Not to be pious or anything, but I’m going to open this chapter with a quote. No, it’s not a Biblical quote, but as informal as my work has been up until now, this might feel a little… awkward. It came across my screen while I was pondering exactly how I was going to lay this out for you all, (and worrying about the ramifications) and it just felt like it was a bit of encouragement. So here it is…
“One of the most important of life´s lessons is to learn independence, to understand freedom. This means independence from attachments, from results, from opinions, and from expectations. Breaking attachments leads to freedom, but breaking attachments does not mean abandoning a loving and meaningful relationship, a relationship that nourishes your soul. It means ending dependency on any person or thing. Love is never a dependency.” ~ Brian L. Weiss
Breaking this down, the very first thing that stuck out as a message for me personally is the bit that says:
“This means independence from attachments, from results, from opinions, and from expectations.”
The first person I shared my 2006 DaVinci Code experience with was Ariel DeAngelis. I shared it with her on January 10th, 2013. Seven years later. Yes, for seven years I kept a secret about myself. I know that is hard to believe. Probably because it is still hard for me to believe, even thought I KNOW it to be true. This is a perfect example of the mind/ego ruling the heart and denying truth. We do this all the time, don’t we?
I can tell you right now why I never told a soul. Because NO ONE would believe me. Ever. And I figured if I told anyone, I’d find myself locked up in a padded cell for life. No need to sacrifice my “freedom” for truth. But this quote here reminded me that freedom is independence from results and opinions.
Now part of me is still wondering why it is even necessary to divulge this information. In service to self, it is small. There is nothing to gain from it personally. In service to others, it is huge. If only I could prove it, this information would free a LOT of people from the deception the church has held over them for the past 2013 years. (I don’t know why I was just prompted to write 2016, but I corrected it to 2013. I’m sure there is a reason.) If they wanted a reason to NOT believe anymore, that is. And that is where the rest of this quote really becomes powerful in persuading me to tell my truth…
“Breaking attachments leads to freedom, but breaking attachments does not mean abandoning a loving and meaningful relationship, a relationship that nourishes your soul. It means ending dependency on any person or thing. Love is never a dependency.”
This has SO MANY meanings, without a doubt. It is completely open for interpretation. But, because it rolled out in front of me on the screen of my laptop WHILE I was contemplating how… and why I should come out with this information, this is how I interpreted this particular message for myself…
So many people are attached to their religion. To the doctrine and the rhetoric of their religion. SO MANY people believe that Christ died for their sins. And that he resurrected. These people had a FIT when DaVinci Code came out and suggested that Christ was (ermagerd!!!) MARRIED and that his WIFE Mary Magdalene had a baby girl named Sarah. (Blasphemous!!!)
Is it, though? We can all agree that Jesus was born into Jewish culture, correct? And, in Jewish culture, it is pretty common for a man to have a wife (and sexual intercourse) and child, correct?
I’m not so sure why it is so unfathomable to some Christians that Jesus Christ possibly had sex with a woman he was married to and produced offspring, but it is perfectly okay to believe that he ran around in a robe and sandals with a bunch of dudes who professed their love for him, healed a blind man, walked on water and turned water into wine. Seriously???
Okay, it’s 2013… can we be a tiny bit realistic about this for once? Does having a wife really make Jesus less magical? Does it make him less likely to have been such a great teacher or prophet? What if he never really walked on water? Or turned water into wine? Or, how about this… what if he never resurrected? What if… he never even died on that cross? Does that negate the lessons he tried to teach us wayyyyy back then?
Isn’t it the message that’s important? That we’re ALL ONE? That we should love our neighbor and not judge others?
Ohh… THAT was the message?
You see, so many people are ATTACHED to the MAGIC and the GLORY. Especially the bit about him coming back to life for three days before ascending. Hmm. Really?
I was sort of digging the message much more. But, then again, most people remember Ozzy Osbourne more for biting the head off of a bat on stage than the lyrics to his music. Did he have anything profound to say? You see, I just don’t know, because the bat-beheading-with-teeth bit just turned me off so much I never bothered to listen. Now the guy is pretty much impossible to understand, anyway, so it just seems pointless to pay him any attention. And that’s probably not fair, given that it is an attachment opinion that I have to Ozzy, who I’m sure must be a decent guy if he could hook a woman as wonderful as Sharon. Just sayin’. Plus he has millions of fans who adore him. (In all fairness, the bat was thrown onstage by a fan who insisted it was dead. Ozzy thought it was a rubber bat, but when he bit it, the bat bit back, and Ozzy had to be treated for rabies. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ozzy_Osbourne.)
So where am I going with all of this? Well, it has a bit to do with service to others, although I don’t really know exactly how reliable my information can possibly be given that I am currently incarnate as a simple spiritualist with absolutely zero credibility in the religious and even spiritualist sector. I read Akashic Records for people. Sometimes I am dead-on accurate. Other times… maybe not so much. I humbly channel the wisdom of a Pleiadian being who calls himself Peter on occasion. Although I have been told by my Akashic Records that my purpose in this life is to reunite with my twin-flame soul mate and become post 2012 healers through “the vision plus the word,” and that the work I will be most known for is “Unity Consciousness,” I still have no real concept for what it all means. I can’t even successfully reunite with my twin-flame soul mate, so… obviously there is still a LOT of work to be done. And I don’t even know where to begin. It feels like it is all out of my hands. Everything is. I have no job. No income, other than unemployment benefits which are due to decrease soon and eventually run out. I can’t pay my mortgage this month. I know I can OPPT in to OPPT out of that, but it still feels like a bit of a tightrope walk. I keep saying out loud several times a day, “I don’t know what to do.”
All this time on my hands with nowhere to go and hardly anyone to talk to has forced me to remember who I am. To rewind and replay all the memories that led up to the DaVinci Code moment in 2006 that may help some people detach from the deceptive power and control the “church” has had over them all their lives. (And I say “lives” meaning more than ONE, although I know many Christians do not believe in reincarnation. Most believe they live only once and then go to either Heaven or Hell based on how well they allowed the church to control them and shake out every loose bit of change they had tucked away before they died.)
I feel like the little drummer boy. With no gift fit for a king, all he could offer was the beat of his drum to honor the baby Jesus. Well, to honor Jesus, the man and the teacher, and all of his TRUE followers who offer love and compassion and service to others WITHOUT tithing to ANY church, I offer my truth.
Notice I did not say STORY. Because STORY would imply FICTION. This is NOT fiction. This is the truth. And I offer it without any attachment to results or the opinions of others. I do this out of love. Love for the man and teacher who tried to tell us so many years ago that God/Source is not found in a church… that God is everywhere, in everything: “I am the light that shines over all things. I am everything. From me all came forth, and to me all return. Split a piece of wood, and I am there. Lift a stone, and you will find me there.” (Lost Gospel of Thomas.) And I do this out of love for myself, so that I can be free and independent from attachment. For it is true that love is not attachment. Love is a vibration. And the only way we can raise our vibrations is to free ourselves by sharing our truth and love through service to others. I tell this truth so that you, too, can be free from all of the deception and power and control of the very religions that took the teachings of Jesus Christ and twisted them into a reversal that had you believing the opposite of what he taught in order to gain profit for themselves and their cults.
November 2006. DaVinci Code had just been released on DVD. At the time, I was living with my life partner of six years, a United Church of Christ pastor who had taught me more about religion, the Bible and Christianity than I ever cared to know.
I grew up unchurched. No one taught me anything about God or Jesus. I started reading Genesis in our family Bible at the age of eight. After reading three different creation stories I told my mom, “This book is too contradictory! I’m done reading this crap!”
Why I even picked it up to read it is beyond me. Maybe it was because a long-haired bearded man kept appearing to me when I was exploring the woods alone. I never told anyone about him because he was kind of huge and floated up near the tree tops and no one would believe me.
Anyway… DaVinci Code. Yeah. The book had caused a major uproar all across the country. My life-partner hosted a book study on it at our church, but those things always turned out to be a bunch of drama if I attended because I had some very stiff opinions about “The Bible” that I was not afraid to voice, and I always ended up getting lambasted for my “comments.” So, needless to say, I declined the invitation to attend. I also refused to read the book. We had already watched every docudrama produced about it. I really didn’t need to waste time reading it. So, when the life-partner brought home the DVD and asked if I would watch it with her I yawned and said “sure.” I could always accidentally fall asleep.
Surprisingly, that didn’t happen. Even more surprisingly, as the story came to a close at the Rosslyn Chapel in Scotland, I felt the presence of an enormous energy in the room. My own “keepers” had entered my space with a message delivered by a warm, gentle man’s voice who told me “Yes, Jesus really did have a wife named Mary Magdalene, and yes, they really had a baby named Sarah. And YOU were that baby, Jennifer.”
But, before he even said it, I already knew it. And, as quickly as I knew it, I shoved it all away and denied it. “That’s a bunch of shit,” I found myself telepathically telling this huge, loving energy that had entered my living room.
And I never thought about it again. Until 2008, when I watched the movie with my friend Alex. Again, I got the same feeling, although the energy present was nowhere near as enormous. It was just a “friendly reminder” presence. To which I just simply said, “No!”
I never thought about it again until January 10, 2013 when it popped up out of the blue as a possible topic to take up telepathically with Ariel DeAngelis. But I didn’t. Instead, I wrote to her about it. And, like I said before, she is the first person I ever told. Her response to me was:
“Well, Sarah 😉 (in case you hadn’t guessed I’m getting a VERY strong affirmative on that one too!!)”
After reading this, I felt as if my heart had leaped right out of my chest, I was so overjoyed with the affirmation. I felt a tremendous upsurge of energy that felt like I could almost fly. And then there was this enormous presence in the room. I mean, huger than huge. The largest, warmest, most loving presence I have ever felt in my entire life. My dogs began stirring and whining to go outside, so I got up from the couch and walked through the dark kitchen. The overhead lights and countertop outlets had mysteriously stopped working and had been dead for at least two weeks. My tenant John and I had checked all the breakers and reset every single one – three times – in effort to restore power, but to no avail. As I was walking through, I flipped the overhead switch out of habit, AND… the lights mysteriously came ON for the first time in two weeks. I was startled at first, and then elated. And then it came… as predictable and cliché as ever… the familiar male voice from my childhood woods stomping grounds… “Let there be light!” and then a warm chuckle.
I laughed. And laughed. And laughed some more. What else can you do in a moment like this? Okay, maybe I cried, too. A little. His energy was like nothing I have ever felt before in my life. It’s indescribable. It’s like being swaddled in the warmest, softest blanket imaginable and gently and lovingly rocked into your deepest relaxed state before sleep. Not that you’d want to sleep, of course, because his energy is just too cheerful and charming to snooze through.
We had a nice father/daughter chat. I asked him many, many questions. One of my most favorite things about him is his sense of humor. Yes. Jesus has an amazing sense of humor! I bet you didn’t know that. I bet you never even DREAMED that. Neither did I. Of course, I am sure that with me he feels he can be far more candid than he can with someone like John Smallman. Which was one of my questions.
“Are you really talking to Smallman?”
“Yes, dear. I am.”
Good. So there you go. Naysayers begone.
One of my favorite things that he said to me was, “So… how did you like me when I was John Lennon?”
I KNEW IT!!!
My other favorite was when I asked, “Soo… should I call you dad?”
“Nah. Too stuffy. How about Jesus Daddy-O? Far more hip, dontcha think?”
So Jesus Daddy-O it is. But that is just between me and him. I really probably shouldn’t be sharing this, but… after 2013 (16?) years… it’s about time you knew that he DOES have a lighter side.
Now, unless instructed, I am NOT going to start channeling Jesus. That is John Smallman’s gig. I am also not going to answer questions about Jesus. Or ask him questions for you. This is not why I am sharing any of this with you. I am sharing this simply to allow people to free themselves from the deception of the church.
I asked him if he died on the cross. He said no, he did not. I asked him if he was ever ON a cross. Again, NO, he was never nailed to a cross. He was exiled and moved with Mary Magdalene and a number of others (disciples – more than just the 12) to France where he lived another 30 years and died in his late 60s of natural causes. This is as detailed as I am going to get with this. That is all I feel (at this time) anyone needs to know.
I just asked him if there is anything he wants to say to the people in his own words in this chapter. He said no. I asked him if he wants people to be free from the church. He said yes. And I do believe that is the only message I am here to carry out, other than whatever it is I am supposed to do in the future with my post-2012 healing work with my twin-flame soul mate and Unity Consciousness. When I figure it out, hopefully with the help of my higher guidance, I will let you all know.
Until then, I wish all of you joy, love, freedom and independence from attachment!
As promised, here is my Akashic Reading on this subject:
In 2006, while watching the movie DaVinci Code, I felt a presence of several friendly beings fill the room. I was told that it is true that Jesus and Mary Magdalene were married and had a baby named Sarah and that I (my higher self) was that baby. What can you tell me about this?
Welcome, brave soul. We applaud and admire your courage. We thought this day would never come, but we are very happy that it has. Yes, it is true that Jesus and Mary Magdalene were married and that your higher self (soul/light being) incarnated as their daughter, Sarah. You grew up in France, surrounded by very highly spiritual people under very loving influences. It was a happy life, although very sheltered. Jesus had been exiled for his teachings, and there were some who truly did want to kill him. So you lived a very quiet life in France. As you grew older, Luke, your twin-flame soul mate (yes, the one in the Bible who wrote the letters to Paul) made you his wife, and you had two children. The history books tell many different tales about Luke, and, as you can research for yourself, the details are all over the map. He was an artist and a disciple (follower) and apostle (teacher) of Jesus, even though history writes him as an apostle of Paul. It’s all far more simple than “history” makes it out to be, you see. Yes, you had a sort of commune-type living in France, but for good reason. It was more about lying low for survival’s sake, but it was pleasant and serene.
I feel part of my purpose in this life is to share this truth – that Jesus and Mary Magdalene WERE married and did have a child and that Jesus was never crucified on the cross. I know this will cause me a great deal of trouble and more grief than I have already experienced, but I feel it is important to share this truth to help free those who have been taken advantage of by the church for so many centuries. I don’t wish to cause trouble. Only to help heal. How can I do this with the least amount of harm and harassment to myself?
You’re doing it. You’ve written your truth. Now you publish it, and you move on. The next big thing is around the corner. (Word count at the end of this sentence: 3,333.)
15 thoughts on “My Akashic Journey – Chapter Six – The Unexpected One”
Many of your writings seemed to make sense for me. You delivered some messages for me. One chapter before, you almost came to write 2016, not 2013 that was the right date… 2016 was the year I met someone who took me to long and strange spiritual trips. I am also waiting for her to solve her problems in this moment. But when I was thinking that your writing were just coincidences for me, than I came to find your name. Stange enough, the name of this person I talked just now is… Jenniffer. I got it: you have a message to me. Indeed. Thanks.
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Oh wow! I never thought of him not dying on the cross but i did think about everything else or questioned everything else. There is the famous da vinci painting, i took an art class in 2000 the art teacher did ask us to look at it closely and to see who was next to jesus and the face. I had never noticed it was a womans face until he asked us to look at it and the famous V shape suggesting the womb, meaning maybe she was pregnant. So basically leonardo had some info he was keeping on the down low. I have to tell you about some thoughts i have lol
Il est 11H30 jour de Pâques. J’ai lu puis regardé la vidéo avec cette musique merveilleuse de Hans Zimmer puis j’ai pleuré….
Ah, oui, la musique de Hans Zimmer Da Vinci Code est si belle, n’est-ce pas? J’aime le crescendo dans l’apogée de la chanson. Il me fait à chaque fois! Il ya une telle émotion!
Wow….I never expected the surprise you divulged about Sarah. I have some affinity to Mary Magdalene….as you may know, she was considered a whore by some because she was trained in the temples….trained in sex magic. Trained how to raise her kundalini up the central column into the 7th chakra and out the head. That is part of the reason why the church tried to make sex so dirty and “bad”. They did not want us to know the truth about true sex magic (that was in the movie too). I must mention here, when you mentioned you were Sarah…..all of sudden something came “up” for me….something hidden so far into the past….into my cells…..I could hardly believe my response. Whatever it is…..it must be time for me to remember. There’s some deep hurt….or loss. Have you read, “The Magdalene Manuscript”? By Tom Kenyon? Maybe you could find out about that book….if it’s valid….it sure did feel like the truth when I read it.
Hello, Karen. I have not heard of this book. This may sound strange, but I tend to stay away from reading anything about Mary Mags, Jesus Daddy-O and Sarah. Probably much the same way celebrities stay away from reading the tabloid stories about themselves. As a kid, my grandmother sometimes took me to her church when she looked after me in the summer months. I will say I had to be about 3, 4 and 5 at this time (because she died when I was six). After the pastor’s children’s time, I ended up getting sent back to Sunday School. I remember the teachers trying to tell us some bunk about Jesus doing some miraculous thing or another. I just sat there cutting out my cross traced onto construction paper and sang, “No he DIDn’t.” I’m pretty sure I rolled my eyes, too. I also remember the Sunday school teachers reading from a children’s picture book telling us that Jesus said “I am the way, the truth and the light, and there is no way to God but through me.” I clucked my tongue and muttered, “He never said that.” Again, with a roll of my eyes. I have no idea why I felt those responses with such certainty. Well, now it makes sense, but, before I knew about being Sarah, I never understood why I was so anti-religious rhetoric. Especially when it came to things Jesus supposedly said and did. It was all intuitive gut-feeling stuff at the time. So, anyway, that is why I tend not to delve into much research about all of this stuff. I want to keep all of my information purely heart-centered and uninfluenced by others. I do admit that I was forced to watch several documentaries about the history of the Bible and Dead Sea Scrolls and religion throughout the years (before I knew about being Sarah), but, in so doing, I kept my bullshit barometer on HIGH and relied on it heavily. 😉
If I find time and the spirit moves me to do so, however, I will try to find out what I can about this Kenyon book.
I so do hope you are able to recall whatever it is that came up for you while reading chapter six. Perhaps an Akashic Reading may help.
All my best to you in your quest to remember who you are!
Love and light,
Hello, Gary. The answer to your question can be found here:
Hi Jen, how does one go about hiring you to do a past life reading for one. Thanks, Gary Howell
I have always felt guilty for not belonging to any religion because their teachings, which I felt are too restricting and limited. Being detached also meant being alone but also feels free to explore, to learn more about the univierse, to seek answers to profound questiions such as creation, or how we all came about. Until now I am still searching for answers and lately as the date of December 20, 2012 approached I did more reading and came to know about the Pleaidians, Lyrans and Billy Meier. The Billy Meier account of Jesus in the latter years is a little different from yours. But I do believe that he came to teach us about love and to learn about Creation. That he did not come to die for our sins. I, too, am in search of who I am, where I I come from and and my purpose in this life
I believe you. As I was reading, the author Kathleen McGowan came to mind. If you do not know of her, she writes the most wonderful stories, based on a lot of actual research(but she can not portray her books as non fiction), about Mary, the wife of Jesus. “The Expected One” is the first one I read and it is facinating! She claims to be a descendant of Jesus and Mary. The Cathars in southern France were followers of Mary and persecuted in the 1300s(I believe) for not renouncing their beliefs. You might have a relative!
I have always felt that Jesus was more human and approachable than is taught by many religions and saw him more as a man than a priest, God,
or even prophet. I was once told that the very pronounced letter M on my right palm indicated that I had lived in the time of Jesus. I hadn’t heard that before and didn’t necessarily give any thought to it , but I do have a strong feeling that it might be true…have just never bought into any teachings of any religion.
Anyway, say Hi to Jesus for me and tell him to “keep The Faith, Baby”!
(I was a teen in the 60s, and that was a favorite saying of mine !) also say Hi to Peter as I still like his sense of humor( and glad to hear that Jesus has one too, although, that really doesn’t suprise me).
PS. I have not paid my credit card for almost a year and have been playing “Guess When You are Going To Get Your Next Fradulant Payment”
game with my mortgage company. HA. AND….I can not get the idea of a community in the country, self sustaining, a place of beauty, peace, Love, and cooperation out of my mind…and place where people can come and just BE. I dream of it, I draw it, I long for it.
Oliver, my brother! I recognized the music immediately! L ❤ V E it!!! Fills my heart with JOY! 🙂 Thank you for sharing!
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