that one plant may not even weather the storms long enough to bear fruit.

As you know, even with the same amount of water and sunlight and care, not all seedlings will sprout. The ones that do sprout may not mature. The ones that mature may not flower. The ones that flower may not bear fruit. The ones that bear fruit may not bear enough fruit. Or quality fruit. But the hearty, plentiful ones that bear plenty of quality fruit, those are the ones that truly nourish, right? And nourishment is what every soul needs. So, you know you need to plant a lot of seeds in order to actually nourish yourself. And this is exactly what the higher selves are doing, although they are nourishing themselves with experience – physical experience. They try to nourish you as much as they can so that you will grow and mature and bear quality fruit so that you, in turn, can nourish them. But they know all too well that in order to get the plentiful quality fruit, they have to plant many, many seeds all at the same time.

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Ah, so, there you have it. They are not timeline whores after all. They are farmers!!! All kidding aside, no wonder we hear so much of this “harvesting” language all the time. Now my question is, should we really consider it such a negative thing? I mean, we’re here participating for the highest good of our higher selves. Shouldn’t we want to be the tallest and strongest vine or stalk bearing the most plentiful, nourishing sustenance for our souls? Shouldn’t we just follow the Divine guidance of our higher selves rather than constantly fight against the flow of the current just to satisfy the ego’s insistence for “free will?” Isn’t that, after all, what causes all the complications and drama in our lives? Or is that what makes it “interesting?”

I know some would argue that not exercising free will would make us “puppets,” but, at the same time, isn’t the whole idea of this “game” to ascend INTO our higher selves by becoming ONE with them? Would that really be such a BAD thing? To actually WIN the game by ascending into our higher selves with the Ego setting on DIFFICULT?

Let your HEART answer that question.

My Akashic Journey – Chapter Six – The Unexpected One


love vibrationsNot to be pious or anything, but I’m going to open this chapter with a quote. No, it’s not a Biblical quote, but as informal as my work has been up until now, this might feel a little… awkward. It came across my screen while I was pondering exactly how I was going to lay this out for you all, (and worrying about the ramifications) and it just felt like it was a bit of encouragement. So here it is…

“One of the most important of life´s lessons is to learn independence, to understand freedom. This means independence from attachments, from results, from opinions, and from expectations. Breaking attachments leads to freedom, but breaking attachments does not mean abandoning a loving and meaningful relationship, a relationship that nourishes your soul. It means ending dependency on any person or thing. Love is never a dependency.” ~ Brian L. Weiss

Breaking this down, the very first thing that stuck out as a message for me personally is the bit that says:

“This means independence from attachments, from results, from opinions, and from expectations.”

The first person I shared my 2006 DaVinci Code experience with was Ariel DeAngelis. I shared it with her on January 10th, 2013. Seven years later. Yes, for seven years I kept a secret about myself. I know that is hard to believe. Probably because it is still hard for me to believe, even thought I KNOW it to be true. This is a perfect example of the mind/ego ruling the heart and denying truth. We do this all the time, don’t we?

I can tell you right now why I never told a soul. Because NO ONE would believe me. Ever. And I figured if I told anyone, I’d find myself locked up in a padded cell for life. No need to sacrifice my “freedom” for truth. But this quote here reminded me that freedom is independence from results and opinions.

Now part of me is still wondering why it is even necessary to divulge this information. In service to self, it is small. There is nothing to gain from it personally. In service to others, it is huge. If only I could prove it, this information would free a LOT of people from the deception the church has held over them for the past 2013 years. (I don’t know why I was just prompted to write 2016, but I corrected it to 2013. I’m sure there is a reason.) If they wanted a reason to NOT believe anymore, that is. And that is where the rest of this quote really becomes powerful in persuading me to tell my truth…

“Breaking attachments leads to freedom, but breaking attachments does not mean abandoning a loving and meaningful relationship, a relationship that nourishes your soul. It means ending dependency on any person or thing. Love is never a dependency.”

This has SO MANY meanings, without a doubt. It is completely open for interpretation. But, because it rolled out in front of me on the screen of my laptop WHILE I was contemplating how… and why I should come out with this information, this is how I interpreted this particular message for myself…

So many people are attached to their religion. To the doctrine and the rhetoric of their religion. SO MANY people believe that Christ died for their sins. And that he resurrected. These people had a FIT when DaVinci Code came out and suggested that Christ was (ermagerd!!!) MARRIED and that his WIFE Mary Magdalene had a baby girl named Sarah. (Blasphemous!!!)

Is it, though? We can all agree that Jesus was born into Jewish culture, correct? And, in Jewish culture, it is pretty common for a man to have a wife (and sexual intercourse) and child, correct?

I’m not so sure why it is so unfathomable to some Christians that Jesus Christ possibly had sex with a woman he was married to and produced offspring, but it is perfectly okay to believe that he ran around in a robe and sandals with a bunch of dudes who professed their love for him, healed a blind man, walked on water and turned water into wine. Seriously???

Okay, it’s 2013… can we be a tiny bit realistic about this for once? Does having a wife really make Jesus less magical? Does it make him less likely to have been such a great teacher or prophet? What if he never really walked on water? Or turned water into wine? Or, how about this… what if he never resurrected? What if… he never even died on that cross? Does that negate the lessons he tried to teach us wayyyyy back then?

Isn’t it the message that’s important? That we’re ALL ONE? That we should love our neighbor and not judge others?

Ohh… THAT was the message?

You see, so many people are ATTACHED to the MAGIC and the GLORY. Especially the bit about him coming back to life for three days before ascending. Hmm. Really?

I was sort of digging the message much more. But, then again, most people remember Ozzy Osbourne more for biting the head off of a bat on stage than the lyrics to his music. Did he have anything profound to say? You see, I just don’t know, because the bat-beheading-with-teeth bit just turned me off so much I never bothered to listen. Now the guy is pretty much impossible to understand, anyway, so it just seems pointless to pay him any attention. And that’s probably not fair, given that it is an attachment opinion that I have to Ozzy, who I’m sure must be a decent guy if he could hook a woman as wonderful as Sharon. Just sayin’. Plus he has millions of fans who adore him. (In all fairness, the bat was thrown onstage by a fan who insisted it was dead. Ozzy thought it was a rubber bat, but when he bit it, the bat bit back, and Ozzy had to be treated for rabies. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ozzy_Osbourne.)

So where am I going with all of this? Well, it has a bit to do with service to others, although I don’t really know exactly how reliable my information can possibly be given that I am currently incarnate as a simple spiritualist with absolutely zero credibility in the religious and even spiritualist sector. I read Akashic Records for people. Sometimes I am dead-on accurate. Other times… maybe not so much. I humbly channel the wisdom of a Pleiadian being who calls himself Peter on occasion. Although I have been told by my Akashic Records that my purpose in this life is to reunite with my twin-flame soul mate and become post 2012 healers through “the vision plus the word,” and that the work I will be most known for is “Unity Consciousness,” I still have no real concept for what it all means. I can’t even successfully reunite with my twin-flame soul mate, so… obviously there is still a LOT of work to be done. And I don’t even know where to begin. It feels like it is all out of my hands. Everything is. I have no job. No income, other than unemployment benefits which are due to decrease soon and eventually run out. I can’t pay my mortgage this month. I know I can OPPT in to OPPT out of that, but it still feels like a bit of a tightrope walk. I keep saying out loud several times a day, “I don’t know what to do.”

All this time on my hands with nowhere to go and hardly anyone to talk to has forced me to remember who I am. To rewind and replay all the memories that led up to the DaVinci Code moment in 2006 that may help some people detach from the deceptive power and control the “church” has had over them all their lives. (And I say “lives” meaning more than ONE, although I know many Christians do not believe in reincarnation. Most believe they live only once and then go to either Heaven or Hell based on how well they allowed the church to control them and shake out every loose bit of change they had tucked away before they died.)

I feel like the little drummer boy. With no gift fit for a king, all he could offer was the beat of his drum to honor the baby Jesus. Well, to honor Jesus, the man and the teacher, and all of his TRUE followers who offer love and compassion and service to others WITHOUT tithing to ANY church, I offer my truth.

Notice I did not say STORY. Because STORY would imply FICTION. This is NOT fiction. This is the truth. And I offer it without any attachment to results or the opinions of others. I do this out of love. Love for the man and teacher who tried to tell us so many years ago that God/Source is not found in a church… that God is everywhere, in everything: “I am the light that shines over all things. I am everything. From me all came forth, and to me all return. Split a piece of wood, and I am there. Lift a stone, and you will find me there.” (Lost Gospel of Thomas.) And I do this out of love for myself, so that I can be free and independent from attachment. For it is true that love is not attachment. Love is a vibration. And the only way we can raise our vibrations is to free ourselves by sharing our truth and love through service to others. I tell this truth so that you, too, can be free from all of the deception and power and control of the very religions that took the teachings of Jesus Christ and twisted them into a reversal that had you believing the opposite of what he taught in order to gain profit for themselves and their cults.

Rewind.

November 2006. DaVinci Code had just been released on DVD. At the time, I was living with my life partner of six years, a United Church of Christ pastor who had taught me more about religion, the Bible and Christianity than I ever cared to know.

I grew up unchurched. No one taught me anything about God or Jesus. I started reading Genesis in our family Bible at the age of eight. After reading three different creation stories I told my mom, “This book is too contradictory! I’m done reading this crap!”

Why I even picked it up to read it is beyond me. Maybe it was because a long-haired bearded man kept appearing to me when I was exploring the woods alone. I never told anyone about him because he was kind of huge and floated up near the tree tops and no one would believe me.

Anyway… DaVinci Code. Yeah. The book had caused a major uproar all across the country. My life-partner hosted a book study on it at our church, but those things always turned out to be a bunch of drama if I attended because I had some very stiff opinions about “The Bible” that I was not afraid to voice, and I always ended up getting lambasted for my “comments.” So, needless to say, I declined the invitation to attend. I also refused to read the book. We had already watched every docudrama produced about it. I really didn’t need to waste time reading it. So, when the life-partner brought home the DVD and asked if I would watch it with her I yawned and said “sure.” I could always accidentally fall asleep.

Surprisingly, that didn’t happen. Even more surprisingly, as the story came to a close at the Rosslyn Chapel in Scotland, I felt the presence of an enormous energy in the room. My own “keepers” had entered my space with a message delivered by a warm, gentle man’s voice who told me “Yes, Jesus really did have a wife named Mary Magdalene, and yes, they really had a baby named Sarah. And YOU were that baby, Jennifer.”

But, before he even said it, I already knew it. And, as quickly as I knew it, I shoved it all away and denied it. “That’s a bunch of shit,” I found myself telepathically telling this huge, loving energy that had entered my living room.

And I never thought about it again. Until 2008, when I watched the movie with my friend Alex. Again, I got the same feeling, although the energy present was nowhere near as enormous. It was just a “friendly reminder” presence. To which I just simply said, “No!”

Fast Forward.

I never thought about it again until January 10, 2013 when it popped up out of the blue as a possible topic to take up telepathically with Ariel DeAngelis. But I didn’t. Instead, I wrote to her about it. And, like I said before, she is the first person I ever told. Her response to me was:

“Well, Sarah 😉 (in case you hadn’t guessed I’m getting a VERY strong affirmative on that one too!!)”

After reading this, I felt as if my heart had leaped right out of my chest, I was so overjoyed with the affirmation. I felt a tremendous upsurge of energy that felt like I could almost fly. And then there was this enormous presence in the room. I mean, huger than huge. The largest, warmest, most loving presence I have ever felt in my entire life. My dogs began stirring and whining to go outside, so I got up from the couch and walked through the dark kitchen. The overhead lights and countertop outlets had mysteriously stopped working and had been dead for at least two weeks. My tenant John and I had checked all the breakers and reset every single one – three times – in effort to restore power, but to no avail. As I was walking through, I flipped the overhead switch out of habit, AND… the lights mysteriously came ON for the first time in two weeks. I was startled at first, and then elated. And then it came… as predictable and cliché as ever… the familiar male voice from my childhood woods stomping grounds… “Let there be light!” and then a warm chuckle.

I laughed. And laughed. And laughed some more. What else can you do in a moment like this? Okay, maybe I cried, too. A little. His energy was like nothing I have ever felt before in my life. It’s indescribable. It’s like being swaddled in the warmest, softest blanket imaginable and gently and lovingly rocked into your deepest relaxed state before sleep. Not that you’d want to sleep, of course, because his energy is just too cheerful and charming to snooze through.

We had a nice father/daughter chat. I asked him many, many questions. One of my most favorite things about him is his sense of humor. Yes. Jesus has an amazing sense of humor! I bet you didn’t know that. I bet you never even DREAMED that. Neither did I. Of course, I am sure that with me he feels he can be far more candid than he can with someone like John Smallman. Which was one of my questions.

“Are you really talking to Smallman?”

“Yes, dear. I am.”

Good. So there you go. Naysayers begone.

One of my favorite things that he said to me was, “So… how did you like me when I was John Lennon?”

I KNEW IT!!!

My other favorite was when I asked, “Soo… should I call you dad?”

“Nah. Too stuffy. How about Jesus Daddy-O? Far more hip, dontcha think?”

So Jesus Daddy-O it is. But that is just between me and him. I really probably shouldn’t be sharing this, but… after 2013 (16?) years… it’s about time you knew that he DOES have a lighter side.

Now, unless instructed, I am NOT going to start channeling Jesus. That is John Smallman’s gig. I am also not going to answer questions about Jesus. Or ask him questions for you. This is not why I am sharing any of this with you. I am sharing this simply to allow people to free themselves from the deception of the church.

I asked him if he died on the cross. He said no, he did not. I asked him if he was ever ON a cross. Again, NO, he was never nailed to a cross. He was exiled and moved with Mary Magdalene and a number of others (disciples – more than just the 12) to France where he lived another 30 years and died in his late 60s of natural causes. This is as detailed as I am going to get with this. That is all I feel (at this time) anyone needs to know.

I just asked him if there is anything he wants to say to the people in his own words in this chapter. He said no. I asked him if he wants people to be free from the church. He said yes. And I do believe that is the only message I am here to carry out, other than whatever it is I am supposed to do in the future with my post-2012 healing work with my twin-flame soul mate and Unity Consciousness. When I figure it out, hopefully with the help of my higher guidance, I will let you all know.

Until then, I wish all of you joy, love, freedom and independence from attachment!

As promised, here is my Akashic Reading on this subject:

In 2006, while watching the movie DaVinci Code, I felt a presence of several friendly beings fill the room. I was told that it is true that Jesus and Mary Magdalene were married and had a baby named Sarah and that I (my higher self) was that baby. What can you tell me about this?

Welcome, brave soul. We applaud and admire your courage. We thought this day would never come, but we are very happy that it has. Yes, it is true that Jesus and Mary Magdalene were married and that your higher self (soul/light being) incarnated as their daughter, Sarah. You grew up in France, surrounded by very highly spiritual people under very loving influences. It was a happy life, although very sheltered. Jesus had been exiled for his teachings, and there were some who truly did want to kill him. So you lived a very quiet life in France. As you grew older, Luke, your twin-flame soul mate (yes, the one in the Bible who wrote the letters to Paul) made you his wife, and you had two children. The history books tell many different tales about Luke, and, as you can research for yourself, the details are all over the map. He was an artist and a disciple (follower) and apostle (teacher) of Jesus, even though history writes him as an apostle of Paul. It’s all far more simple than “history” makes it out to be, you see. Yes, you had a sort of commune-type living in France, but for good reason. It was more about lying low for survival’s sake, but it was pleasant and serene.

I feel part of my purpose in this life is to share this truth – that Jesus and Mary Magdalene WERE married and did have a child and that Jesus was never crucified on the cross. I know this will cause me a great deal of trouble and more grief than I have already experienced, but I feel it is important to share this truth to help free those who have been taken advantage of by the church for so many centuries. I don’t wish to cause trouble. Only to help heal. How can I do this with the least amount of harm and harassment to myself?

You’re doing it. You’ve written your truth. Now you publish it, and you move on. The next big thing is around the corner. (Word count at the end of this sentence: 3,333.)

Honoring my Twin Flame


Look at that love.

It was five years ago today, on May 5, 2007, that I met my twin flame soul mate. A blinding light flashed when our eyes first met, and I immediately knew this was a sign. The short time we spent together was amazing — the highest vibrations I’ve ever experienced with another being–and our chemistry was out of this world. Losing her felt like dying, but the loss changed my life in so many positive ways.

If I had not lost her,  I probably would have never walked my spiritual path, and I would have never discovered the Akashic records, where I learned more about our other lives and our mission together in this current life. As members of the Pleiadian Ring of 500, we have loved and lost each other so many times in the linear, physical world, sacrificing our spiritual bond to help teach those around us what unconditional love truly is and that true love has no boundaries.

For this experience, we (our higher selves) have agreed to come back together to combine our creative talents and twin flame energies to help raise the vibrations on this planet for the greater good of Mother Earth and the collective. So today, on this 5-5-5 Supermoon Saturday, World Liberation Day, I honor the fifth-year anniversary of meeting my twin flame — the greatest love of all. If you can spare a moment on this day of the supermoon energies, I ask, if you would be so kind, to please envision the two of us reunited for the greater good and doing our work together as post-2012 healers (as stated by my Akashic Records).

Thank you all from the bottom of my heart! Let’s remember to focus on the positive today and envision the kind of world in which we wish to live. I will be envisioning global peace, freedom, abundance and unconditional love for all. Here’s to World Liberation and our ONENESS.

Peace. Love. And light.

My Akashic Journey – Chapter Four – One Powerful Connection


How do you know you have a very powerful twin-flame connection in a dualistic universe? When others are constantly getting in the way and making low-down dirty attempts to keep you apart.

Playing with fire.

When people will say anything and do anything — cross ethical and spiritual boundaries, even — to make sure you and your twin flame will never, ever reunite, you know you have a very powerful connection. One that endures all the adversity. One that laughs in the face of these petty little pawns and rooks who think they can somehow undo the connection or diminish the power with futile schemes and manipulative games.

Word to the wise ass: never, EVER fuck with incarnate twin flames. Or you will, undoubtedly, suffer third-degree burns.

Red-hot spiritual agenda.

Twin flame soul mates don’t incarnate together to have a hot and steamy love affair or the ultimate romantic relationship. They have been together for eons. Yes, they have a very deep, emotional soul connection, but it’s more than just that, even. They’re here with an agenda. A spiritual agenda. One that tests traditions and blasts social boundaries to smithereens. One that challenges humanity to expand their comfort zones and open their hearts.

For my twin flame and me, our agenda has always been to challenge social norms in the relationship department. In other lives, we’ve been interracial couples and same-sex lovers. And yes, we’ve even died for our cause. My twin flame and I have been murdered numerous times for our “forbidden love.” But when one is left incarnate to mourn the loss, we’ve never lost our connection. Through all the pain and turmoil, we are still bound, eternally and faithfully, by an undying, unconditional love. That is our promise to one another as light beings and physical beings. We are attached by silver cords and gold cords that can never be severed. Believe me. I know. I have tried.

Now why would I want to do that, you ask? Well, until I understood these cords could never be cut, I thought I could ceremoniously sever the energetic cords that bound us to stop the deep, constant pain of being separate. A spirit guide then approached and said, “No. Stop trying. It cannot be done.” And that’s when I learned of the silver (past life) and gold (spiritual attainment) cords that bind us as soul mates. And, still later, I learned we’re not just soul mates, but twin-flame soul mates, which is even more powerful.

Scorching synchronicity.

Just how powerful is this connection? Imagine every place you go, you get a synchronistic reminder. Maybe, as your mind wanders over memories of times you spent together while you’re driving somewhere, a song from that exact time (four years ago) suddenly plays on your favorite Top 40 radio station, and a car just like your twin flame’s pulls out in front of you or is driving toward you. It could be as subtle as that. Or it could be way more “in your face.”

For example, when I was dating someone new, who actually knew my twin flame and the make, model and color of the car she drove, we were both a bit freaked out when we walked back to her truck to find the same make, model and color car parked next to hers, TWICE, in two different locations ON THE SAME NIGHT. After that, whenever we were together, we saw at least one car exactly like my twin flame’s either on the road or in parking lots.

I began to notice that any time I was dating someone, even though my twin flame and I had been separated for quite some time, that these type of synchronicities — from songs to similar cars to initials on license plates and logos that reminded me of her — would dramatically increase,  along with dreams of her, telepathic conversations with her, and sometimes even astral body contact. Of course, nobody believes me, but it all happened. Sometimes even with eye witnesses who would then turn to me in disbelief and say, “My god, she still loves you.”

Just a heartbeat away.

I couldn’t deny that SOMEthing was still there. Whether it was love or just energy, I didn’t know. As cool as it was, it also sometimes felt like torture. I finally decided I needed to ask my Akashic Records about it. This is how the session went on Sunday, January 24, 2010:

Where does the energy come from that creates the synchronicities that remind me of my twin flame when I’m dating or with someone else?

The energy comes from her and your connection to her. It is sparked by thought — jealousy, rage, the desire for power and control. When your twin flame thinks of you with someone else, she wants you to remember her. To think ONLY of HER. She sends out thought patterns that create the synchronicities. It’s a form of psychic vampire-ness. When you are with someone else, it is more prevalent because the thoughts of you with someone else are torturing her mind. When you are not with someone, she relaxes and the patterns slow, so it is just telepathy you share.

So she creates these things with her mind alone?

Yes.

What are the things I am seeing and hearing — are they really taking place, or are they holograms?

Holograms? No. These things actually manifest. If they were holograms, your friends would not be able to see them.

How does my twin flame actually have the power to manifest these things into reality?

She is powerful. She will get what she wants. That is not to say she goes about it in the right or appropriate way. She has tons of magic up her sleeve. This is why she gets the women and keeps them attracted to her. She is enjoying the power trip. This is why you need to stay quiet.

Stay quiet with the telepathy, too?

Not necessarily. The telepathy being exchanged is with her higher self. It is better for you to communicate with her this way than in the physical. Keep her ego out of it. She is on an ego trip when she does these things.

Is she aware that she is doing it?

She is aware of what she wishes, but she can’t possibly know the results.

So, if I were not connected to her, then I would probably not experience the synchronicities?

True. Correct. Your connection to her is not one that can be closed or cut off, however. You are connected by silver cords and gold cords that keep your souls connected, always/forever.

What about the astral travel? Is that real?

Between the two of you? Of course. You’re travelers, and this is something the two of you do well together. It is why she equates to Superman — all the flying dreams she has. They are not dreams. They are actually journeys your souls take together when your astral bodies are free from ego. But this is why she identifies with Superman. The flying. The two of you have been doing this together for many, many eons — in and out of physical incarnation. It is what you will do together when you reunite, too. In many aspects, your souls will “fly.”

Why can I not feel her as strongly or see her astral body like I used to?

Her energy has been weakened by stress, prescription pain medications and sleep aids. They’re weighing her down. It will change when you’re back together. Healing will take place and medications will no longer be needed.

How can I believe in the telepathic messages she sends me when she says one thing and shows another?

You are connected to her higher self. The lower self is the one who is doing the opposite of what her higher self is saying to you.

Will they ever merge and be the same person?

Yes, of course. This is what you’re all striving for. It’s in that final lesson she will learn from the spell-caster’s descendent that she will find her higher self. You have no reason to doubt or be disappointed.

How will I ever be able to date or have a relationship with anyone without my twin flame’s energy interfering?

Why would you want to when you love her? When your heart is WITH HER?

Because I’m still not sure WHEN she’ll come around.

She’ll come around soon enough that you don’t need to worry about dating anyone else.

But I’m lonely.

How? She is right there, always a breath away. Just a heartbeat away. You will notice when she’s there with you. You hear a double heartbeat. That is her. Right there with you. There is no reason to doubt. She’s always been there. Even before you knew her or she knew you in this life. You are twin soul mates. It is like you are sharing the same womb.

So it is okay for me to continue assuring her I love her?

Absolutely! That’s what we mean by “holding the light.” She comes to you because she is seeking to be with you.

Even though she’s with someone else?

Yes. We told you. This woman she is with is nothing. Not a threat. Just a pawn. Your twin flame’s lower and higher selves both want you. That is their common bond. Her energy will never leave you. Not even in death. She wants to be with you. She tells you that over and over again. Do us ALL a favor and BELIEVE her. She travels to you every night to be with you — even when she is laying next to that other woman. Her heart is with YOU. Her soul is with YOU. Her BODY is misplaced at the moment, but will soon follow her heart and soul. No worries. When the time is right, she will return.

I have more questions about the synchronicities she manifests into reality. Is she literally thinking, “Make her see a car like mine,” or “Play this song on the radio now?” Is that how it works?

No. Not exactly. She might picture something in her mind, like driving past you. Or she may be thinking of a song that she wants you to hear, or even just thinking of a song that reminds her how she feels about you or the situation, and then it will play for you.

Resistance is futile.

Although part of me wants to chalk all this up to coincidence or “just my imagination,” the simple truth of the matter is that it’s not. All of this is really happening, and still happening, on a very regular basis. As much as I would like to walk away from it all, and just start a brand new life in a new town where no one knows me at all, I know in my heart the efforts would not change anything. This is why I choose to believe…and trust…and continue to have faith that one day we will be together again. Until then, the situation just really sucks. Well, for me anyway. Especially with all the games being played by manipulative souls who haven’t a clue what they’re dealing with. I know my lesson to learn is to not let ego freak out about these games, but, of course, being human in 3D density makes that a bit difficult 99 percent of the time. I suppose the day that I can observe another attempt by a dark soul to keep us apart and not react to it or worry about it will be the day that I graduate — in faith — to the next level. Believe me, I am looking forward to that day.

My Akashic Journey – Chapter Three – Reversing the Curse


Reversing a curse is no small task. And one of this magnitude, that has affected generations of families for over a century and requires what seems like a miracle to lift it…wow. I just don’t even know what to say about it, to be honest. Why I would get involved with something like this is beyond me. All I can say is that my higher self must be one tough, badass bitch who doesn’t back down or take no for an answer. Especially when I just have to sit here and watch it all play out.

In it to win it

Oh, you don’t know how many times I have quit. I’ve screamed. I’ve cursed. I’ve beat myself up. I’ve even hated myself for this. I’ve begged for an early exit. Beam me up. Let me go! I just can’t DO this anymore. It is NOT AT ALL easy. But I know I have to stay here and see it through. I have to somehow hold light. Send light. Forget the pain of it all as I wait…wait…wait…and wait some more. And fucking BELIEVE. Yeah. BELIEVE in her…somehow…some way…I still have to trust and believe. Even though everything I SEE does not jive with what my records say.  It’s gut wrenching. It’s heart wrenching. At times, it’s even faith wrenching.

I’m no Jedi. And even Luke Skywalker had doubts, right? Even after Yoda raised his ship out of the swamp, Skywalker said: “I don’t believe it.”

And Yoda said: “That is why you fail.”

So, yes, I must continue to believe in my twin flame. I must continue to have faith she will follow through. That is my role in this soul contract. Fortunately, with the combined strength of the Akashic Records, supportive lightworker friends, and shifting energies, my role is becoming easier these days.

Once more, with purpose

More and more of my surrounding friends understand that we are here to clean up this planet. Not just the physical damage to mother Earth, but the energetic pollution as well. That is why it is so important for my twin flame and I, with a little bit of help from the spell-caster descendant, to reverse this curse.

If you think of the planet as one huge mansion that needs a cleaning that no one team or crew can handle on their own, then you understand the importance that each individual cleans his or her own room, while we come together to clean the common areas. It’s, like, okay, you vacuum the floors, then I’ll mop, and our friend, here, will dust. Make sense? That’s why we have these soul groups with contracts. We accepted the responsibility to clean our specific wing.

Perhaps we were never connected to the families we chose to help with this particular cleanup, but we volunteered, nonetheless. We didn’t count on it being such a dirty job. And that’s just it. When we’re light beings, we’re all knowing. We’re clear on every role we’ve ever played since we began incarnating on this planet. And we’re born knowing, too. But the density of this 3D world makes us quickly forget. We always think it will be SO EASY. But it never is. And we have to find our way…over and over again.

Stop thinking; start feeling.

Fortunately, we’re all born with an internal compass. Our heart. And I’m not talking about the organ in our chest that pumps blood. I’m talking about our energetic heart chakra. The heart of our soul. Now, if we could just STOP THINKING and rely on our hearts, we would all be on our well-lighted spiritual paths.

And that’s ALL it’s going to take to reverse this curse. At least, that is what my Akashic Records say. Repeatedly. Check it out:

Akashic Record Journal Entry February 10, 2010

What is the final lesson my twin flame needs to learn from the descendant of the spell casters?

The lesson she is to learn is not complex. It is a simple one, indeed. It is her lower self that is making this lesson difficult. Logic is getting in the way of the heart. She is not following her heart. She is afraid to follow her heart.

So the lesson she needs to learn is to follow her heart and not her head?

Exactly.

How can we ever get her to do that?

“WE” cannot. It has to be her own realization. Her own desire. She has to find her own way.

How, though? What needs to happen for her to realize this?

Once again, she will suffer great loss. That is what it takes for people to finally wake up. It takes great loss for people to have a new outlook on life — to appreciate it more — to try to find meaning in it all.

Akashic Record Journal Entry April 7, 2o10

What is my twin flame’s purpose to the descendant of the spell casters?

To provide her with the opportunity to teach your twin flame the lesson she needs to learn to release the Karmic debt for the spell caster family.

What is the lesson she will teach my twin flame?

To follow her heart — back to you.

How will that help release the spell-caster family’s Karmic debt?

The spell-caster family will finally be sending the Freer family LOVE instead of darkness and hate. This act — this sacrifice — releases the curse.

So the spell-caster descendant must have entered this soul contract with us, is that correct?

She did. She agreed to it.

So it is all predetermined?

Yes.

Any of us could opt out at any time, though, correct?

Deal breakers will only cause more pain, trouble, darkness and despair.

What can I do to ensure this all comes through as planned?

Have faith and hold the light for your twin flame. And her girlfriend. Trust that they will follow through. Keep talking to your twin flame. You both have this telepathic gift for a reason.

But only her higher self hears me.

It all downloads eventually. The stronger and more frequent the communication, the faster it will download. Things will all work out. She hears you. She just thinks it’s her imagination right now.

How can I convince her otherwise?

Strong, frequent communication. Send the thoughts. Send the light. Keep talking to her.

What do I tell her?

That you understand why she’s with the spell-caster family’s descendant. That you know it’s all part of the plan. That you trust her. That you love her. That you know she will return when the time is right. She needs this reassurance. She needs to know you believe in her. You can’t be angry at her for this. You have to let go of the anger and the hurt. This is what you all agreed to. Accept it. She’ll be back.

You have work to do together. Remember that. This blissful reunion between you and your twin flame will provide you with the power to be the word + the vision. Never forget that. It is YOUR purpose, once the two of you are together.

More on this word + vision business

Friday, January 22, 2010

Why would my twin flame return to me?

You’re stable. That’s what she needs in a relationship. In a partnership. Stability. You will nurture her. You will help her grow. The spell-caster descendant cannot help her do that. Not spiritually. And this is where we need you — where the Universe needs you — to help your twin flame grow spiritually so the two of you can fulfill your prophecy together.

What is our prophecy?

The spiritual truth. The word + the vision. That is you and her. You are the word. She is the vision.

Okay, but what are we to do, exactly?

Words + Vision = Truth. The Cancer and the Aquarian. She needs you. You are her Mary Magdalene.

[Author’s note: I know, I know. Insert SNORT, here. Eye rolls. I did the same thing. Ugh, puhleeeze! This is what prompted my next sarcastic question…]

And she is Jesus? [Eye rolls]

Something like that.

The Age of Aquarius? The New Age. Is she the Moses/Jesus of the New Age? [Author’s note: I later learned this is also known as the era of “Christ consciousness,” which is for all of us to obtain, not just a select few. It IS a matter of choice, however. And, no, you don’t have to be “Christian” or belong to a “Christian” church to
obtain it.]

You both are. You both will be. Leaders of the New Age.

But we’re such peons.

No. Not even close. Royalty. Light royalty. Remember, Jesus was the son of a carpenter and a carpenter himself. He was a simple man who taught the simple truth. You are the teacher. She is the illustrator. Together, your message will reach MILLIONS. You cannot do this without each other. You NEED each other.

What if she doesn’t believe it?

You’re not the one who will convince her. Remember, we told you, this isn’t your fight. She will come around when she is ready.

Well, she did say years ago that we would make a great team.

As business partners. This is so much more than that. This is global, New Age stuff. This is the ESSENCE of what 2012 is all about.

Quitters never win. Winners never quit.

I know people will read this and think, “She’s out of her mind! Call the little white truck.”

That’s okay. Won’t be the first time folks have said this about me. What’s important now is that I’m surrounded by true friends who say, “Makes sense to me! What can I do to help?”

My response: Don’t let me give up.

I came here with a purpose. I remember who I am. I know who my twin flame is. I know what kind of power we possess when we are united. We are magical. And together we can help heal the world. Pray for us to reunite, and we will show you.

My Akashic Journey – Chapter Two – The Family Feud


Awakening to purpose

I quickly discovered that opening the spiritual door is like opening a dam. Holy shit! Talk about a floodgate of information. I’ve always had a very strong sense of clairaudience, which Merriam-Webster defines as: the power or faculty of hearing something not present to the ear but regarded as having objective reality.

I’ve been hearing spirits, guides, angels, etc., all my life. Kind of creepy at times, but I’m used to it these days, and I’ve learned it’s usually just a spirit asking for acknowledgment or help. Sometimes I acknowledge them. Sometimes I don’t. It all depends on their attitude. If they are dark or negative, I burn a little white copal, and call in Archangel Michael to assist. If it’s something I feel I can handle on my own, I engage in conversation. After all, it’s what I’m here to do, and I accept that now, with a sense of duty.

Despite being used to “hearing the call,” so to speak, I was still surprised on January 20, 2010, when the Akashic Records summoned ME.

Hearing the call

It was a day like too many before it. I woke sometime around 9 AM, and leisurely surfed the ‘net while I sipped my morning coffee until I was motivated to make myself breakfast. Ah, the life of being unemployed. While standing at the kitchen sink, a thought crossed my mind about the hometown of my twin flame’s new girlfriend. It was the same as my father’s, and most people usually claimed the closest larger city as their hometown rather than this tiny little burg. It made me wonder…and as soon as I started to, I heard the clippity-clop of horseshoes and the rattle of the antique wheels of a horse-drawn wagon. Black and white images of a pre-automobile era flooded my minds eye. What the — ?

“Open your records, and we will fill you in,” a familiar voice of the Akashic Records said.

Wow, I thought. They don’t mess around!

Disclaimer

I could go on and on here about my beliefs and doubts regarding spells and curses and black magic to try to save face and credibility and all that, but, you know what? After years of being made fun of and laughed at…I really don’t give a fuck what anyone thinks of me anymore. I’ve experienced enough darkness in my life to know that negative energy DOES exist, and whether it was created by a spell, hex, curse, or powerful ill wishing doesn’t matter. The simple truth is that we are ALL made up of both light and dark energy. We may gravitate toward one or the other from life to life, depending on the circumstances and our soul contracts before we incarnated. It’s almost like choosing your character before starting one of those quest games — whether it’s a video or board game, they’re all kind of similar. You choose your characteristics — strengths, weaknesses, powers — and you play a role. And, once you’re in the game…shit happens, right? So let’s just look at it that way.

We all know that the current era we’ve been living in is one of polarity. Duality. Light versus dark. And some may even say positive versus negative. Fine. There are others out there who say there is neither good nor bad, only light or dark, love or fear. That’s a nice, neutral way of looking at it. If you can stay neutral in the density of duality, that is. Most of us living in the 3D world find this difficult. We want to take sides. Let me say this right now: I’m not asking you to. I am simply sharing the information provided to me by my Akashic records regarding these two families my soul group and I came here to assist. Not so much to save the families from the darkness that plagues them, but more so to clean up the negative energy emanating from them that is polluting the planet. There are huge crews of lightworkers here on Earth at the moment who have committed to do just that — transmute dark energy to light. The key point to remember here is that no one is going to do it for us. WE have to remember who we are, why we’re here, and follow through in cleaning up the manmade messes we promised, as light beings, to purify so that we can move into the new era all shiny and squeaky clean.

Okay, hopping off my soapbox now. On with My Akashic Journey…

Forgive them; they know not what they do

Here is how the reading began (I have replaced the name of the actual black magic family with “spell casters” and the name of my twin flame with “twin flame”)…

Akashic Records journal entry date: January 20, 2010

Okay, so you have summoned me to open my records today. Can you please tell me why?

There is nothing to fear. You are a seeker of truth. We know you can handle this, as you have always KNOWN the truth. Yes, the Freer side of your family has been under a curse. A curse that goes back to your great grandfather on the Freer side of the family. Your mother mentioned this curse to your empath coach Michael.

[Author’s note: In the summer of 2009, I began working with an empath coach. Before our sessions he would go into deep trance to access information about what energies I needed to clear. In one particular session, he surprised me by saying that my mother (in spirit at the time) contacted him and told him about this dark, negative energy that had plagued my father’s side of the family for generations and caused great depression among all the descendants of that particular couple. It was unknown, at that time, where the energy originated, but Michael said it was through no fault of their own.]

The Freer family had great pride in themselves. The spell-caster family did not. They go back with roots and ties in and around your father’s hometown. This is a Pagan/Christian war, yes. But it’s deeper than that. There was conflict between the two families. The great grandfathers. Over land and horses. The Freers spit on the spell casters for their refusal to believe in God. The spell casters did not believe in God. They believed in witchcraft. The dark kind. How do you think they got their name? This is why we told you that your twin flame’s girlfriend was dark. She comes from a long line of darkness. Black magic. Your twin flame is in danger.

How do I help her?

You can’t. This is NOT YOUR FIGHT. This is your twin flame’s fight.

You will win because you believe in God, a higher power, and the light. You are OF the light. You have battled your family curse and won. You have broken the spell against you cast by the dark family through the help of Michael. Be grateful for Michael. He DID help you. He will continue to help you by holding you in prayer.

A psychic friend recently told me “Things are not as they seem regarding your beliefs.” What did that mean, exactly?

It meant that she doesn’t know anything about you. You were shielded by the light so she could not look inside. You are a tough one for psychics to read because you are so guarded. By royalty. AS royalty. Light royalty. A long line of lightworker descendants. Your Uncle Clare, he recognized himself as a lightworker. He was the only one who got close to breaking the spell. He recognized it in you, too. Your Uncle Jim saw it, too, at your mom’s funeral. The ones in the Freer family who mock are still afflicted by the curse and the darkness.

So what does ANY of this have to do with my twin flame being with this spell-caster descendant? I mean, if the curse was broken…why would my twin flame get into a relationship with her?

This is Universal Karmic payback to the spell-caster family.

Something doesn’t feel right about this.

The records are open, and this is truth.

Why am I feeling discomfort in my heart chakra?

It’s a lot to take in. That is why we are trying to simplify it; to avoid the massive discomfort information like this can sometimes create. It is never fun to learn of family disputes, feuds, wars, and curses. There is some residual negativity floating around — hooks in your aura from the pain the curse has caused and also the pain of your twin flame being with the dark one. For now. It’s not forever; it will only last as long as your twin flame allows darkness to overcome her.

Does my twin flame’s girlfriend know about this feud/”curse?”

No. It died with her great grandmother. The spell casters were younger than your great grandparents. A foolish young couple playing with witchcraft fire. They did not understand how their actions would affect generations of descendants with this powerful curse. You’ve known about the curse for quite some time now. You joked, but deep down, you knew it was true. The spell casters hold a powerful dark energy. Freers were of the light, but shrouded in darkness until now. Your willingness to be born into and fight for this family has brought great light. First you fought the battle withIN the family. Then you fought the battle AGAINST the family — with the help of your mother and Michael. Saint Paul. Look him up. He once was on the dark side and moved to the light. Saint Paul is not a reference to your brother — it’s you. You moved the family from the dark to the light by lifting the curse. With the assistance of your mom and Michael. You’re a lightworker soul who accepted this challenge for the greater good. Not just for your own soul, but for the family. This is why you are light royalty. You will be rewarded for it — after Karmic Justice is served.

Your twin flame accepted this challenge, too, because she, too, is a lightworker soul. She knows her assignment, and it is a safe one for her to complete now that the Karmic energy has been released. She will not incur Karmic debt.

This could have been accomplished as early as January of 2000 — ten years ago [when Archangel Zadkiel said Karma had been lifted from the planet].

There was still too much residual Karma floating around. It wasn’t safe or wise at the time.

So will my twin flame hurt the spell-caster descendant?

No. She will learn her last lesson FROM the spell-caster descendant.

I guess I don’t understand how that will serve Karmic Justice. Can you explain it to me?

All souls are working together to push each other closer to the light. The spell-caster family owes you. The spell-caster descendant will teach your twin flame her last lesson that will send her home to you. Remember, this is not your fight. Just hold the light.

Wrestling with the dark

As you can see, it’s been nearly a year since that reading. While I’ve been trying my damnedest to “just hold the light,” it hasn’t been easy. Not in this dense, 3D environment where it seems darkness is growing ever more vicious as we lightworkers wrestle in vain to illuminate the planet with love and light through forgiveness, prayer, faith, hope and optimistic affirmations.

Many times I have felt like just giving up. My twin flame is still stuck in her patterns, and I cannot break through due to the rule that I am not allowed to contact her. It feels much like being bound and gagged while I watch her being tortured. I am powerless, and I often wonder, WHY did I choose this? I came here with a Karmic balance of zero. No debt at all. She came with a heavy load. I did not have to incarnate, but we chose to do this thing together, to allow her the chance to pay her Karmic debts and to assist in the cleansing of the planet and reuniting our twin-flame soul-mate energy to help raise the vibrations for the new era and help heal those who find this awakening painful.

New age spiritualists and channelers say that, with this flood of new energy that has showered our planet through the 11.11.11 and 12.12.11 portals, we will ALL begin to awaken and remember who we are, who we’ve been, and why we are here. I have awakened early to be a “wayshower” for those who are just now beginning to rouse. Don’t hate. It’s no easy job. But I chose to do it, before I ever incarnated, and I am a keeper of my word, so I will honor it by holding light and love and faith that we will ALL follow through with our promises.