My Akashic Journey – Chapter Four – One Powerful Connection
How do you know you have a very powerful twin-flame connection in a dualistic universe? When others are constantly getting in the way and making low-down dirty attempts to keep you apart.
Playing with fire.
When people will say anything and do anything — cross ethical and spiritual boundaries, even — to make sure you and your twin flame will never, ever reunite, you know you have a very powerful connection. One that endures all the adversity. One that laughs in the face of these petty little pawns and rooks who think they can somehow undo the connection or diminish the power with futile schemes and manipulative games.
Word to the wise ass: never, EVER fuck with incarnate twin flames. Or you will, undoubtedly, suffer third-degree burns.
Red-hot spiritual agenda.
Twin flame soul mates don’t incarnate together to have a hot and steamy love affair or the ultimate romantic relationship. They have been together for eons. Yes, they have a very deep, emotional soul connection, but it’s more than just that, even. They’re here with an agenda. A spiritual agenda. One that tests traditions and blasts social boundaries to smithereens. One that challenges humanity to expand their comfort zones and open their hearts.
For my twin flame and me, our agenda has always been to challenge social norms in the relationship department. In other lives, we’ve been interracial couples and same-sex lovers. And yes, we’ve even died for our cause. My twin flame and I have been murdered numerous times for our “forbidden love.” But when one is left incarnate to mourn the loss, we’ve never lost our connection. Through all the pain and turmoil, we are still bound, eternally and faithfully, by an undying, unconditional love. That is our promise to one another as light beings and physical beings. We are attached by silver cords and gold cords that can never be severed. Believe me. I know. I have tried.
Now why would I want to do that, you ask? Well, until I understood these cords could never be cut, I thought I could ceremoniously sever the energetic cords that bound us to stop the deep, constant pain of being separate. A spirit guide then approached and said, “No. Stop trying. It cannot be done.” And that’s when I learned of the silver (past life) and gold (spiritual attainment) cords that bind us as soul mates. And, still later, I learned we’re not just soul mates, but twin-flame soul mates, which is even more powerful.
Scorching synchronicity.
Just how powerful is this connection? Imagine every place you go, you get a synchronistic reminder. Maybe, as your mind wanders over memories of times you spent together while you’re driving somewhere, a song from that exact time (four years ago) suddenly plays on your favorite Top 40 radio station, and a car just like your twin flame’s pulls out in front of you or is driving toward you. It could be as subtle as that. Or it could be way more “in your face.”
For example, when I was dating someone new, who actually knew my twin flame and the make, model and color of the car she drove, we were both a bit freaked out when we walked back to her truck to find the same make, model and color car parked next to hers, TWICE, in two different locations ON THE SAME NIGHT. After that, whenever we were together, we saw at least one car exactly like my twin flame’s either on the road or in parking lots.
I began to notice that any time I was dating someone, even though my twin flame and I had been separated for quite some time, that these type of synchronicities — from songs to similar cars to initials on license plates and logos that reminded me of her — would dramatically increase, along with dreams of her, telepathic conversations with her, and sometimes even astral body contact. Of course, nobody believes me, but it all happened. Sometimes even with eye witnesses who would then turn to me in disbelief and say, “My god, she still loves you.”
Just a heartbeat away.
I couldn’t deny that SOMEthing was still there. Whether it was love or just energy, I didn’t know. As cool as it was, it also sometimes felt like torture. I finally decided I needed to ask my Akashic Records about it. This is how the session went on Sunday, January 24, 2010:
Where does the energy come from that creates the synchronicities that remind me of my twin flame when I’m dating or with someone else?
The energy comes from her and your connection to her. It is sparked by thought — jealousy, rage, the desire for power and control. When your twin flame thinks of you with someone else, she wants you to remember her. To think ONLY of HER. She sends out thought patterns that create the synchronicities. It’s a form of psychic vampire-ness. When you are with someone else, it is more prevalent because the thoughts of you with someone else are torturing her mind. When you are not with someone, she relaxes and the patterns slow, so it is just telepathy you share.
So she creates these things with her mind alone?
Yes.
What are the things I am seeing and hearing — are they really taking place, or are they holograms?
Holograms? No. These things actually manifest. If they were holograms, your friends would not be able to see them.
How does my twin flame actually have the power to manifest these things into reality?
She is powerful. She will get what she wants. That is not to say she goes about it in the right or appropriate way. She has tons of magic up her sleeve. This is why she gets the women and keeps them attracted to her. She is enjoying the power trip. This is why you need to stay quiet.
Stay quiet with the telepathy, too?
Not necessarily. The telepathy being exchanged is with her higher self. It is better for you to communicate with her this way than in the physical. Keep her ego out of it. She is on an ego trip when she does these things.
Is she aware that she is doing it?
She is aware of what she wishes, but she can’t possibly know the results.
So, if I were not connected to her, then I would probably not experience the synchronicities?
True. Correct. Your connection to her is not one that can be closed or cut off, however. You are connected by silver cords and gold cords that keep your souls connected, always/forever.
What about the astral travel? Is that real?
Between the two of you? Of course. You’re travelers, and this is something the two of you do well together. It is why she equates to Superman — all the flying dreams she has. They are not dreams. They are actually journeys your souls take together when your astral bodies are free from ego. But this is why she identifies with Superman. The flying. The two of you have been doing this together for many, many eons — in and out of physical incarnation. It is what you will do together when you reunite, too. In many aspects, your souls will “fly.”
Why can I not feel her as strongly or see her astral body like I used to?
Her energy has been weakened by stress, prescription pain medications and sleep aids. They’re weighing her down. It will change when you’re back together. Healing will take place and medications will no longer be needed.
How can I believe in the telepathic messages she sends me when she says one thing and shows another?
You are connected to her higher self. The lower self is the one who is doing the opposite of what her higher self is saying to you.
Will they ever merge and be the same person?
Yes, of course. This is what you’re all striving for. It’s in that final lesson she will learn from the spell-caster’s descendent that she will find her higher self. You have no reason to doubt or be disappointed.
How will I ever be able to date or have a relationship with anyone without my twin flame’s energy interfering?
Why would you want to when you love her? When your heart is WITH HER?
Because I’m still not sure WHEN she’ll come around.
She’ll come around soon enough that you don’t need to worry about dating anyone else.
But I’m lonely.
How? She is right there, always a breath away. Just a heartbeat away. You will notice when she’s there with you. You hear a double heartbeat. That is her. Right there with you. There is no reason to doubt. She’s always been there. Even before you knew her or she knew you in this life. You are twin soul mates. It is like you are sharing the same womb.
So it is okay for me to continue assuring her I love her?
Absolutely! That’s what we mean by “holding the light.” She comes to you because she is seeking to be with you.
Even though she’s with someone else?
Yes. We told you. This woman she is with is nothing. Not a threat. Just a pawn. Your twin flame’s lower and higher selves both want you. That is their common bond. Her energy will never leave you. Not even in death. She wants to be with you. She tells you that over and over again. Do us ALL a favor and BELIEVE her. She travels to you every night to be with you — even when she is laying next to that other woman. Her heart is with YOU. Her soul is with YOU. Her BODY is misplaced at the moment, but will soon follow her heart and soul. No worries. When the time is right, she will return.
I have more questions about the synchronicities she manifests into reality. Is she literally thinking, “Make her see a car like mine,” or “Play this song on the radio now?” Is that how it works?
No. Not exactly. She might picture something in her mind, like driving past you. Or she may be thinking of a song that she wants you to hear, or even just thinking of a song that reminds her how she feels about you or the situation, and then it will play for you.
Resistance is futile.
Although part of me wants to chalk all this up to coincidence or “just my imagination,” the simple truth of the matter is that it’s not. All of this is really happening, and still happening, on a very regular basis. As much as I would like to walk away from it all, and just start a brand new life in a new town where no one knows me at all, I know in my heart the efforts would not change anything. This is why I choose to believe…and trust…and continue to have faith that one day we will be together again. Until then, the situation just really sucks. Well, for me anyway. Especially with all the games being played by manipulative souls who haven’t a clue what they’re dealing with. I know my lesson to learn is to not let ego freak out about these games, but, of course, being human in 3D density makes that a bit difficult 99 percent of the time. I suppose the day that I can observe another attempt by a dark soul to keep us apart and not react to it or worry about it will be the day that I graduate — in faith — to the next level. Believe me, I am looking forward to that day.
wow – very capitivating story you have – keep the FAITH and you go girl LOL
Wow, this is my story also. Maybe one day I will post a reply about it. Here is a website that explains the dynamics of Twin Flames and why they separate. http://why-twin-flames-run.weebly.com/index.html. For all of us that yearn for our Twin Flames, may we find forgiveness & unconditional love for self so we may rejoin with our beloved Twin Flames in this incarnation. Namaste.
My twin is married has been 18 years. We see each other twice a week in a neutral place, a place where we can’t let on our true feelings. We have been intimate twice. We went to the same high school and 2 years ago, crossed paths again in this neutral setting. It is very intense and now we have “broken up” a few times, because I couldn’t handle his situation but I wanted to share with you that you are not crazy. I see his prefix off his license all the time, I even saw it this morning in the Starbucks parking lot. This is after I broke it off with him again yesterday. I am also even beginning to see vehicles like his, same year/make/model, new ones, old ones. You actually shed some light on this subject for me…I thought it was because I was thinking about him incessantly that I was the one attracting these things to myself, but reading what you wrote about your twin, I had some new insight that I intuited before…that his energy is very, very powerful, somehow magical. When he looks at me in this setting we frequent, he doesn’t have to say a word…he looks at me and I know he is communicating to me, or casting a spell over me, as I have seen him lock eyes with other females in the place he may be attracted to. I feel that he knows he has this power over some women and is operating from his lower self, seeing if he still “has it”. He often goes out of his way to make me jealous by showing other females attention in my presence to try to get a reaction out of me. It drives me insane with jealousy, so I know this is an area I need to work on within myself. But I know he is using them to get to me. He does some very unevolved things, but it still makes me love him no less. I know he is frustrated because of where he is and sees no way out. He is a poor communicator when it comes to me, but his look tells me all I need to know and trust, I know how to knock him down a peg or two when that ego gets to be out of control. If I ignore him, making no eye-contact, he makes it a point to enter my personal space or stares all night, his body constantly oriented in my direction, and always looking around until he spots me. But, unfortunately I have grown weary of this repetitive cycle where it seems nothing changes, except when I let him go and he tries to come back, our bond appears strengthened. But then, he uses the good energy I give him, takes it home and I feel like it feeds love and life into his marriage until I take it away, he always comes back for more. When I let him in, he gets what he needs and then keeps me at a safe distance to pull energy from me. He sounds like a psychic vampire, doesn’t he? But as you explained so eloquently, it is his lower self doing this. I will be so glad when the to merge, because I am now at the point where no matter how much it hurts, I want to teach him a lesson no other woman has taught him before…you see, my twin flame is a womanizer, although sweet as he can be. He definitely feels he has complete control over his emotions, over everything and everyone..but like I said, I know the power I have as his Twin. He has no idea of the concept consciously, but he knows there is something intense about what we have. Thanks so much for your insight!
The stories of twin flames seem to be varied but so similar. I cannot express how much of an emotional rollercoaster it has been since I have met my twin flame. There is not a minute that I don’t think about him. I wondered at one point “am I freaking crazy or obsessed?” But the more stories I read confirms the connection. I have only seen my twin four or five times. We live on seperate ends of our state. My twin flame and I have met declared that we were going to get married…seperated(pure hell)…reconnected(phone calls only)…and now in what seems to be limbo….I am emotionally drained and so often just want to walk away…meet someone else and live happily ever after…but something deep in my soul tells me we are not done or will be together again better than we were before. But in the meantime, I have to work more on self love…and forgive myself for all the emotional mess that came up during this whole ordeal( can anyone relate to that?) I have never ever felt anything like this in my life! What sucks or rocks( depends on how you look at it)…I feel him…when I see his name somewhere I flinch…lol…his car…people that resemble him..it just crazy..however even though we have had our disagreements we still love each other deep deep down. Anyone else going through something similar?
Definitely work on your self love, James! That is the most important thing. Until you love yourself, your twin flame cannot love himself or you. So YOU are the most important thing right now. Once you begin loving yourself, you will start to notice positive changes. I promise. <3
Self love is a journey not necessarily easy but very much necessary. Thank you so much for the encouragement. Mantra: Love melts situations that seem impossible.
Sometimes I doubt that the person I’m calling. My TF is actually my TF. The rejection at this point is somewhat unbearable. I think at thisv point I surrender what this is to God. If it is meant to be it will be. I just wish he felt the same way. Just gonna walk away its making look like complete fool and /or desperate. What do you thinj?
Giving it up to God is a great idea! It doesn’t mean you’re giving up. Just that you are letting go of the 3D attachment, which can often block or get in the way of the proper love flow. Now it is time to love yourself. I actually dated myself. Pampered myself. Took myself out to dinner. Made romantic candlelight meals for myself. Loving yourself first and foremost with raised vibrations will bring him home. Trust me. It worked for me.
This is the fourth story I have viewed on this issue. You really did a really good job at covering everything in great detail. I actually learned something from viewing your post, and wanted to just express my appreciation
Sometimes I really love the internet. I am particularly grateful for the part about speaking to your TF’s soul/higher self and being confused by the disparity between what you hear there and what you hear from the embodied human being. Thank you for sharing.
My TF and I are parted at this time and I am having this experience: feeling her so close to me especially when I am in meditation, prayer, or ceremony, being able to converse with her soul and having perfect understanding there. But what is happening in “real” life is so different that I am challenged again and again to face my old fear that I am just nuts.
Thanks for the help in battling this old karmic demon! And thanks, despite everything, for the incredible power meeting my TF in the body has given to my spiritual and emotional healing work. Even in this scorching pain, I see and feel myself growing. Reading this site, I come back to my knowing that this growing is also gifting her.