PLEIADIAN MESSAGE for April 2015: Calling all Starseeds! NOW is the time!


Brigid 3Greetings dear Starseeds of all Leagues and Nations currently embodied as human beings on planet Earth. Allow me to identify myself, so you may know, through complete transparency, from who this message flows. Most modern-day awakened Starseeds working with the light would recognize me as Master Sarah, ascended master daughter born to Jesus (Sananda) and Mary Magdalene (Lady Nada), however, that is a “newer” version of me. More old-world-religion zealots know me as Brigid, the Celtic patroness of healing, poetry and smithcraft; Roman Celtics and Roman Catholics know me as St. Brigid. Some people who think they are channeling Master Sarah have said that I am also the goddess Kali. This is false information. My soul essence and origin is Pleiadian, as my light being and energetic consciousness is a fractal of the central sun (Alcyone) of the Pleiades star system. My Pleiadian light-being name is Peunice, however, I prefer the nickname Scarborough. My first human incarnations on Earth were primarily on the lands known as Ireland and Scotland/Britain, now known as the United Kingdom. These incarnations were during the late Neolithic, Iron and Bronze ages.

How I came to be “Master Sarah” is this: Sananda and Lady Nada approached me and asked if I would like to be the physical embodiment offspring of their physical embodiments (most commonly known as Jesus and Mary Magdalene) to quietly serve as the incarnated harmonic balance of their two energies, the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine, and to create a bloodline that would share this light quotient essence for our Pleiadian soul group to incarnate into as a means to continually serve our sacred Mother Earth and all of her inhabitants. Some of the elite/criminal cabalists are trying to claim this bloodline as their own. This is also false information. Their souls do not possess the proper vibration to incarnate into this bloodline. That is all I care to share at this time regarding my soul ties with this bloodline. More will be revealed in time, as the light quotient on Earth rises, and more and more human beings are ready for absolute truth. Until then, know that we are many, and we are undetected due to our “commonality” across the many societies and cultures that make up the rich heritage of Earth’s human family.

For now, too many are still too deeply rooted in the lower fear-based vibrations to accept the absolute truth. They still cling to the grand deception as the only truth, and they still fight for it with fervor. This is to be expected, and it is alright, for it is simply how things are for the moment, but, as many of you Indigo Starseeds are aware, and through some of your very good work, truths are being revealed and will eventually be accepted as such, for there is too much evidence to suggest otherwise.

Of course, more of you are now needed to step into your Divine Will missions and incarnated soul purposes as Starseeds, should you wish to do so. You all have free will, even once you commit to you Divine Will mission, for it is your gifts, talents and interests and passions that will determine HOW you fulfill your mission, through your creative heart, with love and light for planet Earth and all her inhabitants. We encourage you to realize and step into your personal power with unconditional self love. Many of you already know in your hearts that you have incarnated on Earth to do “something big.” And, of course, this is true. You all volunteered to incarnate on Earth as physical embodiments of your higher selves (light beings) to bring the peace and harmony to a planet saturated in chaos and turmoil. You incarnated to lead by example, in the 5D vibration of pure unconditional love and light, and to help the spiritually unawakened and downtrodden raise their own personal vibrations.

Some of you have been gifted with healing talents; some of you are physical healers, others are mental and emotional healers, and some of you possess both talents. You may have one or many methods that you use as healing tools, including crystal healing, energetic healing, massage, acupuncture, light healing, intuitive healing (psychic/medium, Akashic readings, psychometry), empathic energetic absorption and transmutation, alchemy, horticulture, naturopathy, yoga, spiritual psychology, shamanic journeying and more.

Many of you are artists, delivering messages, inspiring others, and swaying emotions or offering healing through your medium of choice, be it writing, poetry, song lyrics, music, sculpture, canvas, photography, graphic, culinary, or any other craft, such as architecture, metal or stone work, soap making, oil and tincture craft… the list goes on and on.

So many more of you are teachers and coaches of so many different kinds, be they spiritual or academic, and your methods are many, including everything mentioned above and more.

Some of you are advocates and diplomats for peace, creating organizations to advocate for the poor and marginalized as well as endangered and abused species while others are challenging the corrupt systems that hold power and control over the human race.

And many of you identify as all, or more than one of these. Know that, in time, you will ALL be masters and victors in ALL of these roles as your light quotient intake increases. As Starseeds, you all have the ability to help Mother Earth and all of her inhabitants and resources heal, and you all have a variety of gifts and talents to help you do just that.

As a collective, your combined light and talents are amazingly powerful; now is the time for you to begin to combine your collective consciousness efforts by moving into self empowerment through forgiveness and unconditional self love. As you forgive (others and yourself) and move into the vibration of unconditional self love, all your fears fade away.

As you move into your heart-centered vibration of unconditional love for yourself, you find it easier to love others with no need to judge, criticize, compare or fear. Your self-love and approval is all that you have needed all along, for this is the very vibration that empowers you to create, teach, heal and advocate for one another and your precious Mother Earth.

Do not look to anyone else but yourself for approval. Looking to others who do not love themselves for love or approval will only leave you feeling defeated. Looking to organized systems or institutions for love or approval will also leave you feeling inadequate, for many of these systems were created by those who wish to keep you in fear, confusion, self-deprecation or self-loathing for there is nothing they fear more than a unified front of self-loving, self approving, spiritually empowered human beings who adhere to nothing but their own love and respect for themselves and each other. Remember, you are fractals of Creator-source energy and consciousness. You are many fragments of the same loving energy. When you combine your collective energy and consciousness in love, light and harmony, you become Creator-source energy.

Now is the time for all Starseeds incarnated on Earth to empower themselves with unconditional self love and come together in a combined conscious effort to create the united front that will end all chaos and suffering and bring peace and harmony and healing to Mother Earth and all her inhabitants.

Now is the time to collaborate with your fellow Starseeds and create projects and organizations committed to teaching self-empowerment, healing, and peacemaking.

Now is the time to begin imagining and building a better Earth.

Now is the time to focus on creating the peace and harmony that will ensure freedom, prosperity and abundance for all Earth inhabitants.

How will you do it? How can you contribute your gifts and talents to begin the peacemaking process with yourself… your family… your friends… your peers… your neighbors… your community… your state/province… your country… your island/continent… your planet… your galaxy… your multiverse?

We’ll give you a hint… it all begins with the human-ego surrender to love and joy. And each and every one of you holds this vibration of love and joy in your heart. It is time to stop swimming against the current, dear ones, for there is no pain in love or joy… there is only the human-ego fear that the love and joy will end. Release this fear, and move into your true personal power of unconditional love, harmony, and oneness, for this is where you will find peace, freedom, prosperity and abundance as your creative gifts and talents begin to flow and increase.

For those of you still skeptical, let us ask you, how much are you rewarded for being fearful, doubtful, worrisome, angry, judgmental, critical, cynical, argumentative, negative, hateful, stubborn, envious, egocentric, manipulative, greedy or self-serving? These attitudes only hold you in fear and cyclical patterns that only lead to more of the same: unhappiness.

You DO have a choice. And you DO have the ability to raise your vibration by exercising this choice. And once you reach this vibration through your own self-empowerment and self-love, you DO have the ability to unconditionally love others and help bring peace and harmony to Earth through your gifts and talents and collaboration with other Starseeds. And now is the time. Your planet and her inhabitants need you to step into your personal power so you can begin your Starseed mission.

So rise, Starseeds, and let the collective conscious manifestation and collaboration for global peace and harmony begin! NOW is the time!!

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Resolve to know your purpose, mission and truth in 2015


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Welcome to the New Year!

Are you the type of person who makes a list of resolutions each New Year, or do you prefer to let go of the steering wheel and let Universe drive?

Well, regardless of your approach, it never hurts to know a little more about your soul purpose and mission for this life. It may also be a great time to consult with your Akashic team regarding your game plan for 2015. Here are a few starter questions to ponder for a New Year Akashic reading:

  • How can I ensure that this year will be my best year for… (fill in the blank; here are some suggestions: love, luck, career success, abundance/prosperity, soul evolution, improved health…)?
  • What are the things I need to learn to help me… (fill in the blank; here are some suggestions: improve my spiritual gifts, improve my relationship(s) at work, home or in my social circles, evolve emotionally…)?
  • How can I gain better control over my… (fill in the blank; here are some suggestions: thoughts, ego, emotions, personal vibration, reality…)?
  • What kinds of things can I do to love myself more?
  • How can I let go of…  (fill in the blank; here are some suggestions: my anger regarding…, my fear of…, the belief that…)?

Of course, you can ask whatever you want. These are merely suggestions. Your Akashic team is always happy to help you understand how you came to be who you are and why you are who you are, but remember, regardless of other lives and your current past, there really is no better time than the present to raise your vibration and change your reality to attract what you desire most for yourself and your loved ones.

In this moment… there is only now! Why not learn how to master that human ego and begin creating a more loving, patient, gracious, healthier self who attracts everything s/he desires with a more positive vibration? You really do have that power. Tap into it!

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My Akashic Journey ~ Chapter Eight ~ Multiple Timelines and Simultaneous Lives, Oh MY!!!


So I’ve been minding my own business, working on a new teen trilogy idea and entertaining myself with the research when I’m not conducting private Akashic Readings and totally NOT thinking about what the next chapter of My Akashic Journey will entail. Although, I do admit, I did give it a wonder for a brief moment, but I figured I had some learning and growing to do before it would come together, as is usually the case.

I had decided that my young adult novel series will take place in Boston. I’m not even sure why – it was just a given. Didn’t even think twice about it. Which is weird because I have not been to Boston in at least 15 years, and, to be honest, even though I had a great time there in my college days, I don’t miss it much. But I do miss my college buddy and Pleiadian family member who lives there. And thank goodness she does, because she has been very instrumental in helping me decide what Boston high school my main character will attend and which neighborhoods are most ideal for the setting.

It was during our discussion on Thursday, July 11, 2013, that the beginnings of this chapter began to manifest when my Pleiadian sister said: “Forget Fenway. It’s all been rebuilt with high rises and is snotty. You could put them in an upper apartment on Queensbury. They could have tall windows overlooking the Fens out toward Mass College of Art and the Fine Arts Museum.”

Long pause for consideration. I had spent a LOT of time in that neighborhood walking my dog, shooting hoops, running the cinder track around the patchy football field. So close to Boston Latin, the oldest and most famous high school in the city, which was also the first school I thought my main character should attend, until I remembered it’s a private school.

“Wait!” my Pleiadian sister said, “Put them in a condo on the eighth floor of Charlesgate! You know the building and its history, so you can play with that!”

Whaaaaat??? They converted our old college dormitory into condos? Seriously?!

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I lived on the eighth floor the first couple months of my freshman year at Emerson College. The place was a total dump with nasty stucco walls that looked like plastered cheese curds and a lethargic elevator that never fully made it to the floor landing. I usually had to step up, or even pull myself up onto the landing from inside the elevator – until I got smart and started taking the stairs.

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“I lived on the eighth floor freshman year,” I said. “Totally haunted!”

I wasn’t keen on the idea. The old Charlesgate Hotel is massive. Just… HUGE!!!  I had been thinking more of an old factory loft-style apartment with exposed brick walls and majestic windows for my novel. Although I suppose that type of setting has been overdone.

What is really weird, here, is that I mentioned this very building in Chapter Seven of My Akashic Journey as Exhibit C of my guides’ presentation of information regarding multiple lives and timelines:

Then my guides show me Exhibit C, that ornate tile décor I noticed in my dormitory building at 4 Charlesgate East in Boston, Massachusetts, when I was a freshman at Emerson College. I recognized it immediately and realized “I’ve been here before,” with utmost clarity and certainty. Then I frowned. “But I’ve NEVER been here before,” I reminded myself.

I must admit that I didn’t really fully “get it” until Friday, July 12, when I began researching the building. I first started with the present-day stuff for my novel. If you Google 4 Charlesgate East, all kinds of realtor listings for available condo units pop up. And, yes, the eighth floor unit is currently available “again.” Massive renovations have taken place since I lived there in the fall semester of 1989. It’s nice and all, but hardly worth the $790,000 asking price for the 2 bedroom/2 bathroom,  1,003 square-foot condo. Unless you really enjoy living with perverted and temperamental ghosts, that is.

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As I continued to scroll through the Google listings, I came upon an interesting link to an article describing the old Charlesgate Hotel as “the most haunted building in Boston.” Built in 1891 by architect J. Pickering Putnam, the building served as a luxury hotel until 1947, then there are conflicting stories about it being a dormitory for female Boston University seminary students (THERE’s a contrast!) or a dorm for male BU students from 1947-1972. Maybe it was both. Twenty-five years is a long time span, so who knows for sure? Over the next nine years the building is said to have been a tenement building for “wayward types” until Emerson College purchased it for use as a dormitory in 1981. The building then sold, again, around 1994/1995 (more conflicting reports) and has since been converted into condominiums.

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So I read through a number of articles on these “haunted Boston” type sites. Some of the stories I read about the haunted happenings were familiar. Others were not. Most were far more over-the-top  than what I experienced myself (personal items shooting across my dorm room with great force, dead-bolted doors flinging open with a crash at two a.m., caressing and tickling feelings on my calves and thighs while lying in bed, and the clicking sounds of my roommate’s cosmetic cases being opened and closed while I was the only one in the room. She later asked if I had messed with her stuff because it was all out of place!)

When I moved from the very small eighth floor (every article makes a big deal out of the fact that the eighth floor cannot be seen from the street and some go so far as to say that it had been purposely built that way as a secret hideaway for mafia activity, but I always got the feeling the eighth floor was an addition, and not part of the original building) to the larger second floor, I began to hear more and more student accounts of ghostly encounters. One resident assistant spent most of her time sitting in the hallway because the negative energy in her room was too much for her to bear. Just telling me about it made the hairs on her arms stand up, and she showed me her goose bumps. Right around that time a story appeared in our school newspaper stating that several female students had reported a male ghostly figure dressed in black and wearing a black hat and cape getting fresh with them while lying in their beds. I believed it since I had felt the mysterious caressing and tickling nonsense when I was on the eighth floor, but it never occurred to me to report it to anyone, especially after my roommate looked at me like I had three heads when I told her I felt our room was haunted.

Even though I was only eighteen and from a small, rural area where I’d lived in a fairly new, one-owner home with no spooky history, I was pretty chill about all the spirit activity I suddenly encountered without warning. As I sat and thought about it on July 12, Scarborough (my higher self) communicated to me that Charlesgate was, actually, a portal.

Wait? What? A portal?!!

Yes, a portal to other dimensions and timelines.

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Okay, weird. The first time I had ever encountered that word  was when a psychic friend came over to my house to investigate all the wild spirit activity I had been experiencing at my current home in southwest Michigan. She told me she felt a “magic gateway” in my basement that dug down way deep into the ground and shot way high up into the sky, but also curved out, northward, toward the fireplace, and vibrated like a giant tuning fork.

“The spirits are attracted to it,” she told me.

Hmm. And all this time I thought I was on some kind of Native American spiritual site or burial ground. (Not in a “Poltergeist” (the movie) kind of way, but in a far more sacred feeling sort of way that is peaceful until a disturbed soul wanders in seeking my assistance.)

Another portal, I thought to myself as I stared at a photo of Charlesgate on my laptop screen. Some of the articles were going so far as to say that the architect, J. Pickering Putnam, had been rumored to dabble in the occult and that he had purposely designed the building with materials to attract dark energies. The movie Ghostbusters suddenly came to mind, and it all seemed so crazy. I searched for more information on the architect, who was a Boston Latin alumna (coincidence?) and a Harvard graduate who traveled to France to further his studies at The School of Fine Arts in Paris.

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Paris? Really? Coincidence again, I wondered as I stood and stretched. Suddenly a vision of the ornate decorative tile I recognized as an 18-year old flashed in front of my eyes. I shook it away and glanced at my laptop screen again. Architect. The word was the only clear thing on the page.

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“Architect!” I realized.

Oh. My. God.

I felt the instant connection. My twin flame’s Akashic Records said she had been an architect who designed the grand staircase on the Titanic. Was it possible she had also been this J. Pickering Putnam guy as well? And, if so… how is that possible if the Titanic sank in 1912 and her architect self was on the ship? How could she also be an architect in Boston designing and building the Charlesgate Hotel in 1891?

Ohh, here we go with the parallel universe, multiple timelines and simultaneous lives mindfuck again!!! Am I right?

Well, you know exactly what time it is now! Time for a My Akashic Journey reading!

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Okay, so, I know you are trying to help me make a connection to another life by showing me the ornate wall tile at Charlesgate right when I was reading the word Architect on my laptop screen. I feel  a correlation, so what are you trying to tell me, exactly?

The reason you recognized the tile and felt you had been there before was because you had been there many, many times with your husband who was, yes, the architect of that building. And, yes, the higher self of that individual, J. Pickering Putnam, or JP Putnam as he preferred to be called, was Ulron, the twin-flame soul mate of your higher self, Scarborough.

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Okay, so, in an Akashic reading I conducted for her last summer, my twin-flame was told that she had been an architect who designed the grand staircase of the Titanic, of which she was supposedly a passenger when it sunk in April of 1912. So, how is it possible that she was incarnated as an architect in Belfast, Ireland, working on the Titanic while, at the same time, incarnated as JP Putnam, another architect designing and building the Charlesgate Hotel?

They were on two different timelines. Parallel, yes, and happening simultaneously, yes, but on completely different timelines.

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How is that possible?

Well, there are many, many different parallel worlds, dear. We could try to explain it, but it would boggle your brain too much. So, for the sake of your sanity, just know that it is possible and happening on so many different levels with so many different fractals of your higher self that you could not even begin to imagine how it is all kept organized, but it is.

Okay, so, is it a computer program? Like, in The Matrix? Are we a bunch of Sims-type characters? How can you explain
it better?

We just told you that we can’t. It would fry your brain. And most humans don’t want to know. They are too busy being occupied by the system. Too interested in their own Sims-type games to realize they could really be living real lives if they could just unplug. But, what they are doing is very much like what your higher selves are doing. Running programs. Experimenting with different characters. But, actually feeling through these characters who are in physical bodies. But the idea was not to become so mind-centered that you stop living and experiencing. Yes, it is part of the program… to experiment to see how deeply rooted fear can immobilize an entire race. You remember the days when you, as a kid, used to go outside and roam and play for hours and hours with no parental supervision. You were free to explore your world. There were no simulated, computer programmed games to play. And your parents weren’t worried too much about your safety until you started driving their car. And really, then, they were more worried about their car or “the other guy on the road,” than they were worried about you. Not that they didn’t love you, but that their fears and worries were more about financial issues or you being a victim than you actually causing a problem on the road. Regardless, if you sat around in your room on your computer all the time, they would have been more worried about you than they were when you were outside roaming and exploring, and, yes, even driving their car. Because, just 30 years ago, life was very, very different. You were still expected to be socially engaging… or engaged… with people face to face. Not in chat rooms or through simulated online games. The whole idea of incarnating into physical bodies is to fully experience life through all or most of the senses. Many are no longer doing this for they have become so enslaved by the system that even their free time is consumed by the system.

It sounds to me like we are being treated like lab rats. What is the point?

To see if the lab rat cares enough about itself to free itself…  and the other lab rats.

Seriously? That is totally fucked up. And you wonder why so many of us are depressed and suicidal?

We know why you are. We understand fully. But we also know that you all have the power to change it. The question is, do you want to? And, if you want to, how are you going to go about it? Are you going to continue killing each other for power? Are you going to continue to allow a flawed system run by a few elite control you? Your lives? Your loved ones lives?

The problem is that we don’t know how to change it. We’ve got people channeling ETs who are telling us they are coming to save us. We’ve got these other groups telling us that there are some benevolent trusts that are about to gift us with prosperity packets so we, too, can experience wealth and abundance and finally live again. The problem is that this has been going on for years and nothing ever happens. Peaceful protests have been going on and on and on, but nothing changes much. We’re still enslaved by the system. How do we change it?

How do you stop abuse? You walk away from it. You have this power. All of you. Together. You have to disengage. You have stop lending your energy to the system. That is the only way out.

How do you end a game you can never win? You simply stop playing.

How do you starve a system that starves you? Easy. You cut them off. Collectively.

How do you disengage? You have to detach. Detach yourself from fear. Detach yourself from worry. Detach yourself from the lower vibrations that keep you dependent on their system.

We’ve heard all of this before. The majority of the collective does not listen or follow this advice. It seems like the majority of the collective is still deeply asleep. How is it the same or different on other timelines and the parallel worlds?

Each one is slightly different, since variance of outcomes are being explored and recorded. For example, right now, in a parallel universe on the very same timeline as yours, the Trayvon Martin case/Zimmerman trial has seen Zimmerman convicted to a twenty year sentence. Basically, some outcomes are the opposite of what you are currently experiencing regarding human rights cases while some remain the same.

Okay, so are all the people in that parallel universe exactly the same over there as they are here? With the same higher selves?

Some are participating while some are not. Some are the exact same identity “there” as “here” while others are different, but whether they are the same or different, yes, they all have the same higher selves. That is, IF they are participating in that particular universe on that particular timeline.

Okay, so, how does it work – the universe and timeline I am currently working from – are there more than one timeline within this “universe?”

Yes. There are several. We know it’s confusing. Which is why we don’t try to explain it too much.

It seems chaotic. How is it possible to keep it all straight?

The Akashic Records keep it all documented. If you want to keep going with the “lab” metaphor, think of the different timelines as “batches” or “groups” that were started at different times. So, your first group of rats started their testing six weeks ago. Your second group started five weeks ago. Your third group started four weeks ago. So, even though they are all going through a six-month test, they are slightly staggered and the circumstances are changed a bit despite running through the exact same program for the exact same amount of time.

What is the possibility of July 15, 1971 happening on another timeline right now in the same universe with me being born again as the same exact person while I am still alive?

It’s very possible. Or you could be someone different on a different timeline in the same universe, too. Or the same in a different universe on a different timeline… or the same timeline. The possibilities are endless.

What is the point of being the exact same person on the exact same timeline in a parallel universe?

Some higher selves would like to try the same “character” throughout the same time period with slightly different circumstances. It’s kind of like your video game analogy – using the same character to explore a new difficulty level within the same game.

Please explain to me again what the purpose is for higher selves to be living vicariously through so many physical beings on so many timelines all at once. What are they hoping to accomplish by doing this?

There are so many analogies we could use to explain this and none would be completely accurate, but we will do the best we can with the seedling analogy (although no one gets eaten in the end, so, again, like we say, not the best analogy).

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When you plan a garden, you plant many seeds, right? Four or five at a time within one hole. And you will plant several rows of the same kind of seed, right? Because just planting four or five watermelon seeds in one hole may only give you one plant. And that one plant may not even weather the storms long enough to bear fruit.

As you know, even with the same amount of water and sunlight and care, not all seedlings will sprout. The ones that do sprout may not mature. The ones that mature may not flower. The ones that flower may not bear fruit. The ones that bear fruit may not bear enough fruit. Or quality fruit. But the hearty, plentiful ones that bear plenty of quality fruit, those are the ones that truly nourish, right? And nourishment is what every soul needs. So, you know you need to plant a lot of seeds in order to actually nourish yourself. And this is exactly what the higher selves are doing, although they are nourishing themselves with experience – physical experience. They try to nourish you as much as they can so that you will grow and mature and bear quality fruit so that you, in turn, can nourish them. But they know all too well that in order to get the plentiful quality fruit, they have to plant many, many seeds all at the same time.

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Ah, so, there you have it. They are not timeline whores after all. They are farmers!!! All kidding aside, no wonder we hear so much of this “harvesting” language all the time. Now my question is, should we really consider it such a negative thing? I mean, we’re here participating for the highest good of our higher selves. Shouldn’t we want to be the tallest and strongest vine or stalk bearing the most plentiful, nourishing sustenance for our souls? Shouldn’t we just follow the Divine guidance of our higher selves rather than constantly fight against the flow of the current just to satisfy the ego’s insistence for “free will?” Isn’t that, after all, what causes all the complications and drama in our lives? Or is that what makes it “interesting?”

I know some would argue that not exercising free will would make us “puppets,” but, at the same time, isn’t the whole idea of this “game” to ascend INTO our higher selves by becoming ONE with them? Would that really be such a BAD thing? To actually WIN the game by ascending into our higher selves with the Ego setting on DIFFICULT?

Let your HEART answer that question.

My Akashic Journey – Chapter Two – The Family Feud


Awakening to purpose

I quickly discovered that opening the spiritual door is like opening a dam. Holy shit! Talk about a floodgate of information. I’ve always had a very strong sense of clairaudience, which Merriam-Webster defines as: the power or faculty of hearing something not present to the ear but regarded as having objective reality.

I’ve been hearing spirits, guides, angels, etc., all my life. Kind of creepy at times, but I’m used to it these days, and I’ve learned it’s usually just a spirit asking for acknowledgment or help. Sometimes I acknowledge them. Sometimes I don’t. It all depends on their attitude. If they are dark or negative, I burn a little white copal, and call in Archangel Michael to assist. If it’s something I feel I can handle on my own, I engage in conversation. After all, it’s what I’m here to do, and I accept that now, with a sense of duty.

Despite being used to “hearing the call,” so to speak, I was still surprised on January 20, 2010, when the Akashic Records summoned ME.

Hearing the call

It was a day like too many before it. I woke sometime around 9 AM, and leisurely surfed the ‘net while I sipped my morning coffee until I was motivated to make myself breakfast. Ah, the life of being unemployed. While standing at the kitchen sink, a thought crossed my mind about the hometown of my twin flame’s new girlfriend. It was the same as my father’s, and most people usually claimed the closest larger city as their hometown rather than this tiny little burg. It made me wonder…and as soon as I started to, I heard the clippity-clop of horseshoes and the rattle of the antique wheels of a horse-drawn wagon. Black and white images of a pre-automobile era flooded my minds eye. What the — ?

“Open your records, and we will fill you in,” a familiar voice of the Akashic Records said.

Wow, I thought. They don’t mess around!

Disclaimer

I could go on and on here about my beliefs and doubts regarding spells and curses and black magic to try to save face and credibility and all that, but, you know what? After years of being made fun of and laughed at…I really don’t give a fuck what anyone thinks of me anymore. I’ve experienced enough darkness in my life to know that negative energy DOES exist, and whether it was created by a spell, hex, curse, or powerful ill wishing doesn’t matter. The simple truth is that we are ALL made up of both light and dark energy. We may gravitate toward one or the other from life to life, depending on the circumstances and our soul contracts before we incarnated. It’s almost like choosing your character before starting one of those quest games — whether it’s a video or board game, they’re all kind of similar. You choose your characteristics — strengths, weaknesses, powers — and you play a role. And, once you’re in the game…shit happens, right? So let’s just look at it that way.

We all know that the current era we’ve been living in is one of polarity. Duality. Light versus dark. And some may even say positive versus negative. Fine. There are others out there who say there is neither good nor bad, only light or dark, love or fear. That’s a nice, neutral way of looking at it. If you can stay neutral in the density of duality, that is. Most of us living in the 3D world find this difficult. We want to take sides. Let me say this right now: I’m not asking you to. I am simply sharing the information provided to me by my Akashic records regarding these two families my soul group and I came here to assist. Not so much to save the families from the darkness that plagues them, but more so to clean up the negative energy emanating from them that is polluting the planet. There are huge crews of lightworkers here on Earth at the moment who have committed to do just that — transmute dark energy to light. The key point to remember here is that no one is going to do it for us. WE have to remember who we are, why we’re here, and follow through in cleaning up the manmade messes we promised, as light beings, to purify so that we can move into the new era all shiny and squeaky clean.

Okay, hopping off my soapbox now. On with My Akashic Journey…

Forgive them; they know not what they do

Here is how the reading began (I have replaced the name of the actual black magic family with “spell casters” and the name of my twin flame with “twin flame”)…

Akashic Records journal entry date: January 20, 2010

Okay, so you have summoned me to open my records today. Can you please tell me why?

There is nothing to fear. You are a seeker of truth. We know you can handle this, as you have always KNOWN the truth. Yes, the Freer side of your family has been under a curse. A curse that goes back to your great grandfather on the Freer side of the family. Your mother mentioned this curse to your empath coach Michael.

[Author’s note: In the summer of 2009, I began working with an empath coach. Before our sessions he would go into deep trance to access information about what energies I needed to clear. In one particular session, he surprised me by saying that my mother (in spirit at the time) contacted him and told him about this dark, negative energy that had plagued my father’s side of the family for generations and caused great depression among all the descendants of that particular couple. It was unknown, at that time, where the energy originated, but Michael said it was through no fault of their own.]

The Freer family had great pride in themselves. The spell-caster family did not. They go back with roots and ties in and around your father’s hometown. This is a Pagan/Christian war, yes. But it’s deeper than that. There was conflict between the two families. The great grandfathers. Over land and horses. The Freers spit on the spell casters for their refusal to believe in God. The spell casters did not believe in God. They believed in witchcraft. The dark kind. How do you think they got their name? This is why we told you that your twin flame’s girlfriend was dark. She comes from a long line of darkness. Black magic. Your twin flame is in danger.

How do I help her?

You can’t. This is NOT YOUR FIGHT. This is your twin flame’s fight.

You will win because you believe in God, a higher power, and the light. You are OF the light. You have battled your family curse and won. You have broken the spell against you cast by the dark family through the help of Michael. Be grateful for Michael. He DID help you. He will continue to help you by holding you in prayer.

A psychic friend recently told me “Things are not as they seem regarding your beliefs.” What did that mean, exactly?

It meant that she doesn’t know anything about you. You were shielded by the light so she could not look inside. You are a tough one for psychics to read because you are so guarded. By royalty. AS royalty. Light royalty. A long line of lightworker descendants. Your Uncle Clare, he recognized himself as a lightworker. He was the only one who got close to breaking the spell. He recognized it in you, too. Your Uncle Jim saw it, too, at your mom’s funeral. The ones in the Freer family who mock are still afflicted by the curse and the darkness.

So what does ANY of this have to do with my twin flame being with this spell-caster descendant? I mean, if the curse was broken…why would my twin flame get into a relationship with her?

This is Universal Karmic payback to the spell-caster family.

Something doesn’t feel right about this.

The records are open, and this is truth.

Why am I feeling discomfort in my heart chakra?

It’s a lot to take in. That is why we are trying to simplify it; to avoid the massive discomfort information like this can sometimes create. It is never fun to learn of family disputes, feuds, wars, and curses. There is some residual negativity floating around — hooks in your aura from the pain the curse has caused and also the pain of your twin flame being with the dark one. For now. It’s not forever; it will only last as long as your twin flame allows darkness to overcome her.

Does my twin flame’s girlfriend know about this feud/”curse?”

No. It died with her great grandmother. The spell casters were younger than your great grandparents. A foolish young couple playing with witchcraft fire. They did not understand how their actions would affect generations of descendants with this powerful curse. You’ve known about the curse for quite some time now. You joked, but deep down, you knew it was true. The spell casters hold a powerful dark energy. Freers were of the light, but shrouded in darkness until now. Your willingness to be born into and fight for this family has brought great light. First you fought the battle withIN the family. Then you fought the battle AGAINST the family — with the help of your mother and Michael. Saint Paul. Look him up. He once was on the dark side and moved to the light. Saint Paul is not a reference to your brother — it’s you. You moved the family from the dark to the light by lifting the curse. With the assistance of your mom and Michael. You’re a lightworker soul who accepted this challenge for the greater good. Not just for your own soul, but for the family. This is why you are light royalty. You will be rewarded for it — after Karmic Justice is served.

Your twin flame accepted this challenge, too, because she, too, is a lightworker soul. She knows her assignment, and it is a safe one for her to complete now that the Karmic energy has been released. She will not incur Karmic debt.

This could have been accomplished as early as January of 2000 — ten years ago [when Archangel Zadkiel said Karma had been lifted from the planet].

There was still too much residual Karma floating around. It wasn’t safe or wise at the time.

So will my twin flame hurt the spell-caster descendant?

No. She will learn her last lesson FROM the spell-caster descendant.

I guess I don’t understand how that will serve Karmic Justice. Can you explain it to me?

All souls are working together to push each other closer to the light. The spell-caster family owes you. The spell-caster descendant will teach your twin flame her last lesson that will send her home to you. Remember, this is not your fight. Just hold the light.

Wrestling with the dark

As you can see, it’s been nearly a year since that reading. While I’ve been trying my damnedest to “just hold the light,” it hasn’t been easy. Not in this dense, 3D environment where it seems darkness is growing ever more vicious as we lightworkers wrestle in vain to illuminate the planet with love and light through forgiveness, prayer, faith, hope and optimistic affirmations.

Many times I have felt like just giving up. My twin flame is still stuck in her patterns, and I cannot break through due to the rule that I am not allowed to contact her. It feels much like being bound and gagged while I watch her being tortured. I am powerless, and I often wonder, WHY did I choose this? I came here with a Karmic balance of zero. No debt at all. She came with a heavy load. I did not have to incarnate, but we chose to do this thing together, to allow her the chance to pay her Karmic debts and to assist in the cleansing of the planet and reuniting our twin-flame soul-mate energy to help raise the vibrations for the new era and help heal those who find this awakening painful.

New age spiritualists and channelers say that, with this flood of new energy that has showered our planet through the 11.11.11 and 12.12.11 portals, we will ALL begin to awaken and remember who we are, who we’ve been, and why we are here. I have awakened early to be a “wayshower” for those who are just now beginning to rouse. Don’t hate. It’s no easy job. But I chose to do it, before I ever incarnated, and I am a keeper of my word, so I will honor it by holding light and love and faith that we will ALL follow through with our promises.

My Akashic Journey – Chapter One – Seeking Truth


Don’t you hate it when all you want is the truth and NO ONE can give it to you?

From February 2007 through January 2010, I was on a god damn mission and hell bent to find answers. Before that, I was just sleepwalking through life, content to have a job, personal transportation, a loving life partner, a roof over our heads, two cute chihuahuas and some enjoyable hobbies. I mean, after all, that’s what life is all about, isn’t it?

Well, in February 2007, my mom and best friend in life lost her battle with lung cancer. In her defense, I must say, she never once smoked a cigarette. She hated cigarette smoke, but, in the end, her exposure to secondhand smoke is ultimately what claimed her physical body. At the time, I was not fully tuned into my sixth sense gifts. I knew they were there, but allowed them to lay dormant most of the time. The day of my mother’s death, I held her hand and told her she could visit me anytime. I was not afraid. And I hoped she would visit me in my dreams. Which she did. Early and often. But she also visited me in my fully awakened state, too. Of course, most people don’t believe that, but that’s okay. I know what I have seen, heard and felt, and that is all that matters.

Rediscovering and exploring my gifts

Being in contact with my mother — and, eventually, HER mother, as well — on a daily basis set me into research mode. I read the works of psychic mediums. I played with pendulums and Tarot cards. I tried all kinds of divination tools. I found most of them to be somewhat accurate, but not all that user friendly. Plus, there was that “gypsy” and “witch” stigma attached to them. And I’m so NOT a gypsy. Nor am I a witch. But I was still interested in the “why” and the “how” of these extrasensory gifts.

When I was a child, my mother often described me as “perceptive” and “sensitive” when it came to my empath nature. She knew that I knew things that most ordinary kids didn’t know. I never really told her about the things I saw. Spirits in the woods and shit like that. Somehow I knew she wouldn’t believe me if I told her anyway. In fact, I told no one about any of it. Ever.

Finding and losing my twin flame

Shortly after my mother died, in the spring of 2007, I met someone unlike any other person I’d ever encountered in my life. The first time our eyes met, a blinding light flashed in hers. It was so bright, and so startling, I immediately looked away. And I thought, did that just happen? For real? It seemed so…ScyFy. Fear of the unknown prompted me to avoid her as much as possible the first few weeks that I knew her. It wasn’t easy, since we were playing on the same softball team and running with the same crowd. Not to mention that the attraction was crazy magnetic. Unusual, magical things happened when I was nowhere near her, too, that I just knew and felt were related to my connection with her, although we had not even officially “connected” at this point, if you know what I mean. I never mentioned this stuff to her because, really, how do you explain the unexplainable?

It wasn’t until she first uttered the term “forever love” and I saw this amazing dance of colors in her eyes that I realized that this is what our connection was. An undeniable, undying, unconditional love that had spanned many lifetimes. And, of course, I argued there could not possibly be any such thing. I was 36 years old, after all, and I had already had three long-term relationships. Head took over heart with a literal interpretation. Fear triggered resistance.

Eventually, and inevitably, a romance did blossom, but it was short lived. Despite our separation, I still felt strongly connected. Several months later, we tried to reconnect, but failed miserably. It didn’t make sense. Especially since, even years afterward, I still felt as strongly connected as I did in the summer of 2007. It just wouldn’t die. And no other relationship afterward worked because of it. And still won’t. From almost two years ago, when I first began my Akashic journey, to this very day, which I will note is December 21, 2011. Winter solstice. One year outside the dawn of the new era — Winter Solstice 2012.

Loss, loss and more loss

After these two devastating losses, I truly felt I had nothing more to live for. I had no purpose in life. I’d lost most of my friends, as well. I had tried to express myself in blogs, but that only led to more and more chiding and gossiping among my social circle which left me with nowhere to turn. Except inward. Which, in retrospect, is probably the best thing that could ever happen.

Through deep study, I learned more about past lives, soul groups, soul mates and soul contracts than I could have ever imagined. And then, after a month of reading How to Read the Akashic Records, I decided, after a lot of stops and starts and much struggle and panic and tears, that it was just time to let go of all of this. No matter what I felt, I  just had to accept that whatever the Akashic Records said as my personal truth. Even if it meant giving up on my true love.

My personal truth and purpose

I have pages and pages of handwritten journals full of recorded sessions of my time spent in the Akashic Records. Yes, I could literally write a book. To put it in the simplest terms, I got way more than I bargained for. I learned I was right about some things, and I learned I was wrong about many more.

First and foremost, I learned that I have been right all along about the forever love, twin-flame, sacred-union soul mate thing. And I learned I was wrong about no longer having a purpose once I lost her and my mother. The truth is, I chose to incarnate into this particular life at this particular time with MANY soul contracts.

The first soul contract was made over 700 years ago with a ring of 499 other light beings, Pleiadian in origin, to incarnate into physical beings on planet Earth to help raise the vibrations over a course of many lifetimes and incarnations. My Akashic Records say that I have incarnated 39 times, 37 times as a human being on the planet Earth. My twin-flame soul mate and I have incarnated together all 37 times, in soul contract with one another.

My Masters, Teachers and Loved Ones of my personal records have confirmed this fact through a personal friend of mine. She contacted me the day after I first opened my records and asked if they had anything to do with numbers. When I asked why she posed that question, she told me that when she was napping the day before, her dreams kept being interrupted by a piece of notebook paper on which the message 37 Akashic Record Jen appeared. She said this happened at least five times throughout her dream sequence. When I asked the records what the significance was, they said it was their way of confirming not only that number of lifetimes was true, but that the records, in case I had any doubt, were very, very real.

My soul contract for this life was made with several other light beings, and that was to help two families overcome the negative energy cast onto one by the other. This “curse” has affected one family for several generations. It took me a long time to piece this one together, but, once the records showed me the several “ah ha” moments throughout my lifetime leading up to this truth, it all made sense. The physical family I belong to in this lifetime is the one affected by the “curse.” My twin-flame soul mate is currently involved with a member of the family that cast the dark spell that has not only caused turmoil for the family I chose to help, but has also deeply affected the descendants of the family of the casters even worse.

The spell that was cast specified that all the men in the family I am helping would never, ever be successful in life. It has inflicted generations of depression, physical abuse, alcoholism and personal failure. For the family of the spell casters, it has tortured them with incurable disease, learning disabilities, dyslexia and poverty. The negative energy that stems from both of these families is vast, as everyone they come in contact with is affected by it. This is why my soul group chose to assist this particular “family feud” as their cleanup project. Some of the participants in this cleanup are members of my Pleaidian Ring of 500, while others are not.

In theory, what needs to happen here is for the individual in the spell-caster family to send love to the affected family in order to heal both. The “love” in this case being my twin-flame soul mate. I am told by the records that the higher selves of all parties involved are fully aware of this agreement and that, upon awakening, this gesture will be made, with blessings, by the involved individual who belongs to the spell-caster family. Then, and only then, will the negative energy afflicting these two families be released.

After my twin flame returns, we will join together as post-2012 healers here on Earth through word and vision.

The waiting game

My records have provided many very specific details regarding everyone involved over the past 23 months, all of which have checked out to be accurate. These little nuggets of information are what keep my faith in my twin flame alive. In my heart, I know she will do the right thing. My head, however, is another story. I hope that one day I can report on the happy ending to the first portion of this soul contract. Until then, I wait for first contact from my twin flame.

This, of course, is just one piece of my story. After living 37 lifetimes here on Earth with 499 dedicated Pleiadian family members, there are many, many more. Stay tuned.

Akasha: One amazing journey after another.


If you’ve not yet discovered the Akashic Records, or not had a reading, NOW is a good time! I began exploring my own Akashic Records in January of 2010. It took me a good month or so to work up the courage to open them. You have to be willing to face the truth, you see. And that means possibly letting go of old patterns, ideas, beliefs, and, yes, sometimes even love.

If you’re into reading the works of spiritualists, you may be finding a common phrase in many of their works:

“Remember who you are.”

Huh?

Yeah. I know. Head scratch. Brow rub. Chin tug.

What does THAT mean?

And then there’s the inevitable pregnant pause…

…super-deep inhale…

and the burning question…

“Who AM I?”

Followed by the even more challenging…

“Why am I here?”

And the ever mind-boggling…

“What is my purpose?”

These are all very good questions for your Akashic Records — the keepers of all the details of every life your soul has ever lived and will live. Or, as some folks believe, all the lives your soul is living right now.

Yes. Simultaneously.

Head scratch.

Brow rub.

Chin tug.

Yeah, I know. Still trying to get my head around that one, myself. I mean, if I’m living several lives at this very moment, then why am I stuck here, in the loneliest, most painful and mundane one, for what seems like eons?

That is also a very good question for your Akashic Records. But, brace yourself! The answer may be loaded with way more WTFs than you ever imagined!

Which always brings you back around to this simple reminder: Remember who you are.

And the answer to that is simple. You are a spiritual light being having a human experience. Or several, even, if you can believe that. Which I do believe probably comes from the theory that there is no past, and there is no future; there is only right now.

And this is where I say, “But right now kinda sucks…”

So I open my Akashic Records and I find out more about who I am. Where I came from. Why I’m here. Where I’m going. And what it all means.

Sounds like an escape, doesn’t it?

In some ways, it is. But, when I look at my alternatives — television, Internet, housework — it is usually the most valuable (not to mention affordable) escape available. And it has changed my life so much.

The information I’ve received from my records has helped make sense out of those things that once made no sense at all. It has given me a broader perspective on anything and everything to which I am connected. And it has helped me unravel the mysteries involving those all-too-real dreams that make me go, “Whuuuut tha…?”

My Akashic Records have also helped me understand that everything and everyone on this planet are somehow connected. Whether we like it or not, that IS the truth.

In the coming months, I plan to begin sharing some of my story about my Akashic Records and how they have helped me remember who I am, why I’m here, where I’m going, and what it all means.

Why?

Good question. My first thought about this was, “Who would really even be interested?”

But, now that more and more spiritualists are reminding us, “Remember who you are,” it feels like a good time to share how you can begin to tap into your own personal truth by showing you how I did it. Not just through my own readings, but through readings I have done for my close friends, as well. We’ve learned that we are a very close-knit soul group, connected by “other lives,” and the information we have learned has cinched our bond even tighter.

I look forward to sharing with you our adventures through the Akashic Records. It certainly has been one amazing journey after another.

Magical Messages


Monday, December 21, 2009 ~ Winter Solstice

I have read that the veils between the physical and spirit worlds are thin on the solstice and equinox dates. I’m not sure WHY this is, but I have read it in numerous articles.

Until my mom died on February 15, 2007, I never noticed much about the spirit world. I’d had creepy experiences in my freshman dorm at 4 Charlesgate East in Boston, MA, back in 1989, (such as objects flying across the room in front of my very eyes) but I never really cared to delve into it. I just acknowledged the presence of the energy and told it that I would respect it as long as it respected me and my property. Things seemed to work out alright after that.

Before my mom died, I had experienced more mysterious things, but, like most people, I would just blow it off as “strangeness” or try to find a logical explanation. After my mom died, however, I really began to notice things…and realize them for what they actually were, rather than making excuses. Cupboards opening, oracle cards being bent, jewelry pieces being disconnected, objects being moved, and, yes, candles lighting themselves were some of the little things that happened around my house on occasion.

I’ve also seen my mother’s handwriting in the bathroom rug, with reminder messages…as if she’s still alive…and she and my grandmother actually appeared in my bathroom mirror one day when I was scrying. Normally only my spirit guides show themselves to me in the mirror when I’m scrying, so seeing mom and grandma that one day was a total shocker.

This is why people think I’m crazy, by the way, because I have opened myself and my third-eye chakra to the spirit world. A few years ago, I would have thought it crazy, too. My attitude was: why talk to dead people? That’s creepy. And weird.

Actually…they’re NOT dead. Just their physical body is gone. Their energy is with us until they decide to move on (whether that is to reincarnate or become a spirit guide is entirely up to them). There is really nothing creepy or weird about it. It’s totally natural. We know this when we’re wee little tykes, but we’re taught to unlearn everything we know…because it’s “creepy and weird.”

Until someone with whom you share unconditional love dies, you may never understand this. Even AFTER that person dies, you may never understand it. But, if you are brave and willing, it may just be worth your while to sit and hold someone’s hand as that person leaves the physical and crosses into the spirit world. I guarantee you that person will be eternally grateful for your willingness to be present as he or she faces the ultimate fear in life…which is “death.”

Holding someone’s hand as the soul crosses from physical to spiritual opens the door for you…if you wish to accept it. If you tell the person crossing you wish to hear from him or her, you will, IF that really is your true desire. The connection will never be lost.

My personal gift is clairaudience, or telepathy. I can hear the thoughts of others — both in the physical and spirit worlds. Usually I only hear thoughts that are directed toward me, so rest assured, this is not an invasive talent. I don’t purposely try to read people’s thoughts unless they are trying to communicate directly with me.

How do I “know” this talent is real? Well, when I receive a thought from someone, and then a text, phone call, email, or IM shortly thereafter from that very person that states something similar, it’s pretty much a huge cinder-block hint that this IS my talent.

So, as you can guess, normally I HEAR from my mom. Especially on days when I am really struggling or stressed, my mom will come through with a reassuring word or sound motherly advice. Sometimes other things will happen, such as her handwriting appearing in the bathroom rug, or I’ll get a glimpse of her full-body apparition (very rare), or I’ll see her in the mirror (twice). Mostly, if I see her, it’s in my dreams. All of this is magical. It is something I truly treasure.

On Monday, December 21, 2009 (winter solstice) my mom came through again. Several times. December 21, 1934 was her birth date. I had a hard day, and every time I thought of her, sadness and tears welled up within me. She would immediately say, “It’s okay, baby. I’m right here. I’m always right here,” every time. I finally managed to settle down later that evening. I remember that I had lit five colored candles in my living room for the angels I work with on a regular basis. Once I had finished my session with the angels, I blew out all the candles and went to take a shower. When I came back out into the living room to turn off the tree lights, I noticed one single candle burning. A white candle. One I never lit.

I sat down on the couch and stared at it. How the…? What the…?

And then my mom spoke. She said, “You don’t have to miss me. I am always here with you.”

When I told my best friend from high school about the candle that lit itself she told me, without skipping a beat, “It was your mom. She lit the candle for her birthday.”

That amazed me, because I did not tell her anything about hearing from my mom right after I noticed the dancing flame of the candle I never lit. She just knew.

It’s nice to have confirmation from my friends that I’m not crazy, weird, or psycho. That may have been the most magical message of all.