My Akashic Journey – Chapter Three – Reversing the Curse


Reversing a curse is no small task. And one of this magnitude, that has affected generations of families for over a century and requires what seems like a miracle to lift it…wow. I just don’t even know what to say about it, to be honest. Why I would get involved with something like this is beyond me. All I can say is that my higher self must be one tough, badass bitch who doesn’t back down or take no for an answer. Especially when I just have to sit here and watch it all play out.

In it to win it

Oh, you don’t know how many times I have quit. I’ve screamed. I’ve cursed. I’ve beat myself up. I’ve even hated myself for this. I’ve begged for an early exit. Beam me up. Let me go! I just can’t DO this anymore. It is NOT AT ALL easy. But I know I have to stay here and see it through. I have to somehow hold light. Send light. Forget the pain of it all as I wait…wait…wait…and wait some more. And fucking BELIEVE. Yeah. BELIEVE in her…somehow…some way…I still have to trust and believe. Even though everything I SEE does not jive with what my records say.  It’s gut wrenching. It’s heart wrenching. At times, it’s even faith wrenching.

I’m no Jedi. And even Luke Skywalker had doubts, right? Even after Yoda raised his ship out of the swamp, Skywalker said: “I don’t believe it.”

And Yoda said: “That is why you fail.”

So, yes, I must continue to believe in my twin flame. I must continue to have faith she will follow through. That is my role in this soul contract. Fortunately, with the combined strength of the Akashic Records, supportive lightworker friends, and shifting energies, my role is becoming easier these days.

Once more, with purpose

More and more of my surrounding friends understand that we are here to clean up this planet. Not just the physical damage to mother Earth, but the energetic pollution as well. That is why it is so important for my twin flame and I, with a little bit of help from the spell-caster descendant, to reverse this curse.

If you think of the planet as one huge mansion that needs a cleaning that no one team or crew can handle on their own, then you understand the importance that each individual cleans his or her own room, while we come together to clean the common areas. It’s, like, okay, you vacuum the floors, then I’ll mop, and our friend, here, will dust. Make sense? That’s why we have these soul groups with contracts. We accepted the responsibility to clean our specific wing.

Perhaps we were never connected to the families we chose to help with this particular cleanup, but we volunteered, nonetheless. We didn’t count on it being such a dirty job. And that’s just it. When we’re light beings, we’re all knowing. We’re clear on every role we’ve ever played since we began incarnating on this planet. And we’re born knowing, too. But the density of this 3D world makes us quickly forget. We always think it will be SO EASY. But it never is. And we have to find our way…over and over again.

Stop thinking; start feeling.

Fortunately, we’re all born with an internal compass. Our heart. And I’m not talking about the organ in our chest that pumps blood. I’m talking about our energetic heart chakra. The heart of our soul. Now, if we could just STOP THINKING and rely on our hearts, we would all be on our well-lighted spiritual paths.

And that’s ALL it’s going to take to reverse this curse. At least, that is what my Akashic Records say. Repeatedly. Check it out:

Akashic Record Journal Entry February 10, 2010

What is the final lesson my twin flame needs to learn from the descendant of the spell casters?

The lesson she is to learn is not complex. It is a simple one, indeed. It is her lower self that is making this lesson difficult. Logic is getting in the way of the heart. She is not following her heart. She is afraid to follow her heart.

So the lesson she needs to learn is to follow her heart and not her head?

Exactly.

How can we ever get her to do that?

“WE” cannot. It has to be her own realization. Her own desire. She has to find her own way.

How, though? What needs to happen for her to realize this?

Once again, she will suffer great loss. That is what it takes for people to finally wake up. It takes great loss for people to have a new outlook on life — to appreciate it more — to try to find meaning in it all.

Akashic Record Journal Entry April 7, 2o10

What is my twin flame’s purpose to the descendant of the spell casters?

To provide her with the opportunity to teach your twin flame the lesson she needs to learn to release the Karmic debt for the spell caster family.

What is the lesson she will teach my twin flame?

To follow her heart — back to you.

How will that help release the spell-caster family’s Karmic debt?

The spell-caster family will finally be sending the Freer family LOVE instead of darkness and hate. This act — this sacrifice — releases the curse.

So the spell-caster descendant must have entered this soul contract with us, is that correct?

She did. She agreed to it.

So it is all predetermined?

Yes.

Any of us could opt out at any time, though, correct?

Deal breakers will only cause more pain, trouble, darkness and despair.

What can I do to ensure this all comes through as planned?

Have faith and hold the light for your twin flame. And her girlfriend. Trust that they will follow through. Keep talking to your twin flame. You both have this telepathic gift for a reason.

But only her higher self hears me.

It all downloads eventually. The stronger and more frequent the communication, the faster it will download. Things will all work out. She hears you. She just thinks it’s her imagination right now.

How can I convince her otherwise?

Strong, frequent communication. Send the thoughts. Send the light. Keep talking to her.

What do I tell her?

That you understand why she’s with the spell-caster family’s descendant. That you know it’s all part of the plan. That you trust her. That you love her. That you know she will return when the time is right. She needs this reassurance. She needs to know you believe in her. You can’t be angry at her for this. You have to let go of the anger and the hurt. This is what you all agreed to. Accept it. She’ll be back.

You have work to do together. Remember that. This blissful reunion between you and your twin flame will provide you with the power to be the word + the vision. Never forget that. It is YOUR purpose, once the two of you are together.

More on this word + vision business

Friday, January 22, 2010

Why would my twin flame return to me?

You’re stable. That’s what she needs in a relationship. In a partnership. Stability. You will nurture her. You will help her grow. The spell-caster descendant cannot help her do that. Not spiritually. And this is where we need you — where the Universe needs you — to help your twin flame grow spiritually so the two of you can fulfill your prophecy together.

What is our prophecy?

The spiritual truth. The word + the vision. That is you and her. You are the word. She is the vision.

Okay, but what are we to do, exactly?

Words + Vision = Truth. The Cancer and the Aquarian. She needs you. You are her Mary Magdalene.

[Author’s note: I know, I know. Insert SNORT, here. Eye rolls. I did the same thing. Ugh, puhleeeze! This is what prompted my next sarcastic question…]

And she is Jesus? [Eye rolls]

Something like that.

The Age of Aquarius? The New Age. Is she the Moses/Jesus of the New Age? [Author’s note: I later learned this is also known as the era of “Christ consciousness,” which is for all of us to obtain, not just a select few. It IS a matter of choice, however. And, no, you don’t have to be “Christian” or belong to a “Christian” church to
obtain it.]

You both are. You both will be. Leaders of the New Age.

But we’re such peons.

No. Not even close. Royalty. Light royalty. Remember, Jesus was the son of a carpenter and a carpenter himself. He was a simple man who taught the simple truth. You are the teacher. She is the illustrator. Together, your message will reach MILLIONS. You cannot do this without each other. You NEED each other.

What if she doesn’t believe it?

You’re not the one who will convince her. Remember, we told you, this isn’t your fight. She will come around when she is ready.

Well, she did say years ago that we would make a great team.

As business partners. This is so much more than that. This is global, New Age stuff. This is the ESSENCE of what 2012 is all about.

Quitters never win. Winners never quit.

I know people will read this and think, “She’s out of her mind! Call the little white truck.”

That’s okay. Won’t be the first time folks have said this about me. What’s important now is that I’m surrounded by true friends who say, “Makes sense to me! What can I do to help?”

My response: Don’t let me give up.

I came here with a purpose. I remember who I am. I know who my twin flame is. I know what kind of power we possess when we are united. We are magical. And together we can help heal the world. Pray for us to reunite, and we will show you.

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My Akashic Journey – Chapter One – Seeking Truth


Don’t you hate it when all you want is the truth and NO ONE can give it to you?

From February 2007 through January 2010, I was on a god damn mission and hell bent to find answers. Before that, I was just sleepwalking through life, content to have a job, personal transportation, a loving life partner, a roof over our heads, two cute chihuahuas and some enjoyable hobbies. I mean, after all, that’s what life is all about, isn’t it?

Well, in February 2007, my mom and best friend in life lost her battle with lung cancer. In her defense, I must say, she never once smoked a cigarette. She hated cigarette smoke, but, in the end, her exposure to secondhand smoke is ultimately what claimed her physical body. At the time, I was not fully tuned into my sixth sense gifts. I knew they were there, but allowed them to lay dormant most of the time. The day of my mother’s death, I held her hand and told her she could visit me anytime. I was not afraid. And I hoped she would visit me in my dreams. Which she did. Early and often. But she also visited me in my fully awakened state, too. Of course, most people don’t believe that, but that’s okay. I know what I have seen, heard and felt, and that is all that matters.

Rediscovering and exploring my gifts

Being in contact with my mother — and, eventually, HER mother, as well — on a daily basis set me into research mode. I read the works of psychic mediums. I played with pendulums and Tarot cards. I tried all kinds of divination tools. I found most of them to be somewhat accurate, but not all that user friendly. Plus, there was that “gypsy” and “witch” stigma attached to them. And I’m so NOT a gypsy. Nor am I a witch. But I was still interested in the “why” and the “how” of these extrasensory gifts.

When I was a child, my mother often described me as “perceptive” and “sensitive” when it came to my empath nature. She knew that I knew things that most ordinary kids didn’t know. I never really told her about the things I saw. Spirits in the woods and shit like that. Somehow I knew she wouldn’t believe me if I told her anyway. In fact, I told no one about any of it. Ever.

Finding and losing my twin flame

Shortly after my mother died, in the spring of 2007, I met someone unlike any other person I’d ever encountered in my life. The first time our eyes met, a blinding light flashed in hers. It was so bright, and so startling, I immediately looked away. And I thought, did that just happen? For real? It seemed so…ScyFy. Fear of the unknown prompted me to avoid her as much as possible the first few weeks that I knew her. It wasn’t easy, since we were playing on the same softball team and running with the same crowd. Not to mention that the attraction was crazy magnetic. Unusual, magical things happened when I was nowhere near her, too, that I just knew and felt were related to my connection with her, although we had not even officially “connected” at this point, if you know what I mean. I never mentioned this stuff to her because, really, how do you explain the unexplainable?

It wasn’t until she first uttered the term “forever love” and I saw this amazing dance of colors in her eyes that I realized that this is what our connection was. An undeniable, undying, unconditional love that had spanned many lifetimes. And, of course, I argued there could not possibly be any such thing. I was 36 years old, after all, and I had already had three long-term relationships. Head took over heart with a literal interpretation. Fear triggered resistance.

Eventually, and inevitably, a romance did blossom, but it was short lived. Despite our separation, I still felt strongly connected. Several months later, we tried to reconnect, but failed miserably. It didn’t make sense. Especially since, even years afterward, I still felt as strongly connected as I did in the summer of 2007. It just wouldn’t die. And no other relationship afterward worked because of it. And still won’t. From almost two years ago, when I first began my Akashic journey, to this very day, which I will note is December 21, 2011. Winter solstice. One year outside the dawn of the new era — Winter Solstice 2012.

Loss, loss and more loss

After these two devastating losses, I truly felt I had nothing more to live for. I had no purpose in life. I’d lost most of my friends, as well. I had tried to express myself in blogs, but that only led to more and more chiding and gossiping among my social circle which left me with nowhere to turn. Except inward. Which, in retrospect, is probably the best thing that could ever happen.

Through deep study, I learned more about past lives, soul groups, soul mates and soul contracts than I could have ever imagined. And then, after a month of reading How to Read the Akashic Records, I decided, after a lot of stops and starts and much struggle and panic and tears, that it was just time to let go of all of this. No matter what I felt, I  just had to accept that whatever the Akashic Records said as my personal truth. Even if it meant giving up on my true love.

My personal truth and purpose

I have pages and pages of handwritten journals full of recorded sessions of my time spent in the Akashic Records. Yes, I could literally write a book. To put it in the simplest terms, I got way more than I bargained for. I learned I was right about some things, and I learned I was wrong about many more.

First and foremost, I learned that I have been right all along about the forever love, twin-flame, sacred-union soul mate thing. And I learned I was wrong about no longer having a purpose once I lost her and my mother. The truth is, I chose to incarnate into this particular life at this particular time with MANY soul contracts.

The first soul contract was made over 700 years ago with a ring of 499 other light beings, Pleiadian in origin, to incarnate into physical beings on planet Earth to help raise the vibrations over a course of many lifetimes and incarnations. My Akashic Records say that I have incarnated 39 times, 37 times as a human being on the planet Earth. My twin-flame soul mate and I have incarnated together all 37 times, in soul contract with one another.

My Masters, Teachers and Loved Ones of my personal records have confirmed this fact through a personal friend of mine. She contacted me the day after I first opened my records and asked if they had anything to do with numbers. When I asked why she posed that question, she told me that when she was napping the day before, her dreams kept being interrupted by a piece of notebook paper on which the message 37 Akashic Record Jen appeared. She said this happened at least five times throughout her dream sequence. When I asked the records what the significance was, they said it was their way of confirming not only that number of lifetimes was true, but that the records, in case I had any doubt, were very, very real.

My soul contract for this life was made with several other light beings, and that was to help two families overcome the negative energy cast onto one by the other. This “curse” has affected one family for several generations. It took me a long time to piece this one together, but, once the records showed me the several “ah ha” moments throughout my lifetime leading up to this truth, it all made sense. The physical family I belong to in this lifetime is the one affected by the “curse.” My twin-flame soul mate is currently involved with a member of the family that cast the dark spell that has not only caused turmoil for the family I chose to help, but has also deeply affected the descendants of the family of the casters even worse.

The spell that was cast specified that all the men in the family I am helping would never, ever be successful in life. It has inflicted generations of depression, physical abuse, alcoholism and personal failure. For the family of the spell casters, it has tortured them with incurable disease, learning disabilities, dyslexia and poverty. The negative energy that stems from both of these families is vast, as everyone they come in contact with is affected by it. This is why my soul group chose to assist this particular “family feud” as their cleanup project. Some of the participants in this cleanup are members of my Pleaidian Ring of 500, while others are not.

In theory, what needs to happen here is for the individual in the spell-caster family to send love to the affected family in order to heal both. The “love” in this case being my twin-flame soul mate. I am told by the records that the higher selves of all parties involved are fully aware of this agreement and that, upon awakening, this gesture will be made, with blessings, by the involved individual who belongs to the spell-caster family. Then, and only then, will the negative energy afflicting these two families be released.

After my twin flame returns, we will join together as post-2012 healers here on Earth through word and vision.

The waiting game

My records have provided many very specific details regarding everyone involved over the past 23 months, all of which have checked out to be accurate. These little nuggets of information are what keep my faith in my twin flame alive. In my heart, I know she will do the right thing. My head, however, is another story. I hope that one day I can report on the happy ending to the first portion of this soul contract. Until then, I wait for first contact from my twin flame.

This, of course, is just one piece of my story. After living 37 lifetimes here on Earth with 499 dedicated Pleiadian family members, there are many, many more. Stay tuned.